I don't like being alone. That all i'm doing lately... is being alone. I really wish i had a freinds here in collge to be alone with. I don't get along with anyone here. Well i get along i just don't really talk to them that much. About the week of school everyone kind of paired off into there little groups. Me? I was left out. You know when you you see kids picking people for there sport team and things like that and there's one kid left out thta no one wants. Well that't me. There are a few others that are going through the same thing in my class but there all leaving in January! So that leave me alone. You don't know how much i dread the teacher saying « you can do this with a partner» I know no one will ever ask me if a want to go with them. They have everything pre determined. I know i'll never had what i had with all my freinds in high school but i would at least like maybe , if it's not to much trouble , one freinds to talk to. Everyone in my class goes out on weekends and no one ever call me. But why should they? I don't need freinds.
Also i've been missing alot or stuff that's been going on with my other freinds. They all have things to do and i don't get told any of it. And i'm not blaming them. I don't want them to take pity on me or anything. I just feel sorry for myself that I've missed out on alot. I reaad there web pages and I read about the stuff they do together and i wish that I could be there. I thought it would get better if i made new freinds here in college but no. I am really starting to dislike college life. I miss everyone so much but no one seems to notice i'm gone. Everything seems to be happening over there but i have to sit here by myself. ( well i'm technicly not by myself while writing this , I'm sitting with Rob) But i still have no freinds. well i'm going to go right now cause i have to study, See ya
p.s. I gave blood yesterday ... Yay for me.. I did that by myself
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