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You're Edmund Pevensie from The Chronicles of Narnia
You go crazy inside whenever anyone tells you what to do, but rather than speaking up, you tend to back off and find a place to be alone. That way, you get to feel like you're in charge. Other people (even family members) tend to see you as an ungrateful snot, but that's only because you don't have much patience. You're independent and adventurous, so if you ever get lost in a snowy forest, you'll stay pretty calm.
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A quiz I took on the-n.com. Rather true, but not all. LOL...
by the way, i have sore throat. ugh...
joined a gym, rather cool. Celebrity gym in Subang Parade, but since that one is not up yet, so going to the One Utama one first till it's ready in March.
Gotta buy LabCoat. sighs...RM42 gone again.
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Sprained my neck. sprained my right thigh muscles. Pain.
Went for work on saturday morning. 6 hours straight. Sleepy.
Church. Talk. Still sleepy.
Dinner. Got lost trying to find restaurant. Laughed.
Home. English 'a walk to remember' conflicts essay. Pain.
'Nuff said.
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SICK CYCLE CAROUSEL by LifeHouse
if shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
if it had a home would it be my eyes
would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this
well here we go now one more time
I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
you better believe that I have tried to beat this
so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop
till I step down from this for good
well I never thought I'd end up here never
thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time
I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
you better believe that I have tried to beat this
so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop
till I step down from this
sick cycle carousel
this is a sick cycle yeah
sick cycle carousel
this is a sick cycle yeah
so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop
till I step down from this for good
so when will this end it goes on and on
over and over and over again
keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop
till I step down from this for good
sick cycle carousel
sick cycle carousel
sick cycle carousel
sick cycle carousel
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I guess the song above contains all I want to say.
but anyway, an update, i may not get to see most of you guys during chinese new year, as i'm going off to my 'home island' hainan island in china for the holidays. the only time period to see me is on saturday morning and noontime, coz' afternoon and evening i got reunion dinner as what most of you guys will have as well... so i guess i'm missing delirious AYA festival as well. sighs...but i'm happy that i get to go overseas after sooooo long a delay all because of stupid secondary school.
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I was looking for something to update on when I saw this on someone's *winks* blog. Frankly, I was wondering why SE7EN came out, coz' coincidentally, I just bought the SE7EN DVD acted by Brad Pitt and some other guy. That show MUST NOT be watched in darkness! Scary mystery thriller. One of the best shows that I've ever watched with Brad Pitt inside, other than Fight Club. The story is about the seven deadly sins in the world. Oh well, this entry is not about that, but a sort of quiz? To let people know more about me. So here it goes...
(In no order of merit)
SE7EN things that make me smile:
1) Seeing someone happy
2) Jokes
3) Stories
4) Books
5) Funny antics by people
6) Friends and family in harmony, enjoying themselves
7) God's peace and forgiveness
SE7EN ways to win my heart:
1) A person after God's heart
2) Good confidante
3) Humour
4) Love me for who I AM and not who you THINK I AM
5) Encourager/Comforter/Refuge
6) Originality
7) Able to think maturely
SE7EN things I believe in:
1) God
2) Bible
3) Love
4) Family
5) Prayer
6) Letting go and letting God
7) Happiness
SE7EN things that I'm afraid of:
1) Flying Cockroaches
2) Remaining stagnant
3) Not being original, losing my creativity
4) Rejection
5) Hurting people
6) Failing in anything I do
7) Public speaking to a LARGE MASSIVE crowd
SE7EN things I do everyday:
1) Read
2) Cry (when reading or watching or listening to sad stories)
3) Sleep
4) Laugh
5) Use the computer
6) Use my HP
7) Listen to music
SE7EN people I want to see right now:
1) My FAMILY! (missing all of you guys now)
2) My FRIENDS! (missing you all as well...*boo hoo*)
3) God
4) The band of Il Divo
5) Tom Felton
6) Jonathan Rhys-Meyers
7) Jesse McCartney
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By the way, I went for a GTPJ youth cell today. Rather interesting. The mates there were plain CCRRAAZZYY! Met someone who could be my counterpart, excluding my laughter. Wahahahaha...after cell, went to Asia Cafe for mamak, and chatted. Laughed. Over silly things as well. Apparently someone told me if I told the guys that I love to eat Smelly Tofu than they would all laugh and tease me. Oh well...used to it by now I guess. From ALL the teasing I get from my classmates, you CHURCH MATES!!! and Suz Jian last time. Plus, I'm the YOUNGEST among them all AGAIN! Most of them are all 18 to 20 over odd people, and I'm the only 16 year old girl. Argh!
Anyway, updates on Sunway College. Eerrrr, not sure whether to put it up here, so not going to say unless I consider it safe. 2nd thing, got lost again, trying to find the chemistry lab. Man, the whole place is like a freakin' puzzle! Bought my graphing calculator that cost me RM400..that's crazy, so Mel and the rest of you going to college in a year or sooner, I suggest to you, go save up your money for college. you need it a lot expecially when book prices go up again, and the calculator prices also goes up. At least RM1000 for all stationaries/books/essential stuff you need for the start of college.
By the way, I've gotten used to the stupid aeroplanes flying across the house. Still scares me a little. Bleh! The whole table rocks when it goes past you know. Kinda weird and scary man...
Oh, I WASHED MY FIRST TOILET TODAY! YEE-HAH!!!!
Ok, kinda ridiculous for me to be so overjoyed over washing a toilet, but considering that I've been dirtying toilets my whole life instead of cleaning them, this is a kind of acheivement. HEHE. Oh, I made a salad for dinner as well. Followed this recipe, while Alicia Jie made meatballs and pasta for dinner, copied from Jamie Oliver. One good Cockney (not sure whether the spelling is right or not) accented famous millionaire young chef from Britain. Now hafta learn how on earth do I clean my room! Getting dusty.
Artist: Good Charlotte Lyrics
Song: Thank You Mom Lyrics
I'm sitting here I'm thinking back to a time when I was young...
My memory, is clear as day
I'm listening to the dishes clink, you were downstairs, you would sing
Songs of praise
And all the times we laughed with you, and all the times that you stayed true to us
Now we say...
I said I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you could know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever
You were my mom, you were my dad, the only thing I ever had was you, it's true
And even when the times got hard, you were there to let us know...that we'd get through
You showed me how to be a man, you taught me how to understand the things, people do
You showed me how to love my God, you taught me that not everyone knows the truth
And I thank you, I'll always thank you
More than you could know, than I could ever show
And I love you, I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do, to say these words to you
That you will live forever
Always, always and forever
Artist: Lifehouse Lyrics
Song: Breathing Lyrics
I'm finding my way back to sanity, again
Though I don't really know what
I am gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back in the arms of grace
I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
I am looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be
I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want to be here now
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Well, I just came back from lunch and GTPJ, which i had chicken rice and saw Bobby Michaels respectively. Man, Bobby Michael's new album is gorgeous. You guys must go and buy!!!!! He sang for us a few songs, and it's really beautiful and touching to the heart. Buy his international album, it even has the Lion King Singers in them. He then preached to us, about Martha and Mary. He urged us to have a 'Mary' new year. Be at God's feet, Jesus' feet all the time and not busy all the way, every time like Martha. But God loves all of us the same no matter who you are, and how you respond to him. Of course, he would love it if you be by his feet, listening to him instead of busy with no time for him. Plus, if you are feeling terrible and all, just remember that God is singing over you.
Keep Singing by MercyMe
Another rainy day
I can't recall having sunshine on my face
All I feel is pain
All I wanna do is walk out of this place
But when I am stuck and I can't move
When I don't know what I should do
When I wonder if I'll ever make it through
I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising Your name
Your the one that's keeping my heart beating
I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising Your name
That's the only way that I'll find healing
Can I climb up in Your lap
I don't wanna leave
Jesus sing over me
I gotta keep singing
Can I climb up in Your lap
I don't wanna leave
Jesus sing over me
I gotta keep singing
Oh You're everything I need
And I gotta keep singing
This is one of my favourite songs ever. Anytime I'm feeling low, this would just reassure me and give me peace.
Bought Durian bombs...yummy...i think i'm going to put on weight by the time i go back to JB. lol...gotta watch my weight now. bleh...cannot be too plump. Plus, I need to go workout soon. Maybe join Alicia in her celebrity fitness gym. My mp3 got problems again. Stupid MMC Card. Hate it sooo much. Going to get a SD card instead. Negotiate with the guy to exchange. Classes start proper tomorrow. Man, I'm wondering whether I should take Calculus instead of Economics. See how well I do though in both. I still have up till CNY to make my decision.
Artist: Martina McBride
Song: Concrete Angel
She walks to school with a lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holding back;
Wearing the same dress she wore yesterday,
She hides the bruises with the linen and lace;
oh
The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask,
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask;
Bearing the burdon of a secret storm,
Sometimes she wishes she was never born;
Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone in a world that she can't rise above;
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved.
Concrete Angel
Somebody cries in the middle of the night,
The neighbors hear but they turn out the lights;
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate,
When morning comes it will be too late.
Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone in a world that she can't rise above;
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved.
Concrete Angel
A statue stands in a shaded place,
An angel girl with an upturned face;
Her name is written on a polished rock,
A broken heart that the world forgot.
Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone in a world that she can't rise above;
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved.
Concrete Angel
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Most of you should know by now. I have two red streaks in my hair. but in the following pictures below, you guys can only see one pic with it. coz the other two, i didn't use flash...hehehe...note my cow metal pencil box. the 1st thing that struck me when i saw the pic my sister took, was how big the cow teats were. hahahahahaha....right...
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Dear Blog...my fingers are shivering now. and I'm not joking.
This may sound silly when I read it later on, but for now...my insides are really quaking. Kinda hard for me to type right now. argh.
Is it just me and my influenced mind or what? Coz I just heard the loudest ever plane that flew across the house. And for a minute I thought it was going to crash and I'm going to die. Kinda frightening you know.
Then before that, I heard some knocking on the roof. and the alarm went off. Didn't dare go check it out. to me, inside my head, was the word 'shit' running over and over.
What is happening? I don't know. I just really thank God. For his mercy and grace. Small, but quite an eye-opening experience. Death.
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It's a new start for all of us. A new year, time to put the past behind and move on. No matter what may happen, come what may, we got to put it all behind and move forward. If not, one may find themselves being miserable. But it's also time to put past greviances (*wonder if my spelling is right) to rest. Face the music.
For me, going to a whole new environment, whole new world for me it is to see. Same goes for those going overseas, like Jarrod or Jason. Wish you the best when you leave for aus. Take advantage of the place you're in, learn new cultures and still be discerning. For those continuing on in Singapore, God Bless you in everything you undertake. JC life will be hectic, so work hard from day one onwards. Poly life is still hectic, and since it has a more varsity feel to it, take advantage of that as well, and make full use of your time in there. Do not slack, that I've learnt in a very bad way. Meeting project deadlines are crucial to life skills in fact. Makes you a more punctual person and people don't get frustrated with you much as well.
School day for me now, orientation. LOL...going now. But I leave a song...
"Hold On" by JET
You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
‘Til all you had spilled over
Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know where you are, you are
[Chorus:]
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to [2x]
For you to belong to
When it’s hard to be yourself
It’s not to be someone else
Still everything’s so far away
That you forget where you are, you are
[Chorus:]
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to [2x]
Hold on [8x]
[Chorus:]
When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to [3x]
For you to belong to
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