Hisashi walks slowly towards a little church. He stands in front of its gate and take a glance to his wristwatch. It's still too early from his appointment. He sighs a little and drop his eyes on the church's building.

Not too big building. Built in the centre of the town's park some years ago. Painted in white, the color of purity and sacredity. It has a big cross on its roof and a small bell tower raised beside it. It has lots of windows. Christmas is over, but there still Christmas' ornaments and small Christmas Cave in front of the church.

Hisashi walks over to the hand-made cave. It's made from wood and stone-liked-colored papers. They put some figures in it. The figure of Baby Jesus in a basket, the figure of Virgin Mary kneeling beside Him, the figure of Joseph kneeling beside his fiance, the figure of the Three Kings kneeling in front of Baby Jesus with presents in their hands, the figure of two sheperds standing beside Virgin Mary, and the figure of their kettles. There also figures of two angels hanged on the cave's roof and a shining star between them.

Hisashi stares at them blankly. The glory of the birth of The Son. The joy of the arrival of mankind's saviour. Even the Bible said that all of the Heaven's angels praised His birth. He's been told that He came to save the mankind from sins. He came to wash mankind's sin with His blood.

But Hisashi feels that he's not one of the forgiven.

"You like it, my son?"

Hisashi turns his head to see an half-ages priest standing beside the cave. He looks so wise and calm. His white robe looks like shining and created a soft aura around him. He smiles to Hisashi.

Hisashi smiles back to him, "Yeah, it's nice."

"The youths from this church made it…" the priest replies.

Hisashi nod his head.

"It's New Years's Eve. What are you doing in here? Everybody goes to town to celebrate…" the priest comments again.

"Yeah, I'm about to celebrate it too. I'm waiting for someone here, but I guess I'm too early…" Hisashi explains.

The smile still performs on the priest's face. "I see. So, would you like to come in? It's quite chill out here. You can still watch for your friend's coming from inside…"

Hisashi nod and follows the priest. The priest opens the wooden door and get in. Hisashi hesitates when he step on the first ladder. The priest senses Hisashi's manner and asks him gently, "What's the matter, my son?"

Hisashi bends his head, "I don't know, Father. I think I better wait outside…"

"Why?"

"I…I feel like…I don't permitted to get in there…" Hisashi says in tremble voice.

The priest opens the door widely. "This is God's home, my son. Everyone is invited to come in, especially those who feel like you feel right now…"

Hisashi hesitates again for a moment before he finally get in to the church. He feel strange when he feel that the air in the room is so warm. A calmly warmth. Like surround him and makes him relax.

Hisashi's eyes gazes across the room. It furnished with cherry wood. The altar is decorated in white. There are statues of Jesus and Virgin Mary at the left and right side of the altar. Some flowers and candles placed under them. There are also the statue of St. Agustine and St. Don Bosco at the back-left and back-side of the church, decorated the same as the two at the front. It is used for people who wants personal pray if they don't feel like to confessing. At the left, there's small room for confession room.

"Please, have a sit, my son…"

Hisashi opens his coat and slowly sit on the wooden chair. The priest stands in front of him. He entwins his own hands. He stares down at Hisashi concernly. "You look troubled, my son…"

Hisashi rises his head. His eyes meets the priest's water-like eyes. He casually throw his face away. "I…I'm just…thinking…"

"It must be a hard one…" the priest laughs a little.

"Father…"

"Yes, my son?"

"It's not Christmas anymore, so…would…a pray of a person like me…be granted?"

The priest stares at Hisashi deeply. "And what kind of person are you, my son?"

"I…I do lots of sins. I don't pray and sometimes I think that God doesn't exist. I hurt people. And some of them are my beloved ones. I lied. I said dirty words. I… I'm a sinner." Hisashi answers slowly. A bitter in his tone.

The priest sits in front of him. "My son, everyone is a sinner. Including me. Everyone can make a mistake. God loves all of us, my son. He has this wonderful love that He will forgive all of the sins we make. He always listen to us. No matter how good or how bad you are, He will always be by your side and listen to you, my son."

"Don't hesitate to pray. Pray is the way to bring us closer to Him. Find a place and pray, my son. Say anything from the bottom of your heart. He will always listen to you…because He's always in your heart…"

Hisashi stares blankly at the wooden floor. "If…if He's in our heart, why He doesn't remind us if we make a mistake? Why He doesn't stop us from doing something wrong?"

"Oh, He does, my son. He does. He always knocks at our hearts. It's just the matter of we open the door or not…"

Hisashi gulps down. He points the Jesus statue. "May I…pray at there?"

The priest smiles and nods. "Of course, my son. I will leave you alone. Take your time. And…we have a small mass at ten. There are just a few of us, but if you and your friend would like to join us, we will be very honored…"

"Thank you, Father…"

Hisashi stands and walks slowly to the front. His high heels produce small clicking noise. The priest watch at his back softly then he goes to the back of the church to prepare himself for the mass.

Hisashi stares at the statue. He doesn't know why, but he feels like it's not just a mere statue. He lits a candle and place it on the candle vase. He slowly bends on his knee and looks up at the statue.

"Dear, Lord…" he begins to pray silently. "I don't know why I'm in here right now. I supposed to be outside waiting for my companion, but I get in here. And here I am, kneeling in front of Thee and I don't know what to say to Thee."

"No. I have lots of things to say. Thee know that I don't pray to Thee as I supposed to. I was just praying to Thee if I was in certain condition or in fear. I never remember Thee if I was in a state of joy or something like that. But when it comes of misery and unlucky, I'm just simply blame it on Thee. And not a single time I feel guilty or ashame."

"I'm just this stupid human being. A stupid man who never feel sorry about small mistakes. A stupid man who never feel satisfy with what I have right now."

"I'm not a very good person since I was a little kid. There's always times I hurt someone or do something that I knew it's wrong but I did it anyway. I'm not a social person like others. I don't get along so well with other person I newly met. I never ignored them on purpose, but they thought so and I got mad at them."

"I always have fights with people. Just because a small unproper things. But if they don't go like I want to, I get pissed and I blame it to anyone else. I blame anyone except myself. And Thee know that I haven't talk with my mother eversince I left Hokaido years ago. I love her and I always hope that she's fine. But my ego always prevent me to come and talk to her."

"This is New Year's Eve and I know I didn't be a good person the whole year. I don't know how to make it up to them. The people I had hurt, I mean. If Thee really want to listen to me, all I can do is just pray for them."

"For my mother. Please protect her always. She's a wonderful mother. She worked hard to raise me and my brothers. I love her so much, Thee know I do. I hope she's always fine. Please give her strength to overcome all of her troubles. Please keep her great patience she has. Please give me a chance to talk to her."

"For my band. Please, whatever happens on this earth, we will stick together because GLAY is the most important thing for me, Takuro, Teru, and Jiro. This is what we're fighting for and we'll never give up on it."

"For my bestfriends. Please give them all of Your bless. They are wonderful friends I ever have all of my life. Thank you for giving us a good leader like Takuro with all of his genious mind and patience. Thank you for giving us an understanding friend like Teru with all his warmth and kindness. Thank you for giving us a bright person like Jiro with all his genki personality. All of their ideas, all of their manner, that was the cause I'm standing here right know."

"For Jiro. Thee how much I feel for him. At the beginning, I never thought I would fall for him. He's all this genki, bright, cheerfull person. A very opposite of me. We're too different and I couldn't get along well with him. There's never a day that passes by we don't have a fight. But sometimes I feel we're similar. When arranging the song or in some ways and thoughts, we're just simply similar. And I realised I love him."

"People always said that it's a sin that a guy loves another guy. But I can't help my feeling. I'm just simply falling in love with him. Like I had fallen for Izumi years ago. But now is a little different. I think I'm deeply in love and I seriously love him. Only Thee who know how much I feel and care for him. And I don't think it's a sin. I'm just loving someone. Do Thee think it's a sin?"

"I always hope he's the most happiest person in this world. With all of his love to me and all of the love I have for him."

"For myself. Please forgive me. For all the things I've done. For all the words I've said. For all the thinks I've thought. And for the next years, please give me strenght to love. Please give me strength to forgive. Please give me strength to be honest. Please give me strength to be myself. Please give me srength to help others. Please give me strength to make Jiro-chan happy. Please give me strength to talk to my mother. Please give me strength to be a strong person."

"Please forgive me. `Cause in front of Thee, I am just what I am. Amen."

Hisashi opens his eyes slowly. He recognises he's been crying while he pray. He wipes his tears away. He feels a little glad. It's strange. He never feel this glad. He glares at his wristwatch. It's already past fifteen minutes from his appointment time. He raises and walks out. He glares at the church once again before closing the door.

He tighten his coat when the cold wind welcomes him. He sees a slender figure stands leaning to the fence, rubbing his hands together. He blows a little in his hands for some warmness. The lights from the lamp shines on him. Making him looks like glowing. Hisashi know that the church suits him better than himself.

Hisashi smiles and walks near. He reaches out his hands and encircles the man's waist. The latter seems a little shock and laughs when he realises it is him.

"Maa, Hisa…you're late…"

Hisashi places a small kiss on his lover's cheek. "Gomen."

"Where have you been?"

"In there…" Hisashi answers as he moves his head to the church.

His lover lifts his eyesbrows, "Really? What are you doing in there?"

"…nothing…just waiting for you and have a little chat with someone…" he buries his face in to his lover's hair and inhales the soft sweet smell of his shampoo.

His lover stares at him straight into the eyes then smile, "You look more cheerful, Hisa…"

"Yeah, the chat makes me…"

"I should thanks the person…" his lover concludes.

"and why is that?"

His lover turn his body so now he's facing Hisashi. "Cause he make you smile like that… after during this whole week you seems like thinking about something you didn't tell me…"

Hisashi laughs, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. I'm trying to be more honest from now on…"

"That's good…"

Hisashi leans forward and kiss his lover's pout. "I love you, Jiro-chan…"

Jiro smiles on Hisashi's lips, "I love you more. I wish we'll still be together next year…"

"Forever, koi. I wish we will be together forever. That's what I wish inside…"

"God always listen to us, ne, Hisa-chan?"

Hisashi stuns for a while then he smiles sweetly, "He is…"

Hisashi release his embrace and takes Jiro's hand in his. They walk hand in hand. Hisashi feels he is forgiven. If he's not, then he must be won't feel the happiness he feel right now.