Sunday, December 26th, 2004
I just woke up, and its 7pm! i love winter break! ;o
Saturday, December 18th, 2004
Every year my parents write out a christmas card to send to relatives, friends, etc, pretty much talking about everything the family did this year. Well to be frank, i didn't do anything this past year. As i see it, my 17th year didn't even exist. I dont fucking remember anything.i think this will be the first year no one will be receiving christmas gifts from me. ;/
and when i was out the other night, i wasn't acting myself again, i thought i was trying to get over that..
finally finished The Once and Future King - truley a good piece of literature. I'm reading the Harry Potter books again till i find something else i wanna start reading; almost finished
with the first book again. Stupid knocked-up Rowling needs to seriously get her ass on top of getting the 6th book out, and stop postponing it. I mean really...she needs to start popping out books instead of babies.
I saw A Series of Unfortunate Events, which was good, i liked
it a lot more than i thought i would (you get tired of Jim Carey playing the weird, corky, typical, almost annoying role sometimes).
I guess this movie was based on the first 3 books, of the 13set series; however
I had only read the first two. But ya i liked it. just me and B, wish Aimee had been there. and well i learned that B.. B is a teenager.
still wanna see
The Aviator
Ocean's 12
Closer
Finding Neverland
House of Flying Daggers
The Motorcycle Diaries
Kinsey <- (maaaybe, i dunno)
The Phantom of the Opera
haha i'm such a guru. I havn't seen any..cause i dont have any money
never got san andreas, but i have vice, so i've been playing GTA all day cause i never really got through the whole thing.
It just leaves you feeling dirty.
Friday, December 17th, 2004
If someone wrote a book about my life, no one would want to read it.
Monday, December 6th, 2004
Well turns out since i'm the biggest procrastinator in the world, and was planning to give Amber her birthday gift 3 months late, she had already gotten it for herself. So now I'm left with a copy of The Dreamers, nc-17 unrated version...(as she requested) that i dont really know what to do with. I guess if I'm in the mood to watch graphic teen sex in an indie-esque movie..i'm set. :/
I dug up the camera
When amber came over she told me about her crazy life, that woman is always so hectic i dunno how she manages but she does.
We went to downtown mainstreet...ate some junk; browsed the overpriced misc. shopping stores, came back
to my house, then went and got more junk to eat.., and came back and watched Coffee and Cigarettes. Pretty entertaining. then she left. and thats the end of that.
till we meet again amber.
lets see um.. i missed first today, overslept and couldnt find my keys. I'm hoping the office didn't notice i was gone, not like i do much in there anyway. There's no way I'm going to sit through another Saturday School.
i changed the layout..
ya.
nothing to say cause my life's too goddamn boring.
but hey! there's a lil camwhore in all of us.
And of course I'm sideways.
I'm a loser.
I need a hobby.
I'm fucking bored.
December 1st, 2004
some girl got hit by a car right in front of the shchool while jaywalking today; i guess she screamed and her arm got all twisted out of shape the way she fell.. paramedics took her off before i saw anything (i was late to school as usual) so there were nothing but cop cars all over the place blocking my way in.
yet andrea and i still make the most out of the day, be it laughing at our peers, or anything random. Hell, how can you not have a
good time when you see crap like -this- driving in front of you while going to lunch.
Southern California is so fcked up sometimes.
and izzy sent me some funny links:
http://www.stupidvideos.com/Default.asp?VideoID=618
http://www.stupidvideos.com/Default.asp?VideoID=874
bahahaha
whats new..? its been cold as hell (harhar) outside, record lows actually. Office aiding is boring as ever and people in the office
are just stupid. I dont have much to do and they just sit and talk about how they want grandkids all morning. The other aid is obsessed
with this fashion school she goes to, and blegh. I would think i come off as being pretty outgoing, i try talking to her a lot but
meh, sometimes i dont think she wants to talk back..whatever.
And Virtual Business class is a mess, the teacher found out something bad was posted on our class website...which i was kinda in charge
of (and -no- i didn't do it..but i didn't take it down either..) i didn't get held responsible but the whole class has to pay for it.
Which i thoght sucked, but i think is funny as hell at the same time. I was making a better website too, our first one sucked, it looked so bad.. (someone else made it)
bah. Hopefully she'll let me upload it, seeing as how she changed the domain password and everything. Ok this is boring.
so i kinda realized why i havn't been seeing any movies lately--they all SUCK.
Went to go see Alexander, though i thought the entire idea of collin ferril as alexander was all too wrong, the movie itself
still looked promising (despite the Troy-imitation look)
horrible. Maybe i was just distracted and wasn't paying the closest attention, but i just couldn't follow the damn movie.
90% of the time i wasnt sure what was goin on. It tried too hard to be a hollywood hit..those random dramatic braveheart-wannabe
speaches thrown in there with some corky music..bleh. But it did have some pretty intense battle scenes and costumes, that was pretty cool.
Oh and they made sure not to leave out the rumor that Alexander himself was a flamer,
the film was overflowing with homosexual innuendo left and right.
oh and i finally got you your bday gifts aimee/amber..go me.
what prompted me to go out to a movie in the first place was to escape the hell of my house.
i cant stand it here, i just cant take it, now i actually cant wait to get out of here and be somewhere else, anywhere, for college.
so, i got my apps done. Calstates i applied to were San Diego, Humboldt (i'm pretty interested in this one), Long Beach, Monterey Bay,
and Los Angeles. I hope i filled them out right.
my mom and i were ready to kill each other this weekend, i dunno how it started, but i was basically told to leave the house.
She took away the car keys, my phone was in the car, so i was left with nothing.. I dont remember where i walked to, I had nowhere
to go, it was like 8pm and I just kept walking for i dunno how many miles. I dont remember what i was thinking about, i felt
pretty lonely. Chose the wrong streets to walk down, a lot of people you see at night hanging out at these cheapo bars can make you
really uncomfortable when walking by.
My feet hurt, it was freezing out, I think i finally came home at 11:30pm or so. My comp and television were gone when i got home,
i got in another huge fight after that, and when i woke up the next day i felt sore all over. Why have things been going downhill so
much? I cant stand my parents, and they think i'm crazy. So i just said fuck it, I threw the rest of my medication out the window,
told my dad i'm not going back to Dr. whoever. So I reclude in my room, on my comp (which i have again), kill me now kthx-_-
my sister came and left, we ate turkey, 'happy thanksgiving'd, and had to get holiday portraits like we do supposedly every 4 years...its
pretty stupid. I got so mad after we took them, i felt so crappy and felt like it showed in the picture, and my parents ordered
huge portrait sized ones..its friggin retarded.
my sister was goin out of her way to be nice to me this weekend i think, it just made me feel weird and i didn't have a lot to say at all.
no point in talking about it.
Such an awful weekend.
it sucks feeling so sad.
I wish i had seen more of my friends these past few months since school started, especially aimee.
She really makes me feel better when we'd go out together, aimee just makes you feel better. What she likes
is so much fun and her opinions on everything are funny and entertaining--she's one of the most unique people i know.
actually she is the most unique person know.
we've been expecting aimee to be moving somewhere for the past year+ it seems. But now she finally is gone back to
Fresno, i didn't realize how far it was.. This year was really bad cause aimee's not there afterschool everyday
like she used to be after school. and we used to spend so much more time together. Well that stopped this year,
it sucks going to high school when 2 of your friends are gone, now i'm wishing i had spent more time with them
as of late.
but u know, i never called her at all (just like all of my friends..i cant believe myself sometimes), maybe that was one
of the reasons i've been feeling like crap lately. We'd go to the public library after school a lot, or barns and noble,
she kinda inspires me to read; and man i'm gonna miss the conversations we'd have with B about the about all that silly
stuff for hours on end
we went to the Block tonight, aimee didn't want to go out at first-or see anyone (at least thats what b told me). But he called her back and convinced her to go out with us since she was leaving the next day. we got our free krispy kreme's as we always do when we go there, but then aimee said she had to go home to finish getting her stuff together, and it was only 7pm. It almost felt weird spending time with them again after so long.
didn't say bye when she left, stuff was just like any other time we hang out;
it was just too much of a downer when she shut the car door and B turned to me and said,
"you know, thats probably the last time we'll ever see aimee".
