Chapter Nineteen

I woke up in a cold sweat. I sank into my seat. Lisa and everyone around me was asleep. I started whimpering and crying softly. Crying for the good times that Brian and I had. Crying because I would never re live them again. No matter now much I wanted it. Brian just wouldn’t understand. I must’ve been crying kind of loudly because Lisa woke up and she was patting my back. She didn’t ask me. She just felt my pain.

As soon as I got back to the dorms I ran for the phones.

“Mom?” I whimpered as she picked up the phone

“Emily!” my mom cried. “You’re back!” she started crying “I was so worried baby…are you ok?”

“Yeah Mom…I think I’m going to come home for awhile ok?” I asked.

“Sure honey, anytime,” my mom said. We hung up.

“Hey Girl…” Gina wrapped me in a hug. I could smell her strong body spray. It made me gag

“Hi,” I said. All my sorority sisters gathered around me. We cried and hugged each other and shared stories about our old ex boyfriends. It really made me feel better. To just laugh with somebody for once. Lisa shared this story about her boyfriend Dan who she had just broken up with last year. She had been with him for 4 years. I had only been with Brian for 2 years. She was so strong. I truly admired her.

“Well girls…I’m out for the next week…gonna go home for awhile,” I said.

They nodded and we soon went to sleep.



Emily’s Parent’s Home:

“Emily! Are you okay?” My dad asked me after we shared the usual hug and kiss.

“I’m ok…” I said

“Have you talked to Brian lately?” my mom asked me

“Mom…we broke up…please don’t mention his name,” I pleaded. My mom nodded. I felt so satisfied about myself. It felt good to be just home for awhile and I was truly happy where I was. I wondered if I could stay longer than a week.

The Next Day:

“Nick!” I cried in surprise as I opened the door to see Nick

He hugged me and laughed “Want to hang out today?” he asked me

I nodded and smiled. I was ready to forget about Brian. Hopefully.

“C’mon…let’s go see a movie,” Nick grabbed my hand and we took off.

After we saw a movie Nick and I went to the beach and just hung out there for the rest of the afternoon. When we got home there was a note from my parents saying they had gone out for awhile.

I laid on my bed. “What now?” I asked as Nick looked around. He had only been there once and I had redecorated it.

Nick fingered a Backstreet Boys poster I had on the wall “That’s a terrible picture of me,” he made a face

I laughed “You look adorable!” I cried. Nick smiled at me and sat down next to me on my bed.

“Emily…you can’t avoid the subject of Brian,” Nick said.

“I can and will,” I said.

“Em…he still loves you…we were talking about you all night,” Nick said

“Then why doesn’t he want to go with me still?” I asked Nick

Nick shrugged. “Our singing just takes too much time yanno?” He asked

I shrugged too. Tears formed in my eyes. I had no idea why. I was so emotional. Nick kissed my tears

“What was that for?” I asked him through my tears

“I wanted to feel your pain and go through it with you,” Nick said. I hugged him. After we let go Nick kissed me on the lips quickly. I kissed him back. He laid me down and we kept kissing. He unbuttoned my shirt and I just kept kissing him. I loved Brian. What was I doing? I loved BRIAN!! STOP DOING THIS EMLY!! I screamed inside my mind.

An Hour Later:

I looked around me. Nick was sleeping next to me. I gasped and put on my shirt

“NICK!!” I screamed

“What?” Nick asked sleepily

“I...cannot...believe..." I said slowly. “What? Was that your first time? Nick asked. I shook my head. How dense could he get?

“Not that…but that was wrong Nick! Oh my gosh…” I got up and put all my clothes on. I froze when I heard my parents come inside the house. Nick dashed into the bathroom to change. He came out in a matter of 5 minutes. Fully dressed. Nick Blonde Carter for you.