MERDEKA! 31/08/2005...9.46PM

Happy Merdeka to Malaysia, my beloved country and for dusty ole' JB. lolx...

It's national day here in M'sia. But somehow I feel like I'm distant from it. Probably because I spend more time in Singapore and in that particular country, they kind of brainwash you with patriotic stuff. But I'm also distant from Singapore. So what does that mean? I'm socially unfit in both countries? Confused identity problem...sighs...feels like I'm flitting here about there, nothing gained.

Recently found out that a friend of mine has a blog. After all the pestering he finally got one up. Too bad we can't comment, unless he grant permission. Haha.

Prelims is this friday, then one week of holidays and then intensive prelims starting. I feel prepared but yet at times I still feel I haven't done enough. I sincerely pray I don't get burn-out syndrome before, during or after the examinations. Not worth it I'll say, to have burn out.

"Who Am I?" by Casting Crowns
WHO AM I THAT THE LORD OF ALL THE EARTH
WOULD CARE TO KNOW MY NAME, WOULD CARE TO FEEL MY HURT
WHO AM I THAT THE BRIGHT AND MORNING STAR
WOULD CHOOSE TO LIGHT THE WAY
FOR MY EVER WANDERING HEART

Bridge:
NOT BECAUSE OF WHO I AM, BUT BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU’VE DONE
NOT BECAUSE OF WHAT I’VE DONE, BUT BECAUSE OF WHO YOU ARE

Chorus:
I AM A FLOWER QUICKLY FADING, HERE TODAY AND GONE TOMORROW
A WAVE TOSSED IN THE OCEAN, A VAPOR IN THE WIND
STILL YOU HEAR ME WHEN I’M CALLING
LORD YOU CATCH ME WHEN I’M FALLING
AND YOU’VE TOLD ME WHO I AM, I AM YOURS, I AM YOURS

Verse2:
WHO AM I, THAT THE EYES THAT SEE MY SIN
WOULD LOOK ON ME WITH LOVE, AND WATCH ME RISE AGAIN
WHO AM I, THAT THE VOICE THAT CALMED THE SEA
WOULD CALL OUT THROUGH THE RAIN, AND CALM THE STORM IN ME

Bridge:
NOT BECAUSE OF WHO I AM BUT BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU’VE DONE
NOT BECAUSE OF WHAT I’VE DONE, BUT BECAUSE OF WHO YOU ARE

Chorus:
I AM A FLOWER QUICKLY FADING, HERE TODAY AND GONE TOMORROW
A WAVE TOSSED IN THE OCEAN, A VAPOR IN THE WIND
STILL YOU HEAR ME WHEN I’M CALLING, LORD YOU CATCH ME
WHEN I’M FALLING,YOU TOLD ME WHO I AM,I AM YOURS,

NOT BECAUSE OF WHO I AM, BUT BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU’VE DONE
NOT BECAUSE OF WHAT I’VE DONE, BUT BECAUSE OF WHO YOU ARE

I AM A FLOWER QUICKLY FADING, HERE TODAY AND GONE TOMORROW
A WAVE TOSSED IN THE OCEAN, A VAPOR IN THE WIND.
STILL YOU HEAR ME WHEN I’M CALLING,
LORD YOU CATCH ME WHEN I’M FALLING,
YOU TOLD ME WHO I AM, I AM YOURS, I AM YOURS, I AM YOURS


People see nothing in your eyes. You seem to either
be indifferent about everything or are trying
to cover up a lot of pain. Your eyes have a
cold stare that can make people shiver. Try to
show a little more caring, because your hard
exterior most likely drives people away.
...stop looking at me like that...stoppit!

What can people see in your eyes?(great ANIME pics)((IMPROVED!!!))
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Ears are fully flushed 27/8/2005...8.10PM

Finally my ears were flushed out. Now doctor gave me antibiotics and some funny eardrop to put into as inside of my right ear was red. He didn't want infection so yeah...

I made myself a new avater and siggy...it'll be at the bottom of the page after this entry. See what you guys think of it.
Stupid thing is..Derek made me admin of DYC Group board, BUT...he didn't give me the password and domain-name...so can't access...lolx!!!!!!

Pastor John Niven is coming with his wife Ann to stay in my house (sister's room actually...which is where my computer is...*cries and hugs computer*) so maybe no computer for let's say, a week till 2/9, the day where my first day of prelims start. So most likely I'm using dad's laptop to go online. As for the graphics, I guess I better put it up now, incase later I don't get the chance to do so. So gotta go now...cya soon!~






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Buzzing on and on and on 25/8/2005...9.10PM GMT+8

My ears are buzzing, especially my right one. Apparently there's too much deep shit in it. Oh well, went to the doctor and he said to clean it with the eardrop first, then he'll flush it out the next day. So here we go...

A lot of people have been trying to talk me to reconsider my choice in taking up Psychology as a career. I really wonder why. I wonder about so many things concerning this.
Will psychology be a huge niche area in the future? What with all the stress levels going up in the world, I think psychology is needed. But then, there are also other factors that could help in dealing with stress, so what to do? Then, my elder bro got me in contact with a practising psychologist from IMH Singapore. Must get in contact with her. Then I can ask her about the dos and the don'ts with the forward-looking mindset.

Gotta go now, got biology to study for and Social Studies homework.


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Crawl 21/8/2005...8.26PM GMT+8

Crawl by Marion Raven
High on a hill
Heard a bird sing her song
sang you were true
Well, she got it all wrong

She didn't know about your lies
And all your stupid alibis
Don't you know, this bird got wise
Surprise
Surprise
Surprise

[Chorus 1 :]
The writings on the wall
Yeah yeah
In letters written tall
Yeah yeah
I thought I'd let you know before I go
I will see you crawl

Fell off the hill
Into darkest of dreams
Promise broke
Ripped apart at the seams

So now you know this bird has flown
you will repay me what you owe
Don't you know you're gonna live
Alone
Alone
Alone

[Chorus 2 :]
The writings on the wall
Yeah yeah
In letters written tall
Yeah yeah
I thought I'd let you know before I go
You made a big mistake
Yeah yeah
Signed and sealed your fate
Yeah Yeah
I thought I let you know before I go
I will see you crawl

I'll wait till the night comes
In the darkness you are no one
I'll wait till the night comes
Until I know all you're shadows are gone

[Chorus 2]



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Wo0t! Splittin' Headache! 19/8/05...5.15PM GMT+8

I think I gotten my headache after I learnt that we got to cram 5 subjects mock exams in one week including the fact that i have my English O'level Orals coming this tuesday.



I love kitties...just not full-grown cats...bah...I love full-grown cows though...hehehe...




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I'm getting woozy!

Lotsa things have been happening, what with all the extra classes and such. Man, I hate spywares and ad-wares. This reminds me to download yahoo! companion. Gosh, now another thought of Tsukihime popped into my brain. I think I got to let go and let God. Too many things happening at once.

I may be moving this whole thing over to 100webspace aka http://pa55ion-tots.tk, but not very sure. For I HATE the stuck up there ads.

Doing up Venice notes now, carving in the Fall of Venice. Of course, it's in linear form, but I don't think either of us should make mind-maps for each other for most probably we wouldn't understand what the person is structuring anyway. So put it in linear form and tell them to make their own maps. It's using their own creativity anyway. ...I must be talking in shambles.
English O'level Oral is coming up on the 23rd of Aug. Got back my chinese o'level results....B3 with Dinstinction. People ask me to retake, can get A, I say, I already have one credit down with that B, I rather concentrate on my maths as i'm banking on that to pull me up. Also for my science I can't do badly. Banking on both my chem and bio to guarantee me a place in the best KL college for me to study Psychology. Should I do Business cum Psychology, Forensic Psychology or Reasearch/Clinical Psychology? Hmm...


Zola - Life (Greek)

Colour - Blue

Element - Water

Emotion - Freedom

Stone
- Sapphire

Weather - Blue Skies

Animal
- Dolphin

Which Unusual Name Suits You?
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December, Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in
games and interactions. Impatient and hasty.
Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to
be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises.
Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and
trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered.
Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high
pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to
joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

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Party!

In friend's house party now..lolx...juz now roxks like mad man...

another dance...ah, you know what...man...

anyway, sifu told me some things...maybe it was best that i didn't know, but oh well...i couldn't resist. now my curiosity has gotten me good. i don't know how, but oh well...too bad then. to me i guess.

i'm a baby...baby in God's eyes...man...

he promised me that he would repay me all the love that i have lost...what dya think? i guess so...he confirmed that. but one never knows. but i trust in God...i hope...i love him...


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Whole family's back!

Got a nice surprise this night. My bro and sis-in-law came back for some apparent family photo session that I'm not aware of. So anyway going to take photos...shux...I got zits...

Chem mock paper 2 till 10am. sighs...wanted to do it today, but couldn't since I never studied for it actually...but oh well...

Then later on, gonna cram a little...

did a few new pics...go see in my 'IMAGININGS' so see ya guys...later...


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new month, more rush

Oh yeah...it's more rushing now...I totally screwed up my Chemistry Practical prelims...regretting it now...but no choice, just stick it on and move my butt forward. Have my bio prelims prac tomorrow...pray that I'll do well.

Please Father, help me do well. I must get at least 80% of the marks on the test. I love you God. May your will be done and not my own.
In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.



You are a peaceful sleeper. You recognize that
sleep is a necessary part of life, and
understand that there is no way for you to
fully appreciate everything around you if you
dont give yourself a break once in a while.
You are a very calm and collected person who
seems to have all of their ducks in a row, so
to speak. You enjoy life without getting
over-enthusiastic and appreciate harmony in all
things.

How do you Sleep? (Anime Pics)
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