Warren had his eye surgery this morning. His 4th. His 2nd serious surgery though. To remove his cataract. The doctor told him it went very well. We'll know more tomorrow after his appointment. It's at 12:30. So I'll let you know.
Also, tomorrow, Austin starts 1st grade! Where has the time gone? He's 6, he's going into first grade. I am in complete shock I think. He's ecstatic about going. He's had a countdown for a month. He's all set though. He has his new backpack, new pencils, crayons, erasers, the works. And it just wouldn't be Austin's going -back- to- school supplies without his monster truck pocket folders! Yes, you read right. We found monster jam monster truck pee-chee's. Goldberg, and Prowler I think is the other one. He's set! He did, originally have a Backstreet Boys pee-chee and a scooby one. The Backstreet Boys one was so "the girls would like him" I think he's moved on from that though, after he found the monster truck ones! I'll be taking him to class in the morning. Austin said he'd like his dad to go, but Warren feels the kids will tease Austin, if Warren shows up with the big metal eye patch and tape on. So it will just be me and Austin. I'll try not to cry. Wish me luck.....
I don't know what Ryan will do, Austin is his playmate,and best buddy right now. I guess Ryan will just have to get used to boring ol' mom and Josh.
Speaking of Ryan, he's learning a new word (or more) a day. He's getting more brave about trying new words. I love it. I love to hear him finally say CLEAR words. He's going to knock the socks off the family next time we see them. He still does his foreign language, but he has quite a few words and sentences in there.
Josh, I swear, is never going to really walk. His little stunt in July when family was here, was just him showing off. He refuses to walk. He will stand unassisted for days, keeping his balance without holding on, all that, but when you try to get him to walk towards you, he gets down and crawls. Oh well, I know sooner or later he HAS to walk..... right?
I have been doing some thinking. Someone close to the family (Traci and Ben Bales) have been through a lot of horrible times. The loss of their child Tyler, who passed away. And now, most recently, a miscarriage. I am not one to question God, or his ways. But in cases like this, it's tough for me not to ask WHY!? It isn't like they don't deserve something good, it isn't that they're terrible people who don't deserve miracles. They DO need a miracle and they are the most deserving people I know. I look at the 3 faces of my miracles, and even on the worst day with them, I know how truly blessed I am. What a true gift. I wouldn't trade them for anything, even on the bad days. I feel that Traci and Ben deserve to have a baby. I hope they try again, and I hope it's successful. And I hope and I do pray, every day, that they have a healthy happy baby very soon.
I was talking with a friend about surrogacy. About whether she and I could ever BE a surrogate for another couple. Until this last loss for Traci and Ben, I swore I never ever could. But now, I look at this situation and think, what if I could carry the baby for them? What if they tried and tried and kept having horrible results, would I offer that to her? I don't know if I would offer it. I think in the back of my mind I would be afraid of the whole thing. Carrying a baby 9 months and handing him/her over to the parents and walking away. But, when I truly think about it, really think seriously about it, I do think I could do it. Yes it would be emotionally hard to hand a baby over I've carried for 9 months, to another couple, but going into it, I'd know and keep in my mind, that the baby is only growing inside me, it isn't mine, and I'm only "babysitting" To hand a baby over to a couple who desperately wanted, deserved and needed a baby, and to see the look on their faces, I think would be the truest gift. I'd have to be close to the parents, have a sense of family with them. I wouldn't do it for just anyone. I know it's kind of a weird subject to discuss, but it is something I have been thinking about. I pray to God that Traci and Ben try again and have success, and get to have the family they deserve and want. Keep them in your daily prayers.
Anyway, I guess this is it for the day. I might add more later, or maybe I won't again until tomorrow.
That best portion of a man's life, his little, nameless, unremembered acts of kindness and love."
- William Wordsworth