By Denise Vignola
Like a puppet I react on strings I can't see
I hate when this happens, I can't even think
My thoughts swirl around, it comes on in a blink
One second calm, the next so severe
Feelings of anger, desperation and fear
I say and do things I know I'll regret
But can't seem to stop when I get this upset
In the blink of an eye my body goes crazy
My heart pounds, my blood pumps, my mind goes all hazy
I have to do something, I know it won't end
Throw something, mess something, try to offend
You can't talk to me, it won't help at all
It just makes me feel like pounding a wall
I need someplace quiet to be all alone
But can't seem to walk there, my feet turn to stone
So I stand and I yell, I cry and I fight
This part is the worst and gives me a fright
I wish I could calm down as fast as I blow
But it takes 15 minutes for my feelings to slow
I wish I wouldn't do this, that is to say
I hope I can stop it someway, someday
For now I hold on when I'm crossing the line
I always calm down and soon feel fine.