SUNDAY25MAY2003
bleep

I hate family.

Driving to school at 7:30am. Some crazy mom pulled into my lane the other day from the oncoming lane (to get around some backed-up cars), head on...And of course i was driving fast to catch the light. dammit, i was almost late b/c of that missed light. i'll be dead before the school year ends.

sorry we couldn't go to the beach andrea.
i saw matrix reloaded again though. i got it all figured out in my head, who's good and bad, and the true intentions of the oracle, mother of the matrix. and now i can't remember it. too bad.

I think i'd make a good doppleganger.

time to go back to the recoils of my room and play video games. 3 day weekends are godly. (13 more days of hell left.)

THURSDAY22MAY2003
i have an urge to murder something.

(happy bday Kristin)
I tried going to the library to study this week. My mom suggested it. And i guess it worked ok, but i had so much hw that night..ack. aimee came with me too. aimee's so nice! i had a pleasant time and we need to do that again sometime. yaaay.
and i got a lovely reward for drawing this. How very nice and unexpected. too bad not all drawings turn out. graci.

So minus only a few things, the past 48 hours have been shit. Nothing specific, but I have a lack of tolerance. School can burn in hell, and chemistry can kiss my soft ass.

I'm going to go eat dinner now.

TUESDAY20MAY2003
life is dull

Amber and I were sharing our fantasies, and that's what happens.
Oh and she sent me these funny links tonight:
-How to become an obnoxious internet cam whore in five easy steps.
-26 things a perfect guy would do, and other propaganda disseminated by misguided women.
which both came from this site:
-The Best Page In The Universe.
(and it is)

Hm, loveline is interesting. "WHOOOOOO CARES!" I like hearing peoples "piss after masturbating" problems, really!but hearing some of this stuff makes me feel better about my life, even if it's all bull sometimes.

so yesterday was shit, i got a 2nd ttw and yeah i don't remember. but ppl are mean drivers in the morning. AND today, i was late again, but didn't want a 3rd ttw so i simply didn't go to class. That's what a 1 hour detention will do to you. Well, eating begals with creamcheese and finishing my math homework was good enough instead of going to chemistry I guess. But i missed the cool 80's video. bleeep.

My sister found my old pair of glasses, they fell out of her minifridge. She returned them to me this weekend.

Mom's are good things, yeah? Indeed they are, my mom helped me out a lot today, even though I just bitched to her. but she takes it all, that's good stamina mommy. Now i think finishing off the year might not be too difficult.

Actually i don't have anything to say, I've been making a new layout, weee. It's insane and yellow. it will hurt your brain. and its bjork. BE VERY AFRAID. (i'm trying to build excitment out of nothing here..) But oh yes, cool stuff that happend on monday:
--Andrea had a tizzy at the vending machine. She tried beatin it up. Damn the no-grandma's-chocolate-cookies!
--Amber's throw-up philosophy. How bands that just say RAAAAAR RA RA RA RAAA sound like they're barfing it up on stage. very true actually.
--I saw an add for the Marina color-guard on the tampon dispenser in the girls bathroom (whats the world coming to?) but i found that interesting.
--Amber got a pen from Aimee called "the little gay pen" (it says that on the side) and it's GREEN!

B reminded me of Postulio! No point to that, i just wanted an excuse to write it. Even though i forgot the name, twice.

ugh, now i leave you with the kitty quiz:

I am an edible kitten. Now lets never speak of this
again. **pretends to forget**

Which cute or possibly strange kitten are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

SUNDAY18MAY2003
lets all go to the movies

so, i'm walking around the house and all the sudden my sister pops up. "the hell?" i think. Maybe it would be nice if someone would INFORM ME from now on when my sister comes home from san francisco. I feel so lost and out there, actually oblivious sometimes. siiigh, this is my life.

I SAW MATRIX!!! EEE: What was going through my head when i saw it?:
-i want neo's coat.
-Zion is a land of sex!
-no! i want niobe's coat!
-Hah hah, those silly french people :D
-Twins are evil
-Trinity, nooooo!
-Wooo! Neo! Yay for trinity
-Morpheus lost his dreams and his goal, the poor guy. Morpheus we love you.
actually, i wrote my own very special brief review of the movie:

well, it was a fun night. thanks b dustin and drea for going, i enjoyed it very much.

which stereotype are you?

WEDNESDAY14MAY2003
matrix insaneness.

hah hmmmm...drea i dont know if i'm sure what that quote all means but that was way funny. It looks practical when written, but the way you said it was..yes, very funny.

SmittenXOKitten (7:02:36 PM): you know that one part in clueless where cher is driving and bumps into something and she says "that came out of nowhere"? that reminds me of you hehe
ahahaha

So you wanna know what's scary? How frightening is it when a stores' scanning device says "UH-OH!" in the voice of a 5 year old child when something doesn't scan properly. What's wrong with this world? OMG I CAN HEAR IT! Stop it! it won't stop!!

And I know it's stupid to quote myself, but maaaaann..the things that come out of my mouth sometimes:
"Too bad i'm not into bondage, I'd be really good at it."
"I'm not a slut, I just feel dirty sometimes."
Well, at least Amber thinks its funny. Amber, you're right, you bring out the worst in me!! haha

Oh, and what an idiot I am.
I went to go buy andrea a matrix ticket since there were more available. So i drive allll the way down there.. get up to the line and ask for another ticket for thurs night showing at 7:45. The old ticket guy's like "ok..will that be student or adult?" and i'm like WEE! i can save a buck! :D so i'm all "student". I bust out my handy student id since i had it with me. then the old fart takes a look at it for a few secs..then is like "hmmm how old are you?" and i'm like AHHH CRAP! cuz its r-rated. so i'm all.."uhh 17". and he's like..well do you have any proof to show that? so i'm like "uh yeah" go to get my drivers license then realized i just lied to the guy. gah! so i'm like "oh, no i don't" so he wouldn't sell me a ticket. so i had to call my mommy and make her drive all the way down there to get me a ticket. froogle. what a damn long time. anyway, that's my story. i'm done now.
Froogle? Yes, I am insane.

Other then that I dyed (it's a touch up man..) my hair once again. And I cashed in 50 bucks of saved quarters!! And they gave me a $2 Bill with the deal as well!! splendid.

Well? Happy I updated? And i will be seeing matrix tomorrow. That's right.

SUNDAY11MAY2003
mothers day.

Well well well. I'm the lucky one. I got two matrix reloaded tickets! YEAH! dorkness alll the way to the theater. So Dustin and B. I expect to see you thursday night. booya. Nothing better than opening night right? (well kidna sorta)

Well remember how I took that online quiz, what mythological creature are you? And I got Succubus? Well, turns out my friend told me "it's actually a demon that takes female form then has sex with men while they sleep". YEAAH!

Happy mothers day.

09MAY2003
movies.

And that is the complete truth. No more sending subliminary religious messages through music. Anyway, Taylor's theories are amusing. I suggest you read them!

So there are these 2 old ladies that live about 5 houses down from my house. It's rumored that they are lesbians, which i think is true. They told my dad that once? Or my dad told me? I dunno. Well anyway, good for them. But I've never seen people so obsessed with a trailer home..if they're not out in it, then they're sitting there cleaning it. Why am i telling you this? I..don't know. ok next!.
I went renting crazy, rented a hella lot of movies. One of which was Schindler's list (sp) cuz now we're getting into the Holocaust in World History. Believe or not, I've actually found a school subject I like. THIS is odd...
Speaking of Histroy and war and such, my english teacher told our class of an interesting event today. So Mr. Harris tells us he has a family friend that's participated in the Vietnam War. His duty was to shoot Vietnamese snipers and such. Well, this guys' mom would always send him small packages in the mail of these delicious peaches to eat. One day, this guy was sitting down with his friend, eating these good peaches. Suddenly, *BAM!* Blood and brains were all over his peaches and face. His friend had gotten shot in the head, and his brain just splattered everywhere. Talk about traumatizing. So anyway, like a few years ago, now in recent times, this sniper-shooter guy was at a friends wedding. When getting food after the service, he comes up to a platter of peaches. Out of nowhere, the guy just got a sudden flashback and lost controll. He ended up sending 7 guests to the hospital, icluding an injured groom, because he broke out in an uncontrolled frenzy-rage. How horrible! It's like that "shell-shocked" syndrom that veterans of WWI would get...where their bodies would twitch uncontrollably, from being stuck in shelled trenches for years. Well, I found that very interesting and note-worthy.

Hmm i tried writing 2 people in japan. Cuz my sensei suggested I should "EMAILPAL"s he said. So i did...and I still havn't gotten any reply. Wow even the people in Japan are hesitant on mailing me! Maybe I scared them with my poor English? I don't know.
But my sensei did help me feel better about the -tension- of career crap. I don't know how many times i will have to hear that question "what do you want to do with your future? you should start planning NOW." Thank you mr kadono for your opinion. I'm glad to know not everyone knows what they want to do with their life asap. Career building can wait.
Speaking of which, good luck Kristin for picking a major. "you can always change it later." Look, I'm giving you family support! :D
And Amber, where were you today?

08MAY2003
never satisfied.

Alas, it has been an interesting week, somewhat fast for once actually. This is what I learned in English: The Germans love sausage. Isn't that coool?? Education is fun!
And I've watched a movie each day this week, except today..-_-
-Monday: Saving Private Ryan
-Tuesday: Forrest Gump
-Wednesday: Pearl Harbour (i watched that only cuz i took a WWII test today...honest.)
Yet again, I'll watch something tonight. Oh, and I want Cheyenne and Andrea, both of you, to cheer up. You guys have both been down this past week. Not cool, cheer up some. I need my happy suppport! Where are my happy pills??! ahem alright.
And the other day, it was pretty cold and windy outside. so Kali turns around to me and says: "Sarah, I can feel my nipples hardening." that's the most random yet! siiigh, girls. we're silly.
I almost hit a teacher in the parking lot today. Ever since I got the threatening note on the car window about how my "VEHICLE WILL BE TOWED AWAY AT OWN EXPENSE IF PARKED HERE ONCE AGAIN. THIS AREA IS NOT FOR STUDENT PARKING." and so marked my third and final warning. What should i do? the school lot is maxed out, and they won't give me a parking permit. Wow, how hectic my life is (sarcasm intended).

seeing as how i'm dull at this moment, i'll leave. goodbye.

06MAY2003
This city is for the mentally insecure.

I'm still drinking that soy. And HAH HAH HAH! That's a funny quote. I like that one.
Even though this happened at the beginning of the year, i think this one story does very well to explain "High School"

HIGH SCHOOL:
I walk into class, the lovely class with the preps.
(annonymous -i won't reveal names. so -person A-): "sooo how have u been this week?"
Person B: "oh me? fine i guess.. hey! did you hear -name-'s mom gave her a bunch of condoms!??"
Person A: "OOH YEAH! she brought them ALL to school today! here loook, she gave me some!"
she pulls out some condoms in the middle of class
Person B and C: "...." pause..
B and C in unison: "STRAWBERRY FLAVOR!!!!!!"
and they all start giggling with glee and excitment.
Person C: "ooooh my god you guys. it's been sooo long since i've gotten laid. i have like..condoms lying ALL over my room!"
might i add, some these girls are slightly younger than me.
Person A: "Like, are you SERIOUS?"
C: "YEAH! I NEED TO GET FUCKING LAID!"
A, B, C: "hehehehe!"
by this point, i'm rubbing my temples in agony. good god. this is what i wake up for every morning.
RAAAAAAAAGGGE!

I far too well understand the disgust of huntington beach, let alone, orange county. my parents told me i need to see that movie. hmmm. This place is a hell hole, someone get me into the real world with real people. I will live in a city one day. Far away from the suburbs of preppyness.

back to my life...rememeber that french pop i was talking about? WELL, if you REALLY wanna get a rush...and laugh ur ass off, try downloading some french rap. you gotta hear this stuff..lmao. hey i respect.

Other funny things that have happend:
---Amber and I both jinxed ourselves on -of all the words- "fiasco". how did this happen??
---Drea making Amber a get/feel-better card titled "If the world was emo..." And below it drew a picture of the planet earth..-with an emo bang.
"So as you can see, we don't need more emo-ness in the world! feel better amber!" or so it said something like that on the inside. yes, andrea is hilarious and kind at the same time :D
---I had a sub named Mr. Fluvio.

04MAY2003
It's the soy!

Soy milk is the best!

Anyway, I've recently been derranged to the point that I find myself listening to French Pop Music. HELP ME! must be that soy...
and i've lost a lot of my respect for music artist, Jewel. It was bad enough when she turned all country on everyone..but fine, that was her thing. NOW I watch some VH1 countdown and see this new Jewel music video. Not only has she "come back" as her music video quoted, but she's back with a ghetto lets-shake-our-asses-in-front-of-the-camera look. what's wrong with the world?
And MTV defies it's purpose on television. I think "hey, i wanna watch some music videos..why not tune into mtv, the music television channel!" but all i see is reality shoes and screaming teenagers. what happend to the music? the media is EVIL. Burn in hell.

I took the What Mythological Creature Are you? test by !

I know, i've taken this before..but u get different results when ur in a different mood. What's a Succubus anyway? That just sounds stupid.

Check out andrea's site now. It's new, and spiffy to the max! ahaha, did i just say that? haha, well we buffed it up reaaal nice. So go and seeeee...

02MAY2003
A new month

How can so much happen when I just updated a few days ago? Well I'll start off with: poor amber. amber got screwed over. And let me say this. ALL GIRLS ARE THE SHIT OF THE PLANET. The female gender is a decieving and conniving league of psycho-bitches, whose purpose is to ruin the lives of others, despite whatever gender they may be. "backstabbers" "heartbreakers" "dominatrix's" ooooh, the words to describe us females. Well, truth to truth, we are evil. and we will ruin your life. Yes, lets all be bitter.
well i personally can't explain what amber went through, but lets just say that internet relationships are a rarity to ever work out. Read all about it in amber's live journal.
but it is very odd hearing how "charlie" -or as we like to now call charlie "it"- (who was amber's internet lovematch going on something like...10 months, correct?) confesses to actually being a female with issues. well, shows how one blurry pic and no phone calls can cover stuff up. but amber is brilliant and had her methods of finding out. Amber, you rock. And have been handeling it better than i ever could.

hmmmm has anyone seen that new "ICEBREAKERS UNLEASHED" commercial? it's a bunch of old ppl at a bingo gathering. Then..::BOOYA:: someone busts out some icebreakers: unleashed and ALL the old farts start making out with each other, and have this big mack-party. it was odd, and i was somewhat distrubed once it ended.

there's plenty more to say, but i'm all together just too lazy to type. However i did get to see x men 2 this afternoon, right after school. It was awesome!! mutants...now, mutants are cool. i can't wait till x3..mwahaha. anyway, thanks for going with me vincent. and driving, and all that other stuff u always do. :D
but now. the month of may has finally begun. what was that u say? ...matrix reloaded was it? it has you! join me and my geek-ness...i can feel it creeping back into me. wait, it was always there
-_-

and drea, work on your webpage so i can add it to my links.

~Happy 18th Birthday Jade~