Life could be better right now. But i've decided not to get myself involed in any of this. I can't change anything. I've tried , nothing works. So i guess my birthday will suck this year. Who's going to come?? Everyone dislikes the other. But  don't care anymore. For one in my life i deicieded to care about something and I make no diffrence. Oh , before i forget i wanted to thank Pat for the advice. I really think he's such a good freinds. I think I take his for granted.I wanted to thank him for being a good freind.      I've decided not to have a birthday party. And i decieded to this before the shit hit the fan. I really don't see the need.  I just don't think it's very impotant to have a one. Plus my parents said i'm alwoed to have one every 3 years.And i had one last year. So i'm just going to sit on my couch and wear a party hat while watching the simpsons. I think it would be cool to celibrate my birthday by myself. I'll buy myself a chocolate chip muffin and put a candle in it and but a  party hat with one of those cool noise makers and welcome the old age of 19.      Well i better go now. I have to do some home work. See ya " Yesterday , all our problems seemed so far away , now it looks as though there here to stay"