So, see ya guys! gonna clunk since i got RIPPED from slp first by ben, then by my dad in which i clunked my head 2 times straight. alright, whatever...
In Berlin, Germany
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Feel like crying 28/9/2005...4.50PM
Feel like crying, really really do. But no tears just flow out. None. Why? Do not know. Maybe because I felt I wasted too much tears over too many things and never lifted a finger to improve on that lot. I think I got to buck up. Got to have faith. Got to trust in God's plan for me.
Guess what? I just saw a mosquito flying around in daytime. In my sister's room. You think it's dengue? Apparently malaysia is cautious of singapore already. Also, the new breed of mosquitoes that carry the dengue virus (Aedes) is stronger and immune to insecticides. Plus, they can fly over more than 750m and higher than 11 stories altitude. Guess survival is important to every one of us, including insects/pests. Natural selection, mutation of genes that are inherited by their offsprings. Hmm...
Got to go for chiro later. Just a brief check-in. I need an A2 for my English if I want a 15 for L1R5. anything more than that and I'll cry.
Chinese: B3
C. Human.s: B4
Chem: B4
Bio: B4
A. math: A1
E. Math: A1
English: *still in moderation, as apparently our level did quite badly. Pray that I'll get an A1 or A2.*
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Some kind of freakin' joke 25/9/2005 10.15PM
Don't know what to do. I'm so nervous. getting back prelims results tml. i didn't put in much effort. how? shux, God, help me. Sorry for not totally relying on you. So sorry...God, please...forgive me.
Prayer works. it will. it will. i hope. i trust. i believe.
Jesus, please be with me. Comfort me, give me peace Lord. Thank you. I love you.
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Tired 24/9/2005...10.13PM
So tired, but anyway, ben, if you want a preview of your blog layout, check out http://ptotsv.blogspot.com ok? if you don't like it, find it too girly or otherwise, juz tell me and i'll see if i can change it. i'm already up doing a more spunkier one, but if you wanna add anything else other than BoA, maybe like FF or anything other, just tell me ok?
So, see ya guys! gonna clunk since i got RIPPED from slp first by ben, then by my dad in which i clunked my head 2 times straight. alright, whatever...
In Berlin, Germany
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a quiz and some words 22/9/2005...10.12PM
Passive Black Wings
Unlike
aggressive black wings, you do not wish to
involve yourself with any form of humanity or
living thing, unless it is on your own terms.
Darkness is where you feel the safest, whether
you are alone (sometimes) or with a fellow
passive (you enjoy the company of your kind).
You are not full of hatred, but rather a sense
of alienation. You often find yourself saying,
Why bother?
Your wings are not tattered, for you have always
been hidden away and unexposed.
What color do your wings behold? (darker nature)
brought to you by Quizilla
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I really hate, really really hate it when I miss out questions while doing an important paper. MY CHEMISTRY PRELIMS PAPER 2! I MISSED OUT THE WHOLE PG 7, WASTED 8 MARKS AND FURTHERMORE, MUCH OF MY ELECTROLYSIS QN IS GONE!!!!!
Sorry, really needed to get it out!
But other than that, i'm generally quite happy to a certain extent. Really wanted something to laugh about, thus this layout.
Note to Ben: Hey, I am in the process of making your beloved BoA blogspot skin. But can you do me one favour? Do you want a pic of you beside her or not? If so, can gimme the link to the picture? can the background of that pic be white? thanks! *i actually put there "Ben's sweetums"*
Another one
Your element is Earth. You have your feet on the
ground and are in touch with reality. Some may
say you need to lighten up, but you are just
not that way. It's not that you don't enjoy
having fun, you only find it in more calmer
activities such as writing or reading a book.
But before you have your fun you always make
sure your work is done. You are considered the
reliable one among your friends, you would
never betray anyone just like and are not
influenced on peer-pressure. Friends and family
can always come to you for guidance because you
are wise and smart. You know what is right and
what is wrong and you study hard to become
something big in the future. The bad side is
that your friend/s feel ignored when you spend
more time with books and papers rather with
them. You are not such a people person and are
sometimes a question-mark on how to behave
around them at certain times. Luckily it always
works out, somehow. Love is not really desired
in your world right now, maybe in the future
when you've got a work and so on under control.
After all, you are a perfectionist. Rate and
message!
What is your element? [with pics + detailed answeres]
brought to you by Quizilla
you are CAREFREE. you're one of those people that
doesn't seem to have a worry in the world.
you're happy with your life and want it to stay
that way. You probably have lots of friends
cause you just seem to attract them with your
totally easy-going attitude. You are probably
very child-like at heart and school may not be
your best trait due to the fact that you are a
procrastinator. You never are cruel to anyone
and nothing anyone ever says really phases you.
To put it simply the world could probably end
tomorrow and you would spend your last day like
every other day, just enjoying yourself. RATE
AND MESSAGE!!!
PERSONALITY QUIZ! (lots of results)
brought to you by Quizilla
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3rd Q&A --> *psst, ben 21/9/2005...3.46PM
[] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[] I've run away from home.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am
[] I listen to political music.
[x] I collect comic books.
[X] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] open up to others easily.
[] I am keeping a secret from the world
[] I watch the news.
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[] I own an iPod or MP3 player ( i want one...)
[] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney Movies
[X] I am a sucker for hair/eyes. *(especially long fringes...giggles)
[] don't kill bugs.
[] I curse regularly.
[] I paid for that cell phone ringtone.
[] I am a sports fanatic
[] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation. (lol)
[] I love Spam.
[] I bake well
[] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[] I have a job.
[] I love Martha Stewart
[X] I am in love with love.
[X] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. *(But that was a long time ago)
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] like to laugh.
[] I smoke a pack a day.
[] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[X] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[x] I can't swallow pills. *(i usually take a long long time to do so)
[x] I eat fast food weekly..
[x] I've been out of this country.
[] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[] I see a therapist.
[x] I love white chocolate. *(i love all kinds)
[] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games/video games.
[x] I'm single.
[] I'm in a myspace relationship.
[x] Gotten lost in your city.
[x] Saw a shooting star.
[x] Been to any other countries besides the united states. *(i am in another country)
[] I had a serious Surgery.
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas. *(loads of times: tuition)
[] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[] Been in a fist fight.
[] Been arrested.
[] laughed and had milk/RICE come out of your nose.
[] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] Made out in an elevator
[]Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts *(once on purpose, he was daring me anyway. loads of other times accidently..oops)
[x]Been close to love.
[]Been to a casino.
[] Been skydiving.
[x] Broken a bone.
[x] Skipped school.
[] Flashed someone.
[] Saw a therapist
[x] Done a split.
[x] Played spin the bottle.
[] Gotten stitches.
[x] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone.
[] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[] Kissed a member of the same sex.
[] Crashed into a friend's car *(no car, sadly. really want a Mercedes SLR MCLAREN)
[] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[] Shoplifted.
[] Been fired
[] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[] Stole something from your job.
[] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Lied to a friend
[] Had a crush on a teacher/sub
[] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[] Been to Europe.
[] Slept with a co-worker.
[] Been married.
[] Gotten divorced
[] Had children
[] Saw someone dying.
[] Been to Africa
[] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[] Been to Canada
[] Been to Mexico.
[x] Been on a plane.
[] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi.
[] Been snowboarding
[] Been Skiing
[x] Met someone in person from the internet.
[] Been moshing at a rock show.
[] Been to a moto cross show
[] Lost a child(miscarrage and lost lil in a store)
[] Gone to college <-- this means university
[] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[] Had someone cheat on you.
[x] Miss someone right now.
[] Don't like anyone in your town enough to call them a "friend".
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Something to munch upon 20/9/2005
The above picture, is rather, a scene where I am about 3-5 years old, still drinking out from a bottle. The spotted/beige thingy I'm holding is my smelly pillow, which still resides with me now. Can't sleep without it. As you can see, I'm painfully shy there, sucking on my bottle. I think I miss doing that, sucking a bottle. Maybe I should buy a pacifier for myself in the near future. What do you think?
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Shout out to Aiai! and something else...20/9/2005...1.22PM
Girl, do you still remember the time when the both of us were at city square filling out the student Popular card form over a bowl of Nissin Noodles at cyberzone?
I got my proper card now, but the thing is (which made me LMAO) ...the name on it is not GOH YING QIN LYNETTE or even LYNETTE GOH YING QIN. guess what it is? It's GOH YING SIN LYNETTE!!!!!
Can I ask for a change of cards or just let it be? NO harm done right??? right???
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Something about 19/9/2005...5.25PM
*note: Ben, if you haven't view the entry yet, it's the one below this alright?*
"Dream A Little Dream" by Michael Buble
Stars shining bright above you, night breezes seem to whisper, "I love you".
Birds singing in the sycamore tree, "Dream a little dream of me".
Say "nighty-night" and kiss me. Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me.
While I'm alone and blue as can be, dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading, but I linger on, dear.
Still craving your kiss, I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear.
Just saying this: Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you.
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading, but I linger on, dear.
Still craving your kiss, I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear.
Just saying this: Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you.
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.
But in your dreams whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.
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Reply 18/9/2005...7.11PM
-raises left eyebrow at Bong
Hey Mr Big Guy, I forced you to update? Nah, I just persuaded you to. There's a big difference you know.
From Dictionary.com
Forced
To compel through pressure or necessity
To gain by the use of force or coercion: force a confession.
To move or effect against resistance or inertia: forced my foot into the shoe.
To inflict or impose relentlessly: He forced his ideas upon the group.
To put undue strain on: She forced her voice despite being hoarse.
To increase or accelerate (a pace, for example) to the maximum.
To produce with effort and against one's will: force a laugh in spite of pain.
To use (language) with obvious lack of ease and naturalness.
To move, open, or clear by force: forced our way through the crowd.
To break down or open by force: force a lock.
To rape.
Botany. To cause to grow or mature by artificially accelerating normal processes.
Baseball.
To put (a runner) out on a force play.
To allow (a run) to be scored by walking a batter when the bases are loaded.
Games. To cause an opponent to play (a particular card).
Persuaded
To induce to undertake a course of action or embrace a point of view by means of argument, reasoning, or entreaty
See?
LOLx...anyway, thanks for that little footnote. Glad to know your romantic side hasn't fled you yet. And I pray that when you meet you beloved future wife, it wouldn't flee you, or else, you have reason for the most embarrassing moment to happen in your life that I doubt you can ever forget. Haha...
You have fun with this quote now...
The human heart, at whatever age,
opens to the heart that opens in return.
~ by Maria Edgeworth ~
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New School Prayer 18/9/2005...5.51PM
The New School Prayer
Now I sit me down in school
Where praying is against the rule
For this great nation under God
Finds mention of Him very odd.
If Scripture now the class recites,
It violates the Bill of Rights.
And anytime my head I bow
Becomes a Federal matter now.
Our hair can be purple, orange or green,
That's no offense; it's a freedom scene.
The law is specific, the law is precise.
Prayers spoken aloud are a serious vice.
For praying in a public hall
Might offend someone with no faith at all
In silence alone we must meditate, God's
name is prohibited by the state.
We're allowed to cuss and dress like freaks,
And pierce our noses, tongues and cheeks.
They've outlawed guns, but first the Bible.
To quote the Good Book makes me liable.
We can elect a pregnant Senior Queen,
And the 'unwed daddy,' our Senior King.
It's "inappropriate" to teach right from wrong, We're taught that such "judgments"
do not belong.
We can get our condoms and birth controls,
Study witchcraft, vampires and totem poles.
But the Ten Commandments are not allowed,
No word of God must reach this crowd.
It's scary here I must confess,
When chaos reigns the school's a mess.
So, Lord, this silent plea I make:
Should I be shot; my soul please take!
Amen
--Author Unknown
Forgotten 16/9/2005...2.44PM
"I've Forgotten Everything" by Phil Collins
'...I get along without you very well' [Hoagy Carmichael. 1939]
I've forgotten everything about you
'til someone says your name
I've forgotten all the reasons I loved you
'til someone tells me that you rang
The memories are hazy now
I don't recall at all
there's nothing, there's nothing there
just me
and I don't understand why
I can't recollect my feelings
'til someone mentions that they saw you
I really don't remember all the things you said
'til someone shows me where you live
Why is everything so hazy now
I don't recall at all
there's nothing, there's nothing there
just me
and I don't understand why
I can't recall your smile
the touch of your hand holding mine
and I can't remember why
holding you seemed so right
The memories they're hazy now
I don't recall at all
there's nothing, there's nothing there
just me
and I don't understand why
I've forgotten everything about you
'til someone says your name
I've forgotten all the reasons I loved you
'til someone tells me that you rang
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The song above represents my feelings about now. I've forgotten a lot of things. Not just love, but everything else. Sometimes I wonder whether I'll be living life just floating by. At times when some people see me so into something, they just don't realize my mind is not on it. Sometimes I find myself doing things unconciously, even though willing, but like a robot. Feelings may show, but are they true? I don't even know whether I'm even wearing a mask. Maybe I am, and I just don't know it. Or maybe I'm not, and I'm this pathetic.
Q&A2 16/9/2005
10 Favorites...
Favorite Color: Blue, green, purple, red and black.
Favorite Food: pizza, rojak, chocolates.
Favorite Band/Singer: F4, Phil Collins, planetshakers, hillsongs united..etc...
Favorite Song: I'll try - Jonatha Brooke
Favorite Movie: Lords of Dogtown, Charlie and Choc. Fact., Coach Carter.
Favorite Sport: Netball
Favorite Season: Fall/Autumn
Favorite Day Of the Week: Saturdays
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: cookies and creme'
Favorite Time of Day: Midnight
9 Currents...
Current Mood: Sleepy
Current Taste: chocolates
Current Clothes: D Red beach shorts, 'Genuine Princess' shirt
Current Desktop Picture: Some photo taken from Deviantart. Broken windows and a man facing the sea.
Current Toenail Color: Colourless
Current Time: 6.07PM
Current Surroundings: sister's room
Current Annoyance(s): having tuition afterwards and then gotta mug for prelims.
Current Thought: what to study for A Math
8 Firsts...
First Best Friends: Sandy
First movie: Tarzan (I think? that's the earliest i can remember if watch in cinema. if not, then it's Parent's Trap!!!!!)
First Screen Name: k1NkY^79
First Pet: two rabbits called Joy and Wombat.
First Piercing: Ear.
First Crush: Err, Hong Fong.
First Music You Remember Hearing: There she goes by sixpence none the richer.
First Car: none.
7 Lasts...
Last Cigarette: none.
Last Drink: Redoxen (sad yeah?)
Last Car Ride: cab ride home just now around noon.
Last food you ate: some funny indian food for lunch.
Last Movie Seen: Lords of Dogtown (it rocks ass!)
Last Phone Call: to brother Charles.
Last CD Played: Modern Worship Collection.
6 Have You Evers....
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: No.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: Yes.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: No.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: No.
Have You Ever Been on TV: Yes.
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: No. Never kissed or been kissed before anyway...
Have you ever met anyone from deviantART: eh, no.
5 Things....
You're Wearing: D Red beach shorts, 'genuine princess' shirt, underwear, bra.
Done Today: school, prelim 2005 'o'levels bio paper 1 and 2, eat cadbury chocs, eat lunch, bathe, read fanfics and fictions.
You Can Hear Right Now: 'you got a friend in me' song from disney magic. dogs yapping...keyboard tapping.
You Can't Live Without: imagination, computer, books, my pillow, chocs, family and friends.
You Do When You're Bored: read. sleep. zone out.
4 Places You've Been...
1. Jakarta
2. Hong Kong
3. Macau
4. Thailand
3 People You Can Tell Anything To...
1. Sandy
2. Aiai
3. Mel
2 Choices...
1. Black or White: Black
2. Hot or Cold: Hot
1 Thing You Want to Do Before you die.
Know God.
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Q&A 15/9/2005...2.04PM
::: A R E Y O U :::
*a shopaholic = Not really. Will only buy stuff when I need it.
*sensitive = Most of the time yeah...
*easily hurt = only when initially i'm already vulnerable. if not, i'll just tune out...
*calm = yeah, most of the time. can be a lil' crazy though...
*choosy = I'm a girl, wad dya tink? yeah right?
*active = only during certain periods of the year...yeah...
*very shy = very? not really...just shy at certain times...
*brand-conscious = nah, but it's good to wear sth branded that's DURABLE!
*a good listener = uh, i think i'm a good over-listener...
*easily bored = yes. unless i'm doing sth i like...
*Daring = when i choose to yeah. which is, only till a certain extent
*outgoing = not really that much. good, just not that much.
*open-minded = Yes!
*an only child = No...am the youngest in my family. huge age gap between my siblings and I
*happy at the moment = nah, i'm feeling anxious right now. prelims up ya know...
*tired = yes, totally!
*playing any online games = RPG PBeP considered??
*good at Chess = no..haha...lost my touch.
*tempted by chocolates = YES!!!!!!!!!!!! MY BELOVED CHOCS!!!!!!
*dark/tan/fair = Fairly fair.
*afraid of the dark = Nope.
::: D O Y O U :::
*play the guitar = yes, though not that good.
*play the piano = Yes!
*like your life = errr, think so yeah...
*like school = Yeah.
*like reading = YES!
*like sweets = YES! I'M A SWEET TOOTH FAIRY!!
*like travelling = YEP! New culture and sorts. wanna go to UK and USA though...
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*own an Xbox = Nope. Don't bother either...
*have a handphone = Yeah, a Symbian phone
*like Spongebob Squarepants = errr....it's okay i guess...
*have a tattoo = Nope!
*ride a bike = Bicycle yes. Motorcycle, nah.
*read Harry Potter = YEP! LOVE IT TO BITS!!
*yell at your siblings = No. If I do, they'll cut me off first, or just think i'm immature. shout joyfully yes though...
*argue with your parents = on certain times yes...
*love McDonalds = I'm kinda sick of it, though i do eat it...
*play basketball = sometimes...
*play badminton = yeah
*watch Disney channel = No astro, sorry...so no
*like Oreo = eh, ok lar
*like potato chips = to a certain extent. it makes my hair drop...
*drive = will be doing it soon, i hope. I WANNA A MERCEDES SLR MCLAREN!!!!
*do the housework = no. pick my clothes up and send it downstairs for washing considered?
::: W I L L Y O U :::
*get more than 5 piercings = no. 2 more maybe. not 5.
*curse a friend = when they do something tt pisses me off then yes of course.
*hit someone that offended you = no. i'll hit my pillow first.
*cheat to win = no. against my principles.
*sacrifice for the one you love = yes, duh.
*hug a stranger = sure.
*sneak out at night alone = i don't even have to sneak out. but even if i do, where to go?
*join Fear Factor = no. it's gross!
*further your studies overseas = YES, already making plans...frankly, i'm already studying overseas
*try summoning a ghost for fun= No. it's stupid.
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*try alcohol = been there done that. never gotten drunk yet though.
*cut your hair = i always cut my hair. no probs man!
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Lines and Liars 14/9/2005...7.52PM
<font color=gold>Me, Miss Atlantis Bishop, am a very patient and tolerant person. A straight line, no bends, no crooks. Don't believe me? Why not you ask my mates then?
I'm sure they'd love to tell you how good I am. Of course, that is if I'm in front of them. When I turn my back around, it's all daggers.
As I said, I'm a very patient and tolerant person...that is, until you infuriate me so much that I just burst. Trust me, you don't want to see me when I do burst.
It's not pretty.
Have you ever wondered why people lie? Some may even actually crave in it. That someone? My so-called best friend, Miss Aphrodite Adams.
Her story is rather sad, you know. Maybe I just have too much compassion in me, or maybe I'm just plain selfish, loving to take advantage of Miss Adam's generosity.
But come to think of it, I don't even need her generosity. So I really wonder why do I still stick with her and all.
I really wonder...
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The Sound of Silence 12/9/2005...3.09PM
The sound of Silence by Simon/Garfunkel
Hello darkness, my old friend,
I’ve come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left it’s seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
’neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
A neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one deared
Disturb the sound of silence.
Fools said i,you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made.
And the sign flashed out it’s warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, the words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisper’d in the sounds of silence.
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ARGH!!!! 10/9/2005...8.34PM
DON'T ASK ME WHY! I FEEL LIKE THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG. SOMETHING REALLY WRONG. GOT A SENSE, I DO NOT KNOW WHAT. WWHHHAATT IISS WWRRROOONNNGGG??????
I HATE THIS FEELING. JUST GIVES ME THE BLEEDING JITTERS...
I NEED TO THROW SOMETHING. THROW THROW THROW, SCRATCH SCRATCH SCRATH, JUMP JUMP JUMP, KICK KICK KICK, SMASH SMASH SMASH, KILL KILL KILL!!!!
BASKET. BASTARD. ASSHOLE. FREAK. BLAST YOU! GO AWAY! CAN YOU??? GO AWAY!!!!
Bloody Hell...
P.S: Don't mind the caps, thank you.
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Doing up 8/9/2005...10.44PM
Alright, doing up another layout. But it's not done yet, so quite a few links are missing. Lolx, so just bear with me eh? I'm also still trying to get the background picture of the textbox. So chill a lil' alright? Give lil' ole' me some time.
Can't get anything into my head. Help!
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Finance 7/9/2005...2.18PM
went to http://youngmoney.com for some investment ideas. opened me to a whole new world actually. never realized that if one invests young, millionaire status would then not be that far away either.
anyway, I updated http://pa55ion.blospot.com
or rather I just changed the layout. Kinda cute yeah? animated cows! MoOoOoOooo...
picked out a few more extra pictures from deviantart for the ideas of the changing layout for this site. Hope after my prelims I have the time to do so.
Now all i gotta do is FOCUS and CRYSTALLISE my thoughts onto my studies. what i need to do and what i don't need to do and thus don't do those stuff. ok, I got to go now. have to study.
tata!
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Lounge 5/9/2005...1.26PM
"I Turn Everything Over" by Switchfoot
Monday found me on my knees again
Breathing you in
To blur the lines that mark where I begin
And where you end
No use in trying to pretend
Come take me again
Cause rumor has it I'm not who I've been
Come define me
What can we do
If the rumors are true?
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
There's nothing left of me to defend
I turn everything over
I turn myself in
The evidence convicts the hollow man
After looking inside
To my dismay I find I'm just one of them
Cause I'm an already but not yet resurrected fallen man
Come break this limbo
And I know you know just who I've been
Come define me
Rumor has it you love me
And the rumors are true
I turn everything over
I'm handing everything to you Oh God.
Forgive me for all my wrongs and past.
Love me not because I demand it, but love me because of your mercy.
You're so full of grace and mercy my Lord.
Thank you for everything.
Let your will be done and not mine.
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Dream 4/9/2005...8.57PM
Can't stop dreaming
^ a deviant art from a fellow deviant. really nice shot and all. love the reflection and the girl. basically love the clouds, that signifies dreaming. for me that is. it's under conceptual. so i wonder...wonder...
how does one stop deluding oneself from the flaws of this world? do you think this person should even be on earth? not facing reality. don't want to face reality. there's a difference between already knowing the flaws of the world thus coping with it and know the flaws are there, but just keep on pretending it isn't there. which is better?
"Smoke And Mirrors" by Skye Sweetnam
For someone so young and naive
Hard to know what to believe
Still I thought I tried for a while
Turning round and giving up is not my style
On my own on my own way
Bottled up is where my fears go, my fears go
I will never show my fear
They'll tear me up until my tears show, my tears show
Smoke and mirrors
You must try hard, don't give in
Keep it up and you win
Don't let them know they get to you
Put on a brave face and you'll get through
On your own, on your own way
Bottled up is where your fears go, your fears go
You will never show your fear
They'll tear you up until your tears show, your tears show
Smoke and mirrors
This journey of ours never ends
We will always pretend
Fighting not to let them win
And they're falling into our illusion
On our own on our own way
Bottled up is where out fears go, our fears go
We will never show our fear
They'll tear us up until our tears show, our tears show
Smoke and mirrors
Its about smoke and mirrors
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Amazing! 3/9/2005...9.35PM
I had the most amazing experience ever. That is to watch a movie alone with nobody. The cinema house only had less than 10 of peeps, including me. So I felt like the whole area belonged to me. Yaya papaya only...
I watched charlie and the chocolate factory alone. since most of my friends all re-doing their chinese papers, so they had to do their chinese prelims, which was yesterday. and i was left out early as we finished out EL paper 1 prelims. So nothing to do, then gotta wait till 4.30pm for a.maths, so got to find something to do right? so go buy tickets for charlie and chocolate factory. that was the 12pm ticket. felt so free!!!! nobody to bother you, little noise made from audience. so cool!!!! so fun!!! must do that a few more times too...lolx...
Then going back yesterday saw Don. Today that person sms-ed me. Kinda coincidential. But oh well, all things are right now. At least I feel closure. Hmm..."closure" a term psychologists would love to use... hahahahahaha...so see you guys. going MIA for 3 weeks starting from Monday. tata!
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Can't help it 1/09/2005...3.29PM
"The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most" by Dashboard Confessional
Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself
And covered with a perfect shell
Such a charming, beautiful exterior
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
Perfect posture, but you're barely scraping by
But you're barely scraping by
This is one time, this is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all...or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you have come to fear the most
Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself
And hidden in the public eye
Such a stellar monument to loneliness
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes<br>
Perfect make-up, but you're barely scraping by
But you're barely scraping by...
Well this is one time, well this is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all...or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you have come to fear the most
And you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all..or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you have come to fear the most
+pa55ion+