1) YESTERDAY'S SOLUTION FOR RACISM: I am yesterday's solution for Racism, the bigotry of racism has now been repackaged into what we now know is Intellectualism. Instead of "correcting" the corruption associated with Racism we have "redirected" it into intellectualism. SAME sin/crime, SAME results, different form of "transportation". Creating our "health and wealth" by creating someone else's "sickness and poverty" is ALWAYS about sin/crime. ALWAYS!

2) CANARY in the Mineshaft: The male homosexual. The male homosexual should be the MOST healthy and wealthy person in the world. Being a man, most likely with physical strength to create wealth and being one without children, one without dependents the wealth he creates and accumulates should make him the MOST healthy and wealthy. All people, regardless of race, religion, intellect, sexual orientation, etc., varies in thier morals and ethics which play a role in thier health and wealth, HOWEVER, this is VERY misleading in that the "health and wealth" one has could have been created by creating the "sickness and poverty" of others, so it's very important to look below the surface. I am a person that likes to ask LOTS of questions, I have found the more "offended" a person is by the questions the MORE likely thier health and wealth was created by creating someone else's sickness and poverty, the more "offended" they are the DEEPER the corruption...the DEEPER the EVIL. A person with an "Education" or high social position, one is AUTOMATICALLY GIVEN the assumption that one is "moral and ethical", otherwise they would not be in thier "position". This is far from the Truth. Corrupt people love POWER, and they MOVE UP others that will protect that POWER, not ones that are moral and ethical. Subtract the like of morals and ethics, the Male homosexuals lack of health and wealth is in large part a reflection of the CORRUPTION of heterosexuality being used to Acquire POWER to Control and Dominate. Heterosexuals are the "hidden" Victims of this corruption, they are just "chess pieces" used to "trump". Acquiring POWER to Control and Dominate is the REAL issue, NOT heterosexuality, heterosexuality is just the "vehicle" used. MOST people are CONFUSED, they think it's about Heterosexuality VR. Homosexuality, it is NOT, it is about POWER. RAPE is about POWER, not Sex, Sex is just the "vehicle" used to ACT OUT the VIOLENCE. Religion is the number one "vehicle" used to ACT out Violence. The argument over Homosexuality is really just a MASK. The REAL FIGHT is over MALE POWER. It is a FIGHT over who and how MALE POWER is used. It is SIN or CRIME against MALES. It is Violence against MALES.

3) GAY MARRIAGE: I do NOT support it. I would like to see the whole institution of marriage abolished. The #1 issue for the supporters Gay Marriage is for the "Financial Protection" it would offer. The dilemma in supporting gay marriage for the "financial protection" is that is adds yet another "tool" that is "power based", we need to move toward dismantling the "tools of power" in human relationships. We would better serve humanity by dismantling the "power structure" associated with the institution of heterosexual marriage, which in MOST societies is used to levy power or "perks and privileges" at the expense of non-married people. While "perks and privileges" will motivate or increase interaction where there was little or none before, most noticeable being in the sexual arena, however, in the long run it has proven to be destructive and radically decreases genuine human interaction, we only need to look at the heterosexual model of marriage being that the divorce rate is 50% and the #1 reason of conflict is over "financial" issues, which most of the time is just a mask of a bigger issue, the "bigger issue" is most of the time sex. We need to learn from the heterosexual model of marriage not copy or mimic it. Having that in mind, one of the #1 issues for the supporters of gay marriage is for the "financial protection" it would offer. In order to have long term resolve, we must be willing to address the many issues that lie below the surface, one of the most important is the financial inequality between people. People that use their money as a source to attract others and others that are attracted by it crates a corrupt form of intimacy, it is a "prey and predator" scenario, both of them being both prey and predator, it destroys, what appears to be intimacy is a mere demonstration in domination on both of their parts. Many people are under the assumption that they bring different things to the "table", therefore, complementing one another, this is false, they both come to the "table" with missing "parts", therefore, the "attraction" is based on what's "missing". they are using one another, not complementing one another, they are capitalizing on each other's "weakness" or "missing parts". Intimacy to be experience at it's truest, purest and soulfully fulfilling only accrues in the absents of the root of power. Power is about domination...it is "anti-life". We often only pay attention to the "wrappings" of power, for instants, racism is a "wrapping" as is homophobia, sexism, social status, job position, etc. When we unwrap these packages, no matter the disguise, religion, racism, republican, democrat or intellectualism, what's inside is the same: the desire to dominate or to control something which is outside of ourselves. The issue of power is not a corrupt thing in of it's self, it's what people do with it that corrupts. I understand that many people are under the assumption that gay marriage would increase there chance of a long term relationship or at least bring more options to the "table", and it may do just that, however, there is much debate over what the quality of theses relationships will be like. We only need to look at the heterosexual model of marriage to know this, given the fact that the number one reason or cause of conflict is over financial matters. Who ever controls the MONEY in a relationship controls the relationship. Given the fact that many supporters of gay marriage is being fueled by the financial aspects, it's interesting to hear people's, especially gay men's opinion on the lack of financial equality in our society. MOST of the gay males I know that are in long term relationships are involved MORE because of financial matters then they are for their sexual desire for one another. MOST men, heterosexual and homosexual use their money or social status to sexually interact and now we are seeing women do the same thing, which reveals higher Truth, Domination or the abuse of power is NOT a "male thing". I respect anyone's right to support "Gay Marriage", I ask that you respect my right to oppose it.

4) "UNNATURAL ACTS": The Heterosexual's Sins Against Humanity; A call to repentance: Homosexuality is the MOST NATURAL kink in the chain of short-circuiting heterosexuality from being the number 1 OLDEST most world wide used "tool" to breed masses of people for no other reason then to CONTROL and DOMINATE. It's the OLDEST corruption of POWER in the world...CONTROL and DOMINATE by NUMBERS, which is the ROOT SIN of heterosexuality, making Homosexuality MORE moral then heterosexuality. Heterosexuality is in a LARGE part USED as a means reproducing as a "fix", "patch", "solution" to societies "ills". It is an ACT of engaging in sexual PLEASURE in an attempt to escape the PAIN of working out "solutions" between us. The homosexual is seen as not being an ACTIVE participant in the "solution process", therefore, he becomes a GREAT scapegoat, after all, he's "part of the problem" instead "part of the solution". The homosexual is hated in MOST cultures NOT because he's homosexual, he's hated because he's not LIKE those that are participating in the "solution process". Therefore, he becomes a Target for being "part of the problem", when in reality he's a MAIN "part of the soultion".

5) GUNS & BIBLES; Tools of Weaponry. MOST people who are members of a church are no different then someone who is a member of a street gang, they are BOTH "GANG MEMBERS", don't let the "appearances" of it fool you, with one appearing "rough" and the other one appearing "meek" is DECEIVING. Many people that are members of street gang have LESS-Corrupt morals and ethics then many church GANG members.

6) Most "educated non-physical" employed people I know or have known, are on welfare "FREE RIDE"....without suffering the stigma. Most of them seem to be under the illusion they invented the "wheel", instead of being just another one of it's "parts". The people who BITCH the Most about what I get for "free" though the welfare system...Produce NOTHING. They are CORRUPT.

7) THE "Str8 Community's" CORRUPT RELATIONSHIP TO THE "Gay Community": The CORRUPTION of the "gay and straight alliance". Talk about PERVERSION. The "relationship" is PERVERTED.

8) DAVID; The life lessons an Autistic classmate thought me; LOVE is Often a "ONE WAY" street....AND it's OK.

9) I'm Only a Man....I don't have Wings. Sorry?

10) THE RESILIENCY OF THE HUMAN SPRIT; We often underestimate the resiliency of the human sprit and will, yet, have mercy on any of us who overestimate.

11) The BULLY in the PULPIT: PULPIT BULLIES Breed RAGE.

12) GAY MALES:

13) THE LUXURY of BEING ABLE to AFFORD BEING OFFENDED: The Cheeping of Human Struggle:

14) WANTED BY EVERYBODY, LOVE BY NOBODY: The Young Gay Male.

15) JEALOUSY: It is the Number 1 expressed Emotion. A jealous person is an emotionally unwell person. Jealousy is an INWARD illness that Most people try to fix/heal Outwardly and in the process create harm and sickness in the rest of us. Many people confused being Angry about Injustices with being Jealous, they are very different. It's critical to know the difference...because MOST people "mask" thier Jealousy thou making claims of injustice.

16) SOMEBODIES & NOBODIES: It is Just as difficult to be a "somebodie" as it is to be a "nobody". Most people that strive to be a "somebodie" do NOT do it because they are a "somebodie' and want to Share thier "abundance", they strive to do so because they are a "NOBODY"....who do NOT like themselves. Most of the time thier "somebodie" status will come at the expense of "nobodies" who do LIKE themselves. Somebodies don't like nobodies BECAUSE they don't LIKE THEMSELVES. Not being liked because of being a "nobody" is the SAME as being liked for being a "somebody"...they are the SAME corruption, just opposite extremes.

17) TITS & DICKS: We glorify one and demonizes the other. I am very interested in how guys view or "relationship" they have with thier dick. If you have not seen "The Vagina Monologues" I invite you to. It was GREAT, listening to women talk about thier Vagina and how they felt and viewed themselves in relation to thier Vagina. As a gay male, I am quite upset and disturbed at how other men FEEL and view thier dick, maybe I could do "The Dick monologues". LOL!!

18) TINKERBELL: My Childhood Nickname, What's in a name?

19) COMPETITION VR. DOMINATION:

20) THE "MY TAXES" SYNDROME: "My Taxes?" Do you mean "OUR Taxes"?

21) LOVE is Not an Emotion, it is a Decision: Chose to LOVE Well. To Love Well AND to Be Loved Well, one must have 3 things....TRUTH, JUSTICE and BEAUTY (Beauty is a reflection and result of Wholesomeness...not a physical characteristic). If Truth, Justice and Beauty are not present in our interactions it is something Other then Love, it is some form of CORRUPTION, it is some form of Evil.Jealousy is the #1 reason people are not ABLE to Love and Be Loved Well. HIV is a disease of the body, Jealousy is a disease of the soul and much more easier to contract then HIV.

22) THE HOMOSEXUAL BIGOT: Yes, it's TRUE! Homosexuals can be BIGOTS too. Most of the unnecessary suffering I have experienced in my adult life is a result of HOMOSEXUALS practicing BIGOTRY. This is true for ALL groups of people, the ones at the bottom are going to pay the highest "cost" for "membership", weather it's a street gang or a church gang. "Membership" does have it's privileges, YET, it also has it's Cost, those cost are MOST of the time SIN, CRIME and DEATH.

23) "CHRISTIANS" TAKE YOUR GOD DAM HANDS OFF MY DICK:

24) LOVE, LOST & ACCEPTANCES: "Remember the ones that win the game, they lose the love they sought to gain".

25) How HIV Negative GAY men Fuel the spread of HIV within the Gay Community: There is a phenomenon that I have come to call "Social Barebacking". The term Barebacking is a term use to describe Gay Males that engage in unprotected anal sex. For me, the term Barebacking has a much broader meaning. Barebacking means to me ANY social interaction without "protection" or risk reduction of Mental, Physical, Sexual or Emotional injuries or harm being caused. MOST Gay HIV Negative men I know practice "Social Barebacking" and by doing so they Indirectly participate in the Sexual ACT of Barebacking and FUEL the spread of HIV. Barebacking Porn is the Number 1 selling porn in the gay community, Yet, it's interesting Many of the gay HIV Negative men would NEVER directly participate in having sex without a condom and MOST of them will even go out of thier way to "condemn" the behavioral while at the same time "support" it by buying barebacking porn. It reminds me a LOT of how minorities or special interest groups actually "feed" on or "scarifies" thier OWN most venerable to "support" thier OWN survival. It also, reminds me how many people will and have the resources to "hire" someone ELSE to do Physical Labor, while they "reap" the benefits " Health and Wealth" without paying the "full cost", thou wear and tear on thier physical body, which results in PAIN. I think the same thing can be said about Gay Men who condemn barebacking while at the same time buy or watch barebacking porn, they enjoy and benefit from the HEAT of the "burning ferno", while not ever getting "burned". The have a "vested interest" in the "Heat", yet, at the same time "Condemn" how that "Heat" is manufactured. The "Church" is the Largest "burning ferno". The "Church" creates it's "heat, life support" by setting OTHERS ablaze.

26) WOMEN: are NOT the "homosexual's best friend"; Many homosexual males and women have this odd, CORRUPT relationship as where they think they "understand each other" and share "issues" they have with thier "men". Females make alliances predominantly on emotions where as males predominantly make alliances on Physicality or physical strength. While the heterosexual female and the homosexual male share in common thier sexual desire of males, that is about the ONLY thing they share. Males are MALES regardless of sexual orientation. Women, females are the LARGEST contributors of homophobia. I have rarely ever been ill treated by heterosexual males in the absents of females, and the times that I have experienced it the instigator most of the time was a "Homosexual homophobe" NOT a "heterosexual homophobe" as he appears. Once again, heterosexual males become the "hidden" victims of this Corruption. White Heterosexuals Males are the number 1 "hidden" Victim in the World, and the lower his intellectual ability and social class, the MORE he falls prey to suffering the blows of the "hidden assault". This "I didn't do anything" attitude of women is them playing innocent when in fact they know good an well the "effect" they cause. Women who are into this "effect" are Anti-Male, and that is WHY it is so UGLY, not because they are homophobic as thier behavior would subject as they often so subtly ask "your not gay like your friend?", creating an instance need for the guy to "prove" he's not gay, which takes the form of verbally or physical assaulting his friend. They are ANTI-MALE. They have contempt for MALENESS. These type of women while they have sex with men, they don't enjoy it, they want to BE the man that is fucking them. It is her INTENTIONS that define it. We suffer or benefit from our INTENTIONS...not just our Actions of behavior. WHITE females produce more PORN then all other females combined. We often hear complaints about how they are "objectified", YET, they don't seem to be able to resist "cashing in" on those very traits.

27) WOMEN: The FASTEST growing population of our prison system. Once perceived as feminine, gentle, nurturing, mothering, the weaker sex, therefore, innocent and the victim, we as a society are starting to acknowledge the fuller scope of what Violence/Crime is. We treat Women who commit Violence/Crime very differently then we treat Men who commit Violence/Crime. It's got to STOP. I fully support stronger and longer sentencing for female offenders. I am not opposed to the death penalty for females. A female that would inflict harm on a person she perceives to be a homosexual male is a VIOLENT person. She is expressing contempt for the person who she perceives she can't manipulate and control with her sexuality, therefore, she has no "use" for them. We need to feel DEEP compassion for the heterosexual men she gets sexually involved with and even DEEPER compassion for the children that is produced. Women's prisons are not growing fast enough for me.

28) WATER: When I turn on a water facet I get instance feelings of "wealth", I feel "Rich", I feel grateful AND I feel sad. I think of all that makes that possible. I am DISTURBED by people who do not feel similar.

29) "SEXUAL PREDATOR" VR. "INTELLECTUAL PREDATOR": DIFFERENCE???? They are BOTH about EXPLOITATION and one is NOT "better" or "worst" then the other. Sexual Exploitation or Intellectual Exploitation they are the SAME. It is a means of Creating "wealth (economic, physical, emotional, spiritual), PLEASURE" by creating someone else's "poverty (economic, physical, emotional, spiritual), PAIN". Exploitation has the SAME RESULTS no matter what "form" it takes. The End Results REVEAL the "ingredients" in the "recipe".

30) THE CHURCH VS. THE BAR: They BOTH are SEXUAL "Hook Up" sites. People at the BAR get drunk off alcohol, while people at the CHURCH get drunk off of theology. Weather it is Alcohol or Theology it is what it is: INTOXICATION, a numbing of the senses. An attempt to escape the PAIN/Message of rejection, one automatically forfeits the PLEASURE/Message of acceptance. I avoid many people who go to church for the same reason I avoid many people that drink alcohol, they are BOTH Drunks. They are BOTH incapable of intimcy.

31) THE ANDREW CUNANAN AND GIANN VERSACE CASE: Andrew Cunanan, a "high class call boy", gunned down Giann Versace a "john" of Andrew's in 1997. I find the case very interesting in that I think it's only a glimps of the "tip of the iceberg" of sexual corruption within the "gay community". It's interesting how all the "indirect participants" of these types of situation PROFIT, while at the same time go unnoticed, unharmed and in many times even receive the "sympathy" of others for being so "close" to "harms way". They get treated as if they "could have been" the "victim", when in Reality they where an indirect ACTIVE Perpetrator. Some words of wisdom for Mr. GIANN VERSACE: "Success can take you where character can not sustain you." Let your blood soaked sidewalk in front of your mansion be a testimony to the whole world of just how corrupt your character was in contrast to your "success". While it is true, Giann Versace was a victim of a crime, he was ALSO the PERPETRATOR. I celebrate your Death and the TRUTH it reveals about MONEY, POWER and SEX. Money and Power will take you far, yet, not near as far as TRUTH will, TRUTH is the ultimate vehicle. Despite all your "success" you died a shameful, disgraceful death. JUSTICE has been Served.

32) PHYSICAL/SEXUAL OBJECTIFYING VR. INTELLECTUAL/MENTAL OBJECTIFYING: Difference? NO! NO! NO! Objectifying is OBJECTIFYING. It is always interesting to me that MOST that are "offended" by the "objectifying" someone physically/sexually are not equally "offended" by objectifying someone intellectually/mentally. I have read that "Hypocrisy is the ONLY thing that makes sin/harm done to self and others possible". This form of Hypocrisy is one of the LARGEST form of Hypocrisy in our society. MEN who do physical LABOR are the MOST objectified people in society.

33) RELIGION: The "Church" is the meeting place of the LARGEST group of "Sex Offenders" in the world. I do NOT go to Church for that reason and never will. The "Church" is a WHORE house. The Church has USED and Focused on society's "ills" as a distraction to conceal the LARGEST ran PROSTITUTION RING in the world. While the "Church" has scapegoat and Focused on homosexual immorality, it has been nothing more than a distraction Used to allow their OWN immorality to run amuck, it's the ultimate "smoke and mirrors". They want to dictate morality, YET, they are the MOST SEXUALLY CORRUPT in the world, isn't it interesting they want to be the ones to "make the rules". While homosexuals are scapegoats used by the church, the heterosexuals are the MOST victimized because the church uses them like a dog breeder uses dogs, for PROFIT.

34) ANTI-HOMOSEXUAL; A desperate LAST ditch effort to CONTROL and DOMINATE the "Male" in FeMale. "Anti-Homosexuality" is just the "transportation" the SIN/CRIME of CONTROL and DOMINATION is transported in.

35) THE "WEALTH" WITHIN MY "POVERTY":

36) I LIVE IN THE GREATEST COUNTRY IN THE WORLD: It's NOT "Haven on Earth", it's just the best "waiting room". Most of us do a LOT of bitching about the "waiting", there is NOTHING NO ONE can do about the "waiting", no one can "fix" it, no politician, no religious leader, etc.. All addictions are a result of refusing to surrender to that reality. People that are the most fulfilled are the ones who spend their time improving the "comfort" of the "waiting room".

37) DECENCY; The MOST indecent among us wearing the MASK of "Decency":

38) AIDS; I would whether be DEAD from AIDS with TRUTH, Beauty (Not just a physical characteristic, it's the PRESENTS of Wholesomeness) and JUSTICE as my partners, then to be ALIVE with LIES, Ugliness and INJUSTICE as partners. Sexual Corruption is the LARGEST form of Corruption in the world. MOST sexual "relationships" are Rooted in some form of corruption, meaning what brings them "together" sexually is something OTHER then Truth, Beauty and Justice. There are many ways societies bring people together Sexually, Religion is the number one, education or social economic is number two. Religions and Education commit the ultimate sexual abuse of humanity. They all have a common link that ties them together, they all try to DEFY, CONTROL, DOMINATE and when that fails, CORRUPT the Truth, Beauty and Justice of another. For no other reason then it is the "human condition" to not be ABLE to stand in the presents of someone's "Health and Wealth" without being reminded of our OWN "Sickness and Poverty". Not having the Ability to embrace, appreciate and celebrate someone else's "Health and Wealth" keeps us "Sick and Impoverished", mentally, physically, spiritually and sexually.

39) RACISM: It is NOT about RACE; it is about POWER. Racism is the "transportation" the Corruption of POWER travels in. ALL Corruptions of POWER travel in a form of "transportation", religion is the MOST used form of "transportation" in the world.

40) GENERATION X, The LARGEST generation in the history of humanity raised on "welfare benefits". Creating wealth for the few by creating poverty for the masses. Creating an illusion of "Health and Wealth" at the REAL REALITY of "Sickness and Poverty".

41) MALES, SEX, LABOR & WELFARE: For the LOVE of MEN. While Females are MOSTLY exploited for their sexuality, MALES are MOSTLY exploited for their physical LABOR. MEN pay MORE into the "welfare system" than anyone, YET, they benefit from it the least. CORRUPTION. MEN are HUMAN ...TOO...it's fucking TIME we start TREATING them like it.

42) WORK, WAR & BREEDING: MEN used like "Toysoldiers". WE, ALL, are NOTHING more then ToySoldiers. Played like fucking chess pieces on a board game. This is why we should Grieve. This is the ONLY reason we should GRIEVE.

43) FUCK or FIGHT: Men FUCK or FIGHT in each others company. Men who FUCK each other are LESS "homosexual" then Men who FIGHT each other. A Homosexual military is the MOST POWERFUL military FORCE in the World. Heterosexual men FIGHT and KILL to be able to FUCK, where as Homosexual men FIGHT and KILL to be able to LOVE. Same FIGHTING and KILLING, different intent and motivation. One is Moral and one is NOT.

44) INTELLECTUALISM: It is NOT about Intelligence; it is about POWER. Intellectualism is the "transportation" the Corruption of POWER travels in. ALL Corruptions of POWER travel in a form of "transportation", religion is the MOST used form of "transportation" in the world.

45) RELATIONSHIPS: There is no issue that generates more conflict in the world then our relationship to one another. ALL of the worlds problems are a result of human beings trying to dominate and control other human beings. While the method varies, the intent and desire remains the same, to dominate and control, it takes on many disguises: racism, sexism, homophobia, religion (90% of religion is rationalized oppression), intellectualism, republican, democrat, etc.. We live in a world that perpetrates, exploits and capitalizes off of our confusion, it sabotages our deepest desire: to experience genuine intimacy. Genuine intimacy requires surrendering: to yield to the power of another, to give up under compulsion. All addictions, drugs, alcohol, sex, religion, status, etc., are all about refusing to yield to the power of another, to surrender to a power greater then one's self. All sin or wrong doing begins with the DESIRE to dominate. People who dominate are corrupt or confused, they are in a state of fear, after all, we only desire to control or dominate where we PERCEIVE a threat. Cancer is a disease of the body, the desire to control or dominate others is a disease of the soul, it is an "affliction". What we do with other people's afflictions are a reflection of our own character, NOT theirs. All oppression is rationalized. So, if we want to experience the greatest freedom on earth, which is freedom from corruption, we need to be actively liberating the oppressed. Deciding who the oppressed are takes a lot of research and deep soul searching. The picture of "the oppressed" that we are SOLD is the poor, the hungry, the sick and the homeless, being oppressed is NOT just a physical state of being, it's the condition of the soul. Some of the wealthiest people on earth experience oppression, while it does not mask it's self in the same way that the poor, the hungry and the homeless experience: oppression is oppression: unjust or cruel exercise of power or authority or the exploitation of an "energy source". For our most intimate relationships to be at their best we must have "correct relations" with the masses, from the top of society to the bottom. Our most intimate relationship is a reflection to our relationship to the world as a whole.

46) THE "BIG EXCHANGE": We have exchanged the corruption of Racism for the corruption of Intellectualism. We still have the "pyramid", just the "blocks" that are use to build it is different. Racism is about having a Corrupt "relationship" to someone based on Race. Intellectualism is about having a Corrupt "relationship" to someone based on Intellect. Babyboomer's solution for Racism was Intellectualism, they traded one way of creating a slave ( slave = creating wealth, by creating someone's poverty), which was based on Race, for another way of creating a slave, which is now based on Intellect. "Evil can be displaced but never eradicated, as all solutions breed new problems. Yet it is necessary to keep struggling toward solution." The "educated, non-physical" trade "uneducated, physical laborer" today like White people use to trade Blacks. It is just as UGLY and despicable.

47) I.Q. 92, DICK 8": Intellectual Exploitation is PERVERTED: Our world is FOCUSED on the Perverseness, corruptions of Sexuality at the expense of ignoring the Perverseness and Corruptions of Intellectualism. While being a student of the public school system and a participant of the Special Education program I had a few different I.Q. test. My I.Q. tested at 92, the low end of "normal". The average person has an I.Q. 100. According to statistics to acquire a college education one's I.Q. must be at least 110. I do have an BIG 8" and THICK dick, HOWEVER, I had Nothing to do with the fact that I have a BIG dick no more then someone does with the fact they have "BIG" intellectual ability...it was a genetic GIVEN, to promote otherwise is a corruption. Going around bragging about how BIG my dick is, is tacky, perverted......so is going around bragging about how "BIG" someone's intellectual ability or "social status" is. I call it "social POWER fucking" or "social mounting", in biblical terms it could be called "lording over others". Why do we FOCUS on the Sexual form of "lording over others" at the expense of ignoring all other ways people "lord over others"? If people DOMINATED with thier Physical Strength like some people DOMINATE with thier Intellectual Strength we would put them in JAIL for ASSAULT. We punish those who Physically Assault, while we reward those who Intellectually Assault. ASSAULT is ASSAULT.

48) LIKE THE CHILD MOLESTER, the "intellectualist" grooms it's prey: What do I mean by "intellectualist"? I mean someone who creates their wealth ( economic, mental, physical or spiritual) by creating someone else's poverty. Religion and Education are the two Largest methods used to create wealth by creating someone else's poverty. Religions do it thou "condemnation" based on "morality", moving up the ones deemed moral and moving down those deemed immoral, where as Education does it thou "condemnation" based on "intellect", moving up the ones deemed intelligence and moving down the ones deemed unintelligence, creating those that are "worthy" and those who are "unworthy", the "unworthy" then pay the "cost" of being alive for the "worthy". It is not ironic that these two appearing different Institutions are often at odds with each other, when in fact they are fighting over the "Dominion" of the same thing, ...who to "condemn", who to "enslave", who to "spend". They BOTH are the SAME force, the only difference is the "mask" they wear. They BOTH are fighting over how to "plant", "grow", "harvest" and "spend" human energy. A child molester "plants", "grows", "harvest" and "spends" human energy, so do "religious" leaders and "educators", they are a type of "molester". They all three are about "Stealing" energy. They all three are about sin, crime and death. If people Dominated with their Physical Strength like some people Dominate with their Intellectual Strength we would put them in JAIL for assault. The Fact that we don't is the GREATEST Hypocrisy of OUR society, we PUNISH one group of people for thier ACTS of Domination while REWARDING another group for thier ACTS of Domination. It's is the RESULTS that DEFINE what "Acts of Domination" is.

49) TRUTH; The Universal Language: TRUTH has Wings; Truth is the MOST POWERFUL FORCE in the Universe. When I interact with people I constantly ask myself "is this person seeking truth or are they seeking to conceal?" Most people do not all out Lie, they Lie by trying to keep the Truth from being revealed, it's a lie by "default". It's called "sin by omission" for a reason. Not seeking the Truth in matters is about having a Corrupt "relationship" to POWER, it is the Abuse of POWER in some form. I like to watch people that have a corrupt relationship to Power, having a corrupt relationship to POWER is the same as having a corrupt relationship to Truth. I take what I have witness and then look at my OWN "moral compass".

50) SPENT: "what is light has to endure burning". I am on FIRE.

51) FREEDOM IS NOT FREE: We all are a "slave" of some form or another and it is necessary to be a "slave" in order to sustain life. Freedom is NOT created by escaping someone else's enslavement of us, it's only created by liberating others from the benefit we get from their enslavement. Many people have benefited from my "enslavement" based on my lack of "education" resulting in me becoming a "slave" by default thou physical labor. I too, have benefited from other people's enslavement. We owe each other an apology, I will start with me: I am sorry.

52) MY AUTISTIC TRAITS:

53) TRUTH, BEAUTY & JUSTICE; The ONLY things wroth having:

54) I MAKE NO ALLIANCES to Personalities, not with groups or individuals: I DO make ALLIANCES to the SOUL of TRUTH, BEAUTY and JUSTICE. If you don't feel close to me or loved by me, you need to evaluate your agenda, NOT mine.

55) DOMINATION; The root cause of ALL UNNECESSARY human suffering:

56) HIDING BEHIND THE COAT-TAIL OF GOD; The corruption of Religion: Most people join (make alliances in an ATTEMPT to acquire POWER over others) a religion for the SAME reason that Democrats join the democratic party or the Republicans join the republican party or kkk members join the Klan or gain members join a gain....POWER by association. Gain members and religious people are the same to me....they both join their "group" for the POWER that it stands for. They BOTH are Gain Members, they BOTH are about VIOLENCE. They BOTH use "tools" to commit thier VIOLENCE. They BOTH Justify thier VIOLENCE. Street Gain Members that carry guns are no different then Church Gain Members that carry Bibles. Guns Or Bibles, they BOTH are "tools" of Weaponry. Weapons are what they are: WEAPONS. The BIBLE is the MOST used weapon in the World. I am no more afraid of Street Gain Members then I am Church Gain Members, they are BOTH potentially Violent, while thier "appearances" looks different, one looking "rough" while the other looking "meek" is DECEIVING. The fact one is a member of these type groups is an admission of how POWERLESS they FEEL. These type groups thrive by keeping it's "members" in a state of FEAR. Religions are the Largest offender of all. Most religions use FEAR to keep control and grow it's membership just like any other "fear based" group, after all, "you don't want to go to hell, do you?". They all have a "dominate or be dominated" approach to life. Fear is a dis-ease of the soul. The only conversation most "Christians" want to have with me is am I a "practicing homosexual". I like to respond by saying "no, not at the moment, I usually have my cloths off". Humor, I find it the best way to be in someone's presents who is fueled by fear. I feel deep sorrow when I come across someone who wants to "share" their fear which is warped in a nice pretty box called "God". They have been "indoctrinated" into a "gain" and now they have been sent out to "recruit" others, their membership hangs in the balance, for their "leader" depends on the "reinforcement" that will come from a person "recruiting" others to join "God's" army. On Sunday more people then any other day are "raped", raped with theology, raped with fear and they walk away not even knowing what happen or why they feel so "ugly". Most religions, just like gains, are in the "business" of Teaching others how to Sin. Sin defines the perpetrator. Sin starts with the DESIRE to Dominate others, weather it done thou religion, political party or a gain, it's all the same: SIN. These groups all run on the same fuel: Bigotry and Jealousy. I am not anti-education or anti-religion..I am ANTI abuse of power and these two institutions are magnets for people who have power issues. Where as religion practices Domination based on "morality" and education practices Domination based on "intellect".

57) REJECTION; A gift in disguise: When rejection is received properly, liberation is a result, when it's not received properly, pain is a result.

58) OCCUPATION/JOB/STATUS:

: 59) YESTERDAY'S BITCH IS TODAY'S BASTARD:

60) MENTAL ILLNESS/Bipolar: My "Chemical Imbalance": November of 1986 I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder by Dr. David L. Tyler, which is a psychiatrist located in Dallas, TX.. I was 18 years old. And so this is where my "chemical imbalance" begins. So now I was not only a person with a learning disability, I was also a person with a severe "mental illness". I was told that I had a "chemical imbalance", that my brain chemicals where not "right" and it was treatable with medication. I was placed on a few different drugs, I was told they would have to see which one work best for me. While on theses drugs I was a freak show for all to see, for I now show ALL the signs of "bipolar disorder". A while back I looked up the drugs and their side effects that I was on. What I found was upsetting and very disturbing. First I was put on the drug Lithium for a couple of months, which did not seem to help. Then I was placed on the drug Norpramin for a short time, from 1-14-1987 to 2-18-1987, which the MOST common side effects are, "sedation, disorientation, confusion and hallucinations." Then from 3-6-87 to 3-23-87 I was placed on Dalmane, which the MOST common side effects of this drug is "talkativeness, slowness of movement, nervousness and euphoria (feeling high)." I got my information about the drugs from The Pill Book 9th Edition. When I got the records from Boles Home and compare the side effects of the drugs I was on with the behavior that I was demonstrating at the same time, they are very similar. What's interesting to me that the records make no notes on a possible connection of the drug side effects and my behavior. Looking closely at the drug Norpramin, the side effects could cause a person to appear to have a "depressive" state of being, mocking the "depressive" in "manic-depressive" or what is now known as Bipolar. Looking closely at the drug Dalmane, the side effects from this drug could cause a person to appear to have a "manic" state being, mocking the "manic" in "manic-depressive" known as bipolar. So, given that I was given both of the drugs for a brief period of time, back to back, it could mock what is known as bipolar, creating with he first drug a "depressive episode", then with the second drug a "manic episode". So do I have Bipolar disorder or was it "manufactured" and if so, why? Let me be clear about something, I am not saying I do not have "functioning" problems, but what that is exactly I am not real sure.

61) BOLES CHILDREN'S HOME: Why was the sexual abuse I experienced there so damaging? It's the same reason why a lot of "Christians" have a damaging effect on society: Hypocrisy.

62) MY TRIPS TO TERRELL STATE HOSPITAL ( Texas largest State ran Mental Institution): I would end up going to the very place where my Grandmother Lilly Allen worked at the time she was giving me enemas as a child. I was afraid to go there, but at the time I told nobody. I wondered if they would hire my grandmother to work there, would there be more people like her working there now.

63) "HEALTH AND WEALTH", "SICKNESS AND POVERTY": If we do not have the moral and ethical wisdom and strength to stand with someone in their "health and wealth", to be willing to show up in their "sickness and poverty" is a spiritual corruption. It is EVIL.

64) NON-PROFITS: Competitive Suffering Syndrome; HELPING OR HURTING?:

65) SURRENDERING POWER; THE REDEMPTION, WHERE OUR SALVATION LIES:

66) PHYSICAL APPEARANCE: There is probably no greater influence on initial human interaction then physical appearance. We live in a world that glorifies physical attractiveness. I often hear the phrase "sex sells". I have notice that "unattractive" people often don't have a problem or issue with "physically beautiful" people, if they some how have their hand in exploiting and or corrupting them, a way of leveling the playing field I guess and creating a "relationship" that otherwise would not exist. My point could also be applied to the issue of "intelligences", where many of the same forms of corruptions exist between people's interactions and relationship with differences in intelligence. It is very difficult and can be emotionally painful to not be "attractive", especially since it's one of the MOST initial reasons we seek out or avoid interaction with another person. I often hear complaints of the injustice some suffer for not being on the high end of the spectrum of "attractiveness". The complaints are valid. However, the "strength" of the validness can be evaluated by looking at the "moral compass" of the one alleging the complaint. We can NOT with any moral and ethical truth allege injustice and or disadvantages while at the same time unyielding the advantages we have over others, to do so, is hypocritical, and just a mask worn to cover the REAL expression of our complaint: Moral Indignation. MOST complaints of this nature are more about being corruptly attached to the "power association" with the alleged "offending" party. We often hear "dumb blond" and "dumb jock" jokes, ALL of theses jokes root lie in having a corrupt "relationship" to the person's sexuality and it's the "back drop" that sets the stage for the act of Domination, after all, Degradation always comes before Domination. Hypocrisy is the ONLY thing that makes sin or harm done to self and others possible. No One wants to suffer or be harmed by others or their OWN advantages ( We do suffer and are often harmed due to how we use and how people are corruptly attracted to the "power association" of our advantages) In order to cultivate a culture of justice we must not only continuously examine our OWN moral compass, we must yield USING our advantages over others that contributes to their oppression, by doing so, we create "correct relations" to self and others which is a prerequisite for genuine intimacy to take root. ALL other relationships are rooted in barren soil.

67) PRAISE AND BLAME...IT'S ALL THE SAME:

68) STRANGE OBSERVATIONS; The cars my Special Education Teacher's drove: 1) 1st. grade, Helen Goss: Gray 2 door coupe Oldsmobile. 2) 5th. grade, Judy Stedman: Blue 4 door late model Mercedes. 3) 6th. grade teacher in Terrell, Dark Blue small Datsun station wagon. 4) Kay Lee: Blue S-10 short-bed Chevrolet Truck. 5) Nancy Bell: Blue 2 door Buick coupe. 6) Darla Case/Heck: Chevrolet Monte Carlo, Late model Datsun station wagon, Ford Escort Wagon, 7) Linda Russell: Burgundy 4 door late high end model BMW.

69) STRANGE OBSERVATIONS; Listening to the sounds of Shoes:

70) WELFARE/DISABILITY:

71) ENERGY SOURCES; POWER, MONEY, SEX:

72) VIOLENCE: I was often sent the message that there was a "BIG BAD MEAN MONSTER" out in the world that was going to "get me". Ironically, I have NOT found many "BIG BAD MEAN MONSTERS" in the world, most of them seem to be in my OWN family. MOST of the Violence we will ever experience comes from WITHIN OUR OWN family, NOT outside of it.

73) WHO AM I?: I am Messenger, Liberator, Truth Seeker: I am a ToySoldier.

74) SOUNDS; The sound of a quarrel traveling across a telephone wire. The sound of "shut-out", slamming of doors:

75) SMELLS; The Smell of malted Crayons:

76) WHY i HAVE NEVER HAD A RELATIONSHIP:

77) THE JELLY BEAN JAR, REWARD & PUNISHMENT; THE ART AND evil OF MANIPULATION: We are not only what we Buy, we are what we Sell as well.

78) MY "HOMOSEXUAL LIFESTYLE":

79) SEX: It's the MOST exploited "energy source", from religions to the porn industry, while the method is different the goal is the same, to capitalize off our most primal desire: Sex. They BOTH are corrupt and the one wearing the halo is MORE corrupt then the one not wearing one. The porn industry does not deny or counsel the fact they sell sex, where as religions do. Religions market themselves as polar opposite of the porn industry, they are NOT, they are Competitors. The porn industry and religions are BOTH in the business of packaging and selling intimacy/sex. Intimacy/sex can NOT be packaged and sold and Remain genuine. The "Church" is the LARGEST prostitution ring in the world. People are to the "Chruch" what the puppy mill is to a dog breeder, it's "bread and butter". There is NOTHING "pro-life" about it, it's "pro-POWER" thou breeding for numbers.

80) GYM RAT; BODY, MIND AND SOUL:

81) The FAG-BASHER in the SKY:

82) THE "WHITE HETEROSEXAUL MALE"; THE MYTH OF POWER:

83) WHO TOOK GOD HOSTAGE?:

84) TOYSOLDIER; my Gay.com screen name: Online Chatting, What it's taught me:

85) "RANKISM": The new face of an old problem: POWER.

86) SPECIAL EDUCATION, from a former student's perspective:

87) MY "SEX AD'S" ONLINE; WHAT THEY TAUGHT ME:

88) SHOW AND TELL; Rocket Man: It's 1976, I am in the 1st grade and it's Friday afternoon, time for "Show and Tell". As we gather around the table, I would watch Greg Shelton go take his latest model rocket off the shelf to bring over to the table. Most of the other boys would bring their favorite Hot Wheel, while the girls would bring some doll, however, most the girls like to "tell" more then "show". I would watch the boys as they would boosts and brag about how and why their Hot Wheel was "better" then every one else's. They turned show and tell into some kind of contest. Then it was Greg Shelton's turn. Greg was not their to boost or brag or compete in any way, he was there to share his dream. Greg's dream was to become an astronaut. I loved to listen and watch Greg as he would tell us about his model rocket. As Greg stood there telling us about the rocket, naming it's parts and there function, he spoke words that most of us did not know much let could pronounce. He stood there so engulf in his presentation and in his dream, he had no vested interest in the fact that he was the "best and brightest" of us all. To the "Greg Shelton's" of our world, I salute you.

89) WORKING OTHERS, is NOT work, it's Stealing. The corruption of the "non-physical laborer". Not having an "education" is NOT a reason to work (physical labor). Having an "education" is not a reason NOT to work (physical labor). Although the "educated" want us to "buy" that we should work FOR them, produce FOR them, die FOR them. We are Sold that "education" is the "key" or "ticket" to a better quality of life. The average person's IQ is 100. According to statistics to acquire a college degree one must have at least an IQ of 110, making MOST of US working, doing physical labor, by Default. Bigotry comes in many forms. Intellectualism is currently the LARGEST form of bigotry ACTIVELY and AGGRESSIVELY practice. MOST of the sexual corruption that I have experienced in my adult life can be attributed to the bigotry of intellectualism.

90) IN MY 20's: I, like most people, was on the dating scene in search for that special someone, well kind of, I know that's what I was supposed to be doing but I never was. I met a few guys that I would have like to spent more time with, but I NEVER met anyone that I could say I would want to spend the rest of my life with. People seem to be looking for "the one", I never felt there was such a person. Being that I was young and relatively attractive ( tall, blue eyes, nice built, and a BIG...well..you know.) finding people to go out with was not a problem, finding someone that wanted to go out with me more then once was, after they got to know some of the details of my life...job instability, bipolar, physically injuries from work, on and off workman's compsation, etc.. I did not EVER tell or send the message to anyone that they should be willing to accept me "as is", I felt it very unfair and wrong to do so. I was told and sent the message from MOST people I had sex with they where looking for someone of more "equal social status" and I believed them, I did not have the awareness to question otherwise and I could see and understand their point, after all, I tried to pursue the same thing only I did not make the "cut", I flunked out of college and went to work in a factory with the rest of the "low achievers". So I understood and accepted that my "educated, high income, NON-physical labor" peers had "earned their place", they had worked hard getting an education to land a nice job which leads to a nice place to live, which leads to a nice house to live in, with a nice car to drive and the "cherry" to top everything off with is a nice relationship, one that "complements" everything else. Now, I never found anyone that had any problem with having sex with me despite the details of my life..not being quite their "equal", just that they where not interested in a deeper involvement, which would consist of anything other the sex. I was told sometimes, only by the bold, the brave and the honest, that the reason that they where not interested in me was because we where not on the same "level", what they where referring to is income and education or what is known as "status". I accepted and participated in this corrupted form of intimacy and for years convinced myself that it was something that it was not. Sometimes I was told "if you see me out, play like we don't know one another", unknowing to me at the time, this was to preserve the social status of the other person. Today, at the age of 38 years old, I look around at some of the guys who said or implied they where looking for some one more "equal" and they have not found them, after 15 years they have not found them? Did they lie to me? Did they lie to themsevele? Or is the truth, they prefer to have sex with their "unequal" peers? Or is the truth, they can't find someone that is their "equal" and sexually attractive in the same "package"? When I received disability, my "relationship" to other people changed, most profoundly noticeable to me was the "relationship" to my peers that I tended to be sexually involved with. When I was ask what I do for a living and I revealed that I was on disability it changed the whole direction of the interaction and for the FIRST time I was becoming aware that the person only wanted sex and all the other stuff they said was just a way of getting there. I became an angrier person. I was NOT upset about being hit on for sex, I was upset by the deception, the lies, the fact that most of the guys that where hitting on me, claim they did not want to be "used or abuse" for their "social status" that of which they have worked so hard to acquire, YET, they where hitting on me for my "social power" my "attractiveness" and "using and abusing" by their OWN definition of the term "using, abusing or being taken advantaged of", they where treating me exactly how they resent being treated, they had BECOME the person they put so much effort in barricading themselves against. If someone would have told me they just wanted to have sex with me, if I was attracted to them I would have said ok. However, most of the time that was not the case, I was "groomed", they acted as if they had a more deeper interest in me then just sex, and I believed them, I had no reason not to. I was nearly always asked by someone approaching me for sex "what do you do?", what they where asking was what I do for a living. I thought at the time it was just a simple question to get to know me, for most people where "embracing" of me, up until the sex they where seeking was over, at that time, I would be "briefed" on what they where looking for in a "long term partner", it was their way of telling me how I was NOT that person, after all, they had already gather a lot of information back at the bar or where ever we met, no matter how "nice" they tried to phrase it, it felt as if they where shooting the information thou an automatic machine gun, information that I "gave" them, I gave them the very "bullets" they shot me with. however, the truth is most of the time it was NOT "just a simple question", it was a way of "sizing" my social power or my "rank" in society, I call it "social power fucking", when a person is asking about "positions" for no other reason then to "size" who and how much "power" someone has or doesn't have, and then make their decisions on who and how to interact with them based on their "power" they have or don't have. Now, let me be very clear, I am NOT saying I was victimized by people who had more social status, I am saying, that we ALL are highly potential victims when there is differences, the wider the gap the higher the potential, REGARDLESS, of which end of the spectrum we are on, it is the "gap" that sets up the potential. I do NOT believe anyone that I was sexually involved with set out to harm me in any way, emotionally, physically or spiritually, even my grandparents ( my mother's parents) who sexually abused me as a child and Mr. Bartley at Boles Children's Home where I live as a teenager or the guy that I contracted HIV from in 1999. I liking it to a "faulty traffic signal light" within each of us. I view religions and political groups the same way, they want to have their OWN "traffic signal light" installed at a busy intersection, where we "cross paths". I meet a lot of guys for potineal sexual involment, 99% of them I do not have sex with. Why, because even thou I have a "green light", there's is "RED", they are not paying attention, they are to busy looking at how "nice" my "car" is. Just because we have a "green light" does not make it ok to hit the ones running the "red light", it makes for a BIG MESS. I often listen to compliance from my "educated high income non-physical laborer" peers about how "shallow" some guys are with the way they use their "attractiveness"....and I was so busy understanding their point of view that I was not paying attention to how "shallow" they where with regard to their social "position". If you don't like the reflection in the mirror...STOP looking in it. If you want a boyfriend...BECOME one. A boyfriend is NOT someone we find, he's NOT someone we seek out, he's NOT someone we apply for, he's NOT someone we win in a contest, he's NOT someone we talk into loving us....he is someone we ...BECOME.