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Hey I was just wonderin why it is that sometimes when I'm tryin 2 make myself sick it's real easy n other times really hard....since u seem 2 have had much the same probs thought u could offer me some tips..thanx :)
Sorry...I don't know what to tell you. I'm bad at it, haven't gotten any better. Nothing seems to help me...But you ought to check out some proana egroups and clubs, I'm sure they can help you. By the way...not eating is better :) More effective.

What is the meaning of life?
Life is a mission to discover the meaning of life.

How do they get the pimento into the hole in the olive? (love, amy v. ^_^)
Wish I could come up with creative ways to answer things...but I'll be a cacahead. With a machine. :-/

Reading your diary, and just over all surfing over your wicked website, i've noticed that you are watching your weight. I also am always trying to lose a little weight. Can you share your diet plan with me?
Sure :) Well, instead of setting a limit of calories I can eat per day, I just eat as little as I can. I eat lunch and dinner (have to, parents) and avoid rice and potatos and that stuff. Luckily my family eats pretty healthy. The problem with saying "I'm not gonna go over XXX calories" is that sometimes you find yourself below the limit and end up eating to fill in what's left...eerr or maybe it just happens to me. Well not anymore. And I don't eat anything between meals, just drink water and diet soda and coffee. And I do crunches every day, go to the gym 5-6 times a week to do treadmill. Hope I helped :) Oh yeah, I also take a multivitamin every day, and do 200 crunches before and after every meal.

You poor thing.
Don't feel sorry for me... everything that's going wrong in my life is my own fault.

So...are you PRO anorexia or what? i dont really know what to think here seeing as my experienceswith anorexia have beenup and down mixed, really. sometimes i starve myself, but other times i feel disgusted with what im doing. but i have never once LIKED myself for what i am doing and have always regarded it as a disease...i suppose what im trying to say is 'what is your view on anorexia?'
Well...I guess so. I wouldn't encourage anyone to try to become anorexic though. If you're already obsessed with it, that's that. I don't like myself at all but I know that when I'm being good (meaning eating little and excersizing lots) I feel better about myself. And I sure am proud when I'm thin. I do regard anorexia as a disease. But I don't have it. I just have a little obsession.

What's my view? Well, I just realised I've never really established one. Um...it's a bad thing for people who have it and want it to go away. Because from what I've heard it's not too easy. So I feel deeply sorry for those people. But for the others who like it and strive for it...I don't know. If it makes you happy...go ahead.

how do you pick the lyrix 4 your journal?
Well, it's either a line that's been in my head that day. Or just a line I like, or something that I think relates to the entry or what I'm feeling. Pointless little fact...the "you" is sometimes directed at myself. And I don't always use lyrics...I've used other things a couple of times :)

how long do you go on the tredmill for and what kind of weight exercises do you do?: )
Well it depends. Right now I stay on the treadmill between 30 and 45 mins depending on my mood and wether or not there are people on the waiting list (there's a time limit). And as for weight exercises, I just do the circuit of machines :)

Where do you live, like what state or country not exactly cuz I'm not a pyscho. Cuz you say your starting school in a few days and I'm the same age as you and I've been in school for 7 mons now.
I live in Argentina, and our school year is March-December.

Who is that picture of in today's entry (March 10th)?
From left to right they are Isaac Hanson, Girl X (no idea, a very daring fan I assume) and Taylor Hanson.

Did you or do you listen to the band Garbage?
Can't say I listen to them. I haven't got any of their CDs although once I borrowed "Version 2.0" from a friend and I liked it a lot. I'm familiar with their singles and like them...especially Push It, Stupid Girl, When I grow up, and Special. Dude...now that I think about it, I like a lot of their songs. I think I'm going to download some songs and consider getting one of the albums. Hehe.

what is the address of the thin page because my computer isn't going to the site when I click on the link. Thank you.
It's http://users.telerama.net/~thebird/thin
I have trouble accessing it sometimes, duno why. I have to try more than once, hit refresh a bunch of times...

Personaly I really think you should eat alot & not starve yourself or barf! Your VERY pretty and I know I would give anything to look like you - you have no reason to do that to yourself! I love you
Aww...that's very sweet of you :) Thanks. But to me I'm one of the ugliest creatures ever. Blergh.

why do u hate yourself so much?
WOW. I could write a book about this. Let's see...Pentally --> I'm stupid, not perceptive, slow at figuring things out, I never understand things in school, I'm lazy and a procrastinator, I speak without thinking and stick my foot in my mouth 24/7, I don't know how to stand up for myself or get mad at most people and whenever I try I end up making some huge mistake or going overboard. I always manage to involuntarily ruin things for myself. My voice sucks, I stutter and make stupid mistakes. I can't stand up to anyone, I cry very very easily, I'm very see-through and people always seem to know when I'm upset because I can't hide my feelings, I'm a bad liar, I do stupid things by accident, I always do stuff I regret later, I always snap at people, I never know what to do about anything, I overanalyse things way too much, I'm paranoid, I have these thoughts I hate having but I can't help it (not talking about the whole thinness things), I'm forgetful, irresponsible. Clumsy. Out of it. Everything always has to be so complicated if it's related to me. I feel stupid 24/7, I'm really really evil and selfish and vain and I can't help but wish bad things upon certain people. Is that all the mental stuff? Noo. I have no willpower. I never do anything, I'm lazy, all I do is dream and obsess about things I want but I NEVER follow through or stick to things, I think too much. That's all I can think of. Physically -->I'M HIDEOUS. I always get horrible zits in the wrong places at the wrong times. My hair sucks and gets all poofy, my skin is gross, my nose is gross, my eyes suck, my nose and cheeks get all red when I cry, I blush easily (but it looks STUPID on me, not cute like on other people), I have HUGE HUGE chipmunk cheeks which are really disgusting, my arms are flabby and disgusting, I hate my hands and fingers and nails which I'm always biting and breaking and are really weak. I hate my chest. I hate my stomach and waist because they're FAT and despite doing crunches every day they're still fat and frumpy and gross. My back is fat. My hips are extremely wide, my ass is huge, my thighs are so fat and flabby and they touch when I close my legs. My knees are fat, my entire legs are covered in excess fat. My calves are gross, my feet are really ugly.
I think that's about it. Are you sorry you asked? :-x

Do you think your life would've been better if you stayed in the US or lived in Argentina all your life,like if you were born and raised there(Argentina)?
Interesting question! You know, I'd never thought of that before. I think my life would have been better if I'd stayed in the US...I have reason to believe this because I was really happy and I liked my life when I live there. I don't know if I'd be an optimistic, positive, confident person, but I do strongly believe things would be better for me. And as for being born and raised here? Well...maybe my life would have been better too bc I wouldn't have had to deal with the big change and I'd have always been used to everything...and I wouldn't know what I was missing out on by not living in the US. So it could have been better that way too. But in conclusion...I'd say the USA.

is that taylor hanson in your banner image?
Yup ^_^

Have you ever considered contacting your friends from the US,the last year you were there?
Well I was in the USA last July, in New York. I didn't talk to any of my friends...I don't know why. I'm really really dying to go to DC and visit them, and get together...my classmates from nursery school-grade1 wanna have a little reunion...I really want to go to DC but my mom doesn't :( She has nothing to do there. But anyways, I do talk to my friends once in a while...Jenny and I have exchanged a couple of letters in the past year and we talk on MSN, Jihan and I talk on AOL or email sometimes, same with Bridget. Marina and I write. But I guess they're real busy bc it takes them a fair amount of time to reply...

I've been reading your past entries, from your old dairy,(I actaully do have time!) and I noticed you talked a lot about some guy called "phillipe"(is that the spelling?)aywayz are u still infuated with him?cos u don't talk about him anymore.if u feel this is a personal question, it's ok if u choose not to answer,just wanted to know P
Ohh :) I was just trying to sort out my feelings about him a couple of days ago. Here's the deal...I haven't seen him since August. I don't get out a lot. He doesn't go dancing much either. But he makes appearences at social gatherings and such, and my friends see him on the street bc they live near his house. He's had a girlfriend since December. I guess I still love him deep down, but it's kinda as if my infatuation has been put on hold bc I haven't seen him in so long, you know? It would have been weird if I were still as obsessed with him after 6 months of not seeing him. I do still really "love" him...and think he's the PERFECT guy, and I'd love to be friends with him like some of my friends are, or even closer, but I've pretty much gotten used to the idea that it won't happen.

do your friends know about your site? or is it a secret..if it is, what would you say/do if they find it?
No, they do not know. None of my friends off the internet know about it. If they found it...and they read everything...well, I would be really embarrased and probably want to die before seeing any of them again. I don't know what I'd do, what could I do? I doubt they'd be -too- surprised with what they'd read here though...it would be one of those situations where deep down you know something, but when you finally see proof of it, you're still a bit taken aback even though you knew the whole time...get it? Jeez, I need to learn to write better.

why is mandy moore on your site :p
I admire her because she's very beautiful and sweet and smart. That's why I put her on my site.

Why isn't there any popups when I come to your site?
Because I removed them with a special code.

where are you going with this site? don't you know what to do with it? why not ask for suggestions?
I don't know what to do with it...there's not a lot I can update since I don't regularly (or ever, for that matter) write stories or poems or whatever. Yeah...I need suggestions. Got any?

okay, so you are stuck in a burning airplane... you have the power to fly, but can only take ONE other person with you. Who would you choose... Daniel Johns or Taylor Hanson? :P
Ohhh :) Interesting one. Well. I would give my power to Taylor and tell him to take Daniel ;)

you are bulimic, and you need help chrissy..weight isn't everything in life..
It is to me. I'm not gonna be bulimic anymore.

ok..this is getting bad..you are aware anorexica(or however u spell it) is a disease right?..I mean it's like wishing you had AIDS or something..be careful with what you say cos you might end up regreting it..if u REALLY wanna lose weight, try 48hrs HOLLYWOOD DIET.. it's not just some pathetic drink for dieting..IT REALLY WORKS..u can lose like about 10pounds in 2 days..problem soved? p s I hope I'm not causing any damage by giving you this advice
Yes, I am aware. The only thing standing between my mind and actually being anorexic is my behaviors, which I have been able to modify in the past and therefore believe I can modify again. It's not like I'm not already obsessed...and I will be forever, and I like it that way. I'm just going after some my recompense...letting the thoughts make me the way I want to be. Letting my body reflect my mind. I appreciate your advice, but I don't believe in that Hollywood diet. You may lose 10 lbs in 2 days, but it's impossible to lose 10 lbs of fat in 2 days. That diet probably makes you lose water, muscle mass and maybe a tiny bit of fat. Otherwise, nobody would be fat. And finally, I need to lose 30 lbs.

what is the hollywood diet - never heard of it...
I can't say exactly. I know I've heard of it before, on the lists I'm subscribed to. But I wouldn't believeany diet that claims to make you lose 10 lbs in 2 days. You could try to search for it on Yahoo, I'm sure you'd find something.

What is it in your life that you feel you have no control over? Anorexia is a way of controlling ONE thing in your life, because everything else is out of control. It's not just a little obsession as you said, it's a BIG obsession. Your body image is really distorted by this disease. A good friend of mine died from anorexia - her body couldn't support itself anymore and shut down. Please consider getting help.
I'm really sorry about your friend. I'm not anorexic though. I feel like I do have control over my life...I -could- technically do whatever I wanted. Maybe it is a big obsession, I like it though. And not to sound mean, but I don't have distorted body image...I'm aware of what I look like. I know that from a normal point of view I'm not really faaat. I'm only fat compared to what I want to look like, to my standards. I see what everyone else sees, an average 15 year old girl, neither thin nor fat.

What is the name of "this person" that you are angry with??
I'm not angry with anyone. "Person" is a friend of mine who I feel has grown to dislike me, or like me a lot less. We used to be really close, but lately they're being almost mean to me. And...if I wanted to say their name, I wouldn't call them "Person" :P Sorry.

what is CSS, as iN: "this site uses CSS" ?
CSS stands for Cascading Style Sheets...that's a script so you can change your font, background, links etc all at the same time by editing one code. If you have Netscape, which doesn't support this script, you see everything in black and white and Times New Roman (ew).

I have a weight problem, but judging by the pics I've seen of you, I have the exact opposite problem as you...I'm obese and ugly...you look at models and say "I want to look like them" I look at you and say" I WISH I could look like you" You're so beutiful...look at yourself from my perspective.
Thank you, that's sweet of you.

What ahs happened to Megans Space of Hitz? there was meant to be a holiday layout in November, but its been dead ever since then... do you know why? I haven't the slightest idea...Megan and I don't keep in touch the way we used to. Now that you mention it, I'm gonna email her.

So, did you hear anything about MSOH?
Yup! Megan emailed me back the other day and here's a direct quote from her "so what you could do is tell anyone interested that the site is coming back, better than ever, with a new look, b/c it is! i have it already planned and everything, i've just been waiting for some time to get it moving. ;) so there you have it! hehe".

do you know how many calories are in black coffee?im drinkin a lot of it...bleh
Yes I do...ZERO! :D Drink away, my friend. Don't go overboard though, it's bad for your bones. Black coffe has 0 cals, if you put milk in it, just count the milk cals...I use skim and artificial sweetner, I can't bring myself to drink it black :(

hello!! why do you think you're dumb?..you're really good in HTML..and in my book anyone who is capable of making a page with annoying codes like <> has a brain..teehee:)
Thanks for complimenting my HTML... :) Why do I think I'm dumb? The answer to this question would be a lot similar to "Why do you hate yourself so much".

haha..lookie what I found...It's from your old site..cool pic! chrissy(click on the link to see!)http://oocities.com/cried_1214/pix/Porime.gif
Awww...hehe. How'd you find that? I like that pic, although I hate the look on my face...aww I remember that though...that was such a cool trip.

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