I'm a good actor.

Scratch that....I am the best actor in whole world.

They think I'm a fool, such an idiot. They think I don't know what's going on with my band, don't they realize that I am their leader? Don't they know that I _know_ everything that's going on with _my_ band?

Secrets...I know their secrets.

At first I thought it would never happen, that the two of them would never ever get along...but they don't know me, they don't know that I see every single look they give each other during practice. I know...and I watch.

That's why I couldn't believe it when they act as if I shouldn't know anything...maybe they're afraid that I wouldn't understand. Me not understand? They're in my freaking band! They're my friends...I've spent almost half of my life with them and they think I wouldn't understand? Of course I would...I'll understand because I've seen the way they look at each other. At nights when we have to stay overnight for practice, I can see how much they struggle because they can't be together.

Be together...Be with you.

Don't they know that I wrote that song for them? And the video...the video was my idea. I know the director was suppose to pair either Hisashi or Jiro with Teru because it is pretty much public knowlegde that the two of them are suppose to hate each other. I objected of course, that song was for them...it's impreative that the video should be for them also. I was paired off with Teru, not that I mind I kind of resented Teru's endless babbles but it was worth it though...because the look of those two when they were together, the smiles they gave me when they found out about the video...it was incredible.

I especially love watching the two of them during lives.

Ah the lives...rare times when they let their feelings for each other show. Especially that EXPO in Makuhari...they were practically glued to each other during the whole concert. I guess that's why they almost killed me for copies of that concert.

God, I sound like a yaoi fangirl.

I just want them to know that they have nothing to worry about, I would and I will understand because it's in them...it's in their relationship that I saw true love.

I learned their secret because I focused on the small things...the glances, the touches, the smiles though small are very meaningful.

I'm happy for them but I won't tell them anything, I won't say or imply anything because I know that they are fine the way they are. They're okay because they love each other. I don't want to make things more difficult for them so for now I'll act, I'll pretend that I don't know anything...that I'm their oblivious workaholic leader.

I'll continue to be the best actor in the world.

Because they proved that true love exists.

OWARI