BLUE CAGE

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Part 13

Toshiya eyed Die suspiciously. “ Did you make Shinya mad again?”

“ You were really drunk last night then. You didn’t see Shinya splash his drink all over me?” Die held Toshiya’s hand as they walked towards the elevator. Both of them smelled clean with a hint of soap; all the unpleasant smell of alcohol, smoke, semen and saliva gone.

“ What?! Was he very drunk?” Toshiya frowned.

“ Didn’t seem so…” Die sighed. “ More angry than anything.”

“ Wonder what’s wrong then..?”

Die had to agree with Toshiya. Shinya might be stubborn, unpredictable, weird and all that but lately he was prone to outbursts which were so unlike him.

“ Perhaps I should go talk to him,” Die sighed.

“ Are you sure? You might just annoy him more. I could go and ask him what’s wrong,” Toshiya suggested instead but Die insisted on going.

“ Then I’ll wait for you downstairs; I’m really hungry too after all that exercise=p,” Toshiya grinned.

Toshiya’s eyes were bright and full of life this morning. Die wanted to see Toshiya always like this, always happy, smiling, joking. When he remembered how lifeless and sad those eyes looked just a few days ago, his heart twisted painfully in his chest.

Die wrapped an arm around the younger man’s shoulders and brought him close. Their lips were engaged in a passionate kiss as the elevator arrived at their floor. “ See you downstairs,” Toshiya said, smiling as he flicked a strand of blood red hair away from Die’s eyes.

“ I love you,” Die said, in parting as Toshiya entered the elevator. He watched the elevator doors slide close, feeling warm from their recent embrace.

Toshiya touched his lips lightly with the tip of his fingers. Die’s words of love lingered in his mind. Despite deciding to accept his friend as a lover in a drunken haze, Toshiya felt really happy now. But worry and fear contaminated the happiness that he was feeling. As if the happiness was a bubble, growing bigger and bigger until one point when its bound to burst.

Die pressed the doorbell to Shinya’s room. He heard the buzzing sound ring through the room inside, some scuffling sound then the door opened.

“ What?” Shinya shot at him.

“ Do you want to talk?”

“ No, I want to sleep,” Shinya answered but left the door open anyway as he wandered back inside. Die followed him in, closing the door behind him. The drummer slouched down on the one-seater sofa wearily and glanced up the the red-haired guitarist.

“ You look as if you didn’t sleep the whole night,” Die commented, seeing Shinya’s puffy eyes.

“ I barely slept.” Shinya felt exasperated. “ What is it you wanna talk about?”

“ Um…” Die fidgeted, feeling uncomfortable. Looking around, he sat down on Shinya’s bed. “ I’m concerned about you…”

Shinya rolled his eyes.

“ Why are you so upset lately?”

Shinya sighed, not looking at Die. “ Nothing.”

“ Don’t lie.” A finger pointed at Shinya from Die’s clasped hands.

Shinya glared at Die. “ Why do you care? It’s none of your business.”

Die frowned. “ It is my business when you keep bursting out at me.”

“ I’m sorry, okay?!!” the younger man snapped at him. Then as if realizing his harsh tone, Shinya backed into the chair. “ Sorry…I’m just stressed from work and travelling.” He turned sideways away from the other man so that he could not see moisture glazing over his eyes, threatening to form into tears.

How could he say it? How can he tell his bandmate that he was in love with him? Especially when that person is Die, who taunted and teased him endlessly… Even he himself could not accept his feelings for the man.

“ You need to de-stress and learn how to relax. Hey, I know a massage parlour that’s really good.” Die’s eyes lit up as he winked at the younger man. “ I’ll bring you there when we’re back in Tokyo=p.”

Shinya managed a small smile. “ You’re such an ecchi! I won’t follow you to some ero massage parlour.”

“ Oh, Shin-chan, its time to grow up and learn the pleasures of being a man! HahahXD!”

Shinya glanced at Die who was laughing and realized that Die was actually quite handsome. He had broad, masculine features unlike Shinya’s more delicate build.

“ Die…” Shinya wondered how it would feel like…to be able to touch him intimately, more than just friends… He leaned forward and caught the other man by surprise.

Die’s eyes widened and he was too shocked to response. The touch of Shinya’s lips against his was feather-light and they lingered for a moment over his. Die saw Shinya’s eyes flutter open and those brown eyes gazed up at his, as if holding a thousand words in that one gaze.

“ Shin…Shinya..wha..?” Die stuttered, unable to get his syllables. His cheeks felt hot.

Shinya pulled back, a crooked smile on his lips. “ I saw you and Toshiya kissing just now. Are you guys together?”

“ Uh, yeah I guess.” Die felt his head spinning around. What’s happening???!?

Shinya looked down for a second then started chuckling.

“ What’s so funny?” Die asked, annoyed. “ Why did you suddenly kiss me!”

Shinya’s eyes flicked up at the other man thoughtfully. “ I wondered how it felt like kissing another man. Whether it would be strange in a nice way or totally disgusting!”

“ You mean nice in a strange way,” Die corrected.

“ No, strange in a nice way.” Shinya got up from the chair and yawned. “ I’m super sleepy now. I have to ask you to get out of my room.” The drummer shooed the other man off his bed.

Die pouted. “ You can sleep later on the way back to Tokyo. Why don’t you come down for breakfast?”

“ You go down quick and have your breakfast with Totchi. Or else he might think that I have ate you up for my breakfast,” Shinya yawned again. “ Close the door on your way out.”

“ Hai, Shinya-sama…” Die threw a loose pillow at the sleepyhead. “ Hey, you still didn’t say whether the kiss was nice in a strange way or outright disgusting.”

Shinya laughed and threw back the pillow at him. “ Get out of my room, you dolt!”

Die laughed. “ Okay, sweet dreams~”

Shinya heard the door shut. Sighing, he dropped to his back, hugging a pillow close.

I can’t tell him…not when he’s with Toshiya…

Shinya took a deep breath and rubbed away the tear from the corner of his eye.

“ It was very nice, Die…”

Touching his lips lightly, Shinya fell asleep.

to be continued

VM: what do you think? at the beginning, I didn’t know what I was going to write. But I liked how Shinya is in this part…I just couldn’t make him be mean.=p*huggles heart-broken Shin-chan* comments please*beg*!

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