Shawn Stout 11/29/00
The fields all shuttered… time was
about to bend…
Oh, I know you thought you had me, when you
Took that first step towards me. You thought that
You knew me well, that I would be untrue
To the roots I’ve been given, straying away from "the me" you knew
And anticipated to kill, like swiping away a little stray gnat.
But alas, I proved you wrong. Once again, dear lady,
You screwed up the premonition. For I found the power
Within, the uneven shades of color, that most would cower
From, fearing them as shadows. But I knew better, feeling higher, un-shady,
When I gazed at you, for the last time for momentary eternity, higher
than a tower.
All the angels gazed on above, knowing a message he would send…
Yes, Destiny, I knew you’d figure out then that I had your number. You see,
It doesn’t take much to realize one’s mistakes, mistaking one’s race for another.
Yes, human I looked, but you should have known better, for the cover
Of me was quite different than inside, the darkness within cradling me, a mother,
In a world full of orphans, that moment was mine to shape fate to be.
And when that supremacy hit, Destiny, your face was the final chapter.
The terror written across as the power grew, the dimensions rise,
My shape, it became more and more true to myself, and even the size
Found the right marks. At that moment, it was then that the final demise
Of you was obvious, for the Dratan within roared on, louder than a raptor.
Lady Fate and Lady Hope watched on, unable to attend…
The killing was swift, brief, and yet somehow sweet. The world’s relief
Filled the air. At last, the monster overcame the tyrant, at last!
And the world’s staged players, the actors, all of us part of the leading cast,
And I took center stage and my bows, the crowd happily roaring the future I amassed.
And it was all in that time the darkness within gave me that final belief.
Yes, I can say I embraced it with fear. The monster unleashed, the last
Anger barrier falling, and the trembling starting. But the joy I feel now
Was worth all the moments, time of essence, my happiness on my brow
As perspiration, as the change came swiftly, and I was left exhausted, worse than a sick cow.
Yes, it was worth finding my darkness within. I truly found who I am;
it had all passed.
I knew it was worth it. I won in the end.
*** My Sincere Thanks to Jessy "Lightyear99" O’Neal for the inspiration. Without it, this poem would have no meaning, and my artistic side would never have shown on this day. November 29, 2000 will live on forever in eminence. ***