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AHHHHH!!!!
     I don’t know what to do anymore… everyone dislikes everyone and Calvin and i have to sit here and whatch all the this war. And i think it deserves the term war cause it’s the same. I’m going to mention Calvin’s name here and there but i don’t have his consent . So don’t quote him on anything.
     I feel like we are both kids going through a very bitter divorce. We have to wait it out and have no opignion about anything cause we are not there to see everything.
     Before i start i just want to say something , Jess , i love you. Your the best freinds that i have ever had. If it wern’t for you i wouldn’t be freinds with mel , pat , crusty ham , and everyone else. Your the reason they like me. Your put in a good word for me and they accepted me. Now it’s my turn to put on in for you… Jess , she’s a really good hearted person. Not may people have see the side of her that make me smile. And I’ll say i have only see it once or twice. It’s a beautiful place that sometimes might be hard to see but it’s always there. I don’t even know if she sees it anymore. But it’s there waiting for the pain to stop.
     But in some way i think everyone one of you have that place inside of you that is waiting for the pain in life to stop so that it can show it’s self. I really wish everyone can get over there diffrences and look at the person within. Right now i’m where you guys are going to be next year. Let me tell you it’s really hard to do it alone. But most of you people are going to have someone there to share the pain with. Or if your going off by yourself I think it will be nice to have someone to call and talk about there first free days and go through it together. I had to do all this whole college on my own and it’s really hard. When i get home from school it would be nice to talk to someone about my day but there is no one there. You guys still have the chance to make freindships that will last through the ages.
Right now i’m sitting in class by myself on the verge of tears. It’s really sad to see you all like this. I think you need to stop and look at what you have lost from on another. I bet it won’t take you long to find alot of things you like about them. Everyone is looking at what they find annoying about the other. Look at what you like about them.You all have great qualities and have alot in common .
I ‘m never going to forget the summer we had a camp out in Jess’s backyard … do u rememeber that?? No hatred , no tears and the biggers thing , no one being left out , it was just plain fun! I wish we could have that back.
But i don’t think anyone takes me seriously and your probably going to just think this is a pittiful attempt to patch things up.. make of it as you want.. well

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