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I'm not blaming to my God
Salam(Hi)
Was the last 2 weeks to be recorded, I was
so upset and lost the way.... However! Right now am feel ok!
=) Things were back again the way were I like to travel
though.... But still one thing is missing as forever.... A
dream which I seen as far as so long....
Last email which I had sent to ma' every friend, I reprint
here:
Problems just tumbled about me, and
heavier came each task.
Hmmmm.... "Why doesn't God help me? I wondered.., He answered,
'You didn't ask' (maybe) haaa Haa Ha.. ok ok God, My
ALLAH! am gonna ask.. make my and my friends wish true...
Ameen.
I've been trying to overcome the mental blocks I've got... GOD
loved us, then why he didn't respond to all their please?
Haaa... Wish this time ma' Pray work! Ameen(Insha'Allah - if
GOD wills)
Friends! here am gonna ask you, will you please Pray for me in
Religious Center'? ^_^ Haaaaa.... am in somekinda
problem... all I need is PRAY.... will you do it for me? both
right now and when you go to Religious Center! ^_^ Please your
PRAY is more than a HELP for Me! :)
However, STiLL - Hot summer streets and the pavements are
burning, I sit around. Trying to smile, but the air is so
heavy and dry. Strange voices are saying (ah, what did they
say?) Things I can't understand, It's too close to comfort,
this heat has got right out of hand... It's a cruel CRUEL
summer... Leaving me here on my own...
The city is crowded, my friends are waiting for me and I'm on
my own... Hmm.. not fair... It's too hot to handle, so I gotta
get up and go, and go.
In reply I've got lots of emails from my
friends and a short messages via ZonkBoard(Message Board) on
my site... In most replies, Things were going other way. Most
of ma' friends think that, am blaming to my God!! However! I
clear that, I didn't blaming to God for all this. I knew
problems are also the part of the life, always have and always
will.
They look at something from a different angle. Let me tell, I
likes to share problems and happiness, wish for goods and help
when things are bad. So I did in last email, am sad and around
in problems. So I emailed to ma all friends for Pray. Coz I
wanna be open book, which easy to read. It means so much to me
to sharing stuff. Most of my friends, share their problems and
asking for Pray. So am I do so. It's simply the best idea to
share. however! maybe it's sounds stupid.
Sukriya(thanks) for those who email and support me. About my
problem, hard for me to spell it via webbe... you know,
sometimes we try too hard to please. But we should have let
problem comes naturally and sometimes, we don't know what can
we do? However, that is ok 'cause I knew it's all part of the
mystery.. and I believe this too that, I'm not the first one
which fighting with problems. *Sigh*
A'ha yes, I wanna say thanks for reply and
support to Sis Batool, Sis Nur, Jenny, Alexa Beth, Shehzad,
Linn, Jack, Phill, Ivori, Imran, Rachel, Framlin, Jessie,
Julie, Cecilia, Saba, Evia, Jessica Ann, Maria and Erin...
Always have, Always will be in ma' Prayers Tree!!!!
Surkiya(thanks), so very Sukriya for being a part of my life.
=)
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