Wonderful 31/12/2005...12.22AM
Happy New Year Eve's to all of you out there.
Want to say a special thanks to Peiling, Peiwan, Sandy and Tiffany for the wondrous day...well..yesterday...thanks for the touching letter Sandy, and thank all of you for the Roxy bag, and to Tiff for the cow mug! I love the box as well...LOL...and also the 'girl session' we had with our nails at night. LOL...although I admit, when i went to bathe, 6 fingers had the edge chipped off since it wasn't really dry yet. LOL...
BTW, just wanna say...I think I'm falling in love with Il Divo. Especially their voices. But I would like it if they sang more in English than Italian. LOL...okok, enough gushing. But I think David Miller is HOT!~ Riiiight...he is hot. American though.
So many things to do, so little time. Haven pack finish. And aiai, for rpg, I'll be stalling for a while. Kinda hard for me to rp right now. So cya soon!
The Italian version of 'Hero', once sung by Mariah Carey.
"Heroe" by Il Divo
Como un libro
Que no sabes el final
Y te asusta lo que lees
Asi la vida es
Cuando naces
Ya te expones al dolor
Y de a poco y con valor
Chorus
Y como libro el corazon
Nos ensena que hay temor
Que Hay fracasos y maldad
Que hay batallas que ganar
Y en cada pagina el amor
Nos comvierte en luchador
Y descubres lo comun
No hay un heroe como tu
Son muy pocos
Que se arriesgan por amor
Pero tu tienes la fe
Y eso lo es todo
No decaigas
Que vivir es aprender
Y no hay nada que temer
Si crees en ti
Y Como libro el corazon
Nos ensena que hay temor
Que hay fracasos y maldad
Que hay batallas que ganar
Y en cada pagina el amor
Nos comvierte en luchador
Y descrubes lo comun
No hay un heroe como tu.
Solo Dios
Sabe donde y cuando
La vida no sera
Los has echo bien
Solo con un sueno todo
Sabras como vencer
Y Como libro el corazon
Nos ensena que hay temor
Que hay fracasos y maldad
Que hay batallas que ganar
Y en cada pagina el amor
Nos comvierte en luchador
Y descubres lo comun
No hay un horoe como tu.
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Old-fashioned thank you 29/12/2005...1.33pm
Changed the layout, but this is only temporary until i get the adobe photoshop mclaren one up. Oh, and i got this from aethereality.net. a really good site for getting anime pictures and layouts. one of the best i think...
But anyway, i want to say thank you to Benson and the yap family. Love the little message you guys gave to me this morning after 12am. LOL...will never forget you!
I think I'm having an affinity to Mythology. Of course, most of it are made up by human-beings to make themselves look more interesting especially in their history (aka the Romans and the Greeks). But the 'Gods' themselves have the same characteristics as humans, I reckon, from what I've read and all. They made mistakes, but I am glad to know that our living God, did not, and will not.
Even though sometimes things and life may not work out for us, but if we just take a step back and look from another perspective, it just may be the correct thing to push us in the right direction. Past hurts and history shape us, all it depends on us is what we choose to be shaped into. Somebody who overcomes it? or somebody who would just fall and let it overcome you.
I realize pushing problems away don't help matters much, even though I still do now. But I'm making a concious effort to not do so, and try to handle it head-on. Get's solved much faster that way, and I do not have any time to lose.
By the way, my parents forbid me from going onto any messengers for any chit-chatting, and I'm cutting down my online fiction reading plus RPG-ing. Releasing some characters that I don't see any point holding it. Online fiction would only be one day, 5 chapters. But I doubt when I go to KL, I even have the time to read much online. I should set up a stash of cash, for buying of books. Like, one week save RM10? So in one month, I should be able to buy one book? We'll see about that. Now I gotta pack everything. I'm bringing my sec textbooks up. May have some information to refer back. But my room up there is so small, I wonder where to put all my books. Bleh...
By the way, I got a new e-mail. popmeetsjazz@gmail.com
So if anything can just use gmail to converse with each other.
"All I Really Want" by Alanis Morissete
Do I stress you out
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say how appropriate
I don't want to dissect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see
But I can't help it
There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I could hunt the hunter
And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance
Do I wear you out
You must wonder why I'm so relentless and all strung out
I'm consumed by the chill of solitary
I'm like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
I'm frustrated by your apathy
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the Maker
And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature
What I wouldn't give to find a soulmate
Someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred
Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around...all around
Why are you so petrified of silence
Here can you handle this?
Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die
Or did you long for the next distraction
And all I need know is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer
All I really want is some peace man
a place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
All I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice...
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YES!!!!! 23/12/2005...1.52pm
I GOT MY FUJITSU LIFEBOOK S2110SM! Although it's not the best, but its good enough for me. Love my headphones and mic and the touchpad. Hate the fact that im getting the small mouse and the genius laser gaming mouse belongs to the desktop at home! *cries* *sniffs*
Gotta pack my stuff soon...to go to KL...lol...right...on the 27th going out with the Loh Bro.s, hope i do not cry when i leave them. My beloved godbro!!!
Right...oh well...so tired. see u guys soon...
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I hope 20/12/2005...11.49pm
This is something for my friends out there, all my sisters and brothers, LOL. Especially for you my Sandy...
I LOVE ALL OF YOU MY FRIENDS!~
I Hope
I hope you surf the waves in from the ocean,
big and small.
I hope you watch the sunset,
from a mountain straight and tall.
I hope you sing a song to all the angels,
loud and clear.
I hope you'll always try new things,
never giving in to fear
I hope you fall in love,
with one who makes your world go 'round.
I hope that if you fall out,
your feet stay on the ground.
I hope that you can understand,
that true love waits for you.
That you mau have to wait awhile,
but when it comes it will be true.
I hope that you feel the sand,
hot on your toes on summer's day.
I hope that you learn that sandals,
help to keep the pain away.
I hope you find a rainbow,
and realize it was worth the rain.
I hope that through your journey,
you'll learn to balance smiles with pain.
I hope that you will realize,
life isn't always on your side.
I hope that you know when hope is lost,
in me you can confide.
I hope that your glowing smile,
brings someone out of gloom.
I hope that you taste your life,
with more than just a spoon.
I hope that when you're lost,
you are also one to find.
And I hope that your hand,
never grows too big in mine.
I hope you watch the stars shoot by,
upon a grassy hill.
I hope you know I love you,
always have and always will.
by Laura O'Neill
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MAD FUN 12/12/2005...9.51pm
Hi guys, it's been quite some time since I've been on. Been busy with MAD Camp. Camp was awesome and it was great! Made me think quite a lot about myself and I also learned a lot of stuff about performing my passion.
So now, I have a story to tell. Jie, if you read this ar, then take it in mind that I already told Mommy.
Well, 3 years back I met this guy. Didn't really talk to him that much, just thought he looked good. Eye-candy you know...lolx...When you're in a camp with not much chinese, somehow the more attractive ones just stands out. Then, 2 years later, I went for camp again. Saw him again. Well...hehe...suffice to say, the eye-candy just got stronger. Then I told Mel about it. Well...duh...she went like..."OMGS, You like him?" I just went, "Dear sister...eye-candy you know..." but then, i was blushing. Bleh!
But after camp was over, I regretted not talking to him much. Then I kind of like took his email from Mel, moi girl. So I introduced myself properly from there. Talked quite a bit there. Learned more about him. I'm not going to go into much detail, just going to say that this year's camp, was rather revolutionizing. For bad for good, I'm not sure. As I said, I clearly hold quite a cynical eye to things, even though I may try to hope for the optimistic. With school friends who are so casual about relationships and sex, I wonder whether they influenced me much. I really hope not.
Well, other than that, I met a couple of good friends as well. Eunice (the other side of Bra, aka G-string...wakakakakaka...), Benjamin (the guy who 'denied' that he was a Hainanese and someone who is caring and talented), Tristan (big guy whom I can consider a padding...hahahaha...I still remember how I bounced off him during the game), Zhi Sheng (aka G, as you can read, the other counterpart of Eunice..no offence guys). Also revived some other friendship with Nicholas (Corrupted guy who corrupted us who in turn corrupted him back to corrupt us), Aaron, and more peeps.
Sifu said some stuff on the last day that got me thinking. Well, I guess it is time to let God take control and do some housekeeping in my mind. I've been listening to my own imagination and lies too often. Whenever someone says something or acts in a certain way, I get paranoid. Then I just want to forget all 'bout it and push it all away. Unwanted and disruptive voices in my head have stopped. I just want it to continue to be silent. Lines and Liars, I hate you! So please stop.
Pictures of MAD Camp is here. http://photobucket.com/albums/a382/ptotsv/MAD%20Camp/
There would be more at Mel's blog and at the DYC Forum.
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Prom go MAD 5/12/2005...5.33pm
Apparently I did not update much on Prom. But suffice to say, it was fantastic. What a joke between Kian and George who was vying to be Prom Prince. Both started stripping till their muscle tee and trousers, and all of us laughed till we were out of the chairs. What kind of machoness is that man...immature one I suppose. LOL...
the girls were pretty alright. Though there were a few I thought shouldn't even be up there because of their *coughbitchinesscough*. Right...some pics for you guys though...to see how transformed we all were. It was a shock, seeing people whom you see almost everyday during school life out of uniform. Great difference I tell you. I think I was the only girl without full-fledged make-up. Dom and Amanda went with the gothic look. Both at smudged eyeliner all over their eyes. Think My chemical Romance. Bleh...
I only put on basic foundation, and lip gloss. That was all. LOL...We had some dance afterwards...danced for almost an hour. To songs, and even YMCA. lolx...that was fun! Did some clubbing dance as well. LOL...
I'm the one in the sparkling blue dress. The one I'm standing next to is my directory to books. She is also the smartest girl in class.
This guy is the class greatest joker/teaser. He was the one who started calling me Hornet in the first place, and apparently, it stuck.
Class Photo. Sadly, not all of us are inside. LOL...
Alright... few more hours till MAD Camp! See you soon!
Pay attention to the details. Especially below...
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