"Which of us is deserving?
Look at the human race -
The whole planet - at arms-length.
We don't deserve this place."
'Worthy', Ani DiFranco

You said that you don't deserve to fight in your Gundam, that you are
no longer worthy of the honor. You weren't talking to me when you
said it, not really, but you really made me think.

I've never thought about it that way before. I've always believed
that fighting this war was something that needed to be done and it
might as well be done by me. I've got nothing to lose. I've never
felt honored to be doing this. I've just assumed that it's fate and
I'm along for the ride.

Is there really honor in this war? Is there really honor in any war?
Perhaps you are honorable, with your pure heart and your clear vision
of morality. Perhaps Treize Kushrenada, too, who believes in his
cause so wholeheartedly that he was willing to risk his own death
rather than be party to the corruption that is Romefeller.

I know that I am not honorable. I don't claim to be. I'm a killer.
I'm not proud of it, but that's the way things are. I can see the
strength and determination in your eyes. I wonder what you see in
mine. Catherine sees that I'm just waiting for my turn to die. Do
you? I hope not. I don't want you to see what's in me.

I envy you your sense of purpose. I am not here for honor and duty.
I am not here for vengeance. I am not here because someone told me to
come. I am not here because someone told me to stay away. I am here
for death.

Where is the honor in that? Where is the honor in fighting just
because someone told you to? Where is the honor in fighting out of
sheer rebelliousness? Where is the honor in war?

Perhaps there is honor in avenging those long dead. Perhaps there is
honor in standing up for what you believe. Perhaps there is honor in
protecting the weak.

But where is the honor in death?