Why do I want to spend so much time alone?
A reading using the Chakra Spread
1st chakra: 5 of Hearts
2nd chakra: 5 of Clubs
3rd chakra: 7 of Spades
4th chakra: Jack of Hearts
5th chakra: Ace of Clubs
6th chakra: 9 of Diamonds
7th chakra: King of Clubs
Numerical theme
Six - duties and responsibilities, home and family, transitioning period
Questioner comments: "I have been really isolating myself lately. I don't go out much with friends or on dates. I've been spending a lot of time just reading and studying different subjects. What's going on with me?"
The reading:
Well, the numbers of this reading show your isolation. There are no twos, threes or tens which usually suggest interpersonal relationships. The numbers five, seven and nine are all numbers that relate to solitary pursuits. The two fives in the first two chakras show that your primary energy is geared toward freedom and independence. The number five relates to the desire to break away from others so that you can find yourself and have the freedom to explore the world in your own way. The nine in the 6th chakra suggests that this "primal" five energy is leading you to greater self-reliance and actualization.
There are mostly clubs in this reading suggesting that you are in a state of movement although outwardly it may not appear to be that way. Clubs also relate to business and career concerns , so I wonder if all of your reading and studying is somehow connected to these pursuits. The 6th and 7th chakras shows your perception of yourself and your vision for the future. You see yourself as alone but not lonely and working toward greater financial and emotional security (9 of Diamonds). You are gaining a good deal of wisdom to apply toward reaching your goals and ambitions. You see yourself taking the helm in a leadership role and perhaps this time alone is necessary for you to build your strength and the abilities needed to move forward (King of Clubs).
The Jack of Hearts shows that you are open to romance and dating but the 5 of Hearts in the 1st chakra may be preventing you from taking any action toward a new romance. Instead of feeling a sense of trust and safety in relationships, you may feel loss and disappointment. The 5 of Hearts suggests that you may be stuck or too well-grounded in the memory of some loss or emotional disappointment. There may be a separation for which you are still grieving, or it could be that you feel a sense of isolation in relationships due to past difficulties in them. The 5 of Clubs reiteriates this theme. It reveals that a battle of wills may surface when you deal with others, particularly in the sexual arena or in socializing. The 5 of Clubs shows you may have a combative nature that perceives others as encroaching upon your personal space.
The Ace of Clubs in the 5th chakra shows that you have no trouble taking the initiative and communicating with others. You have the energy and desire to express yourself in a passionate manner. So what's the problem? There is a blockage (7 of Spades) in the 3rd chakra which relates to manifesting your power, will, and self-esteem. The 7 of Spades suggests a lack of spontaneity or a repression of personal power. It suggests you may be retreating or running away from challenges, particularly those in the form of other people. The 7 of Spades is a card of self-deceit and shows that you may be setting "traps" for yourself. Perhaps all the reading and sudying you're doing is just a way for you to escape some of your fears and inhibitions about relationships and pursuing your goals. Utilize your Jack of Hearts romantic and dreamy side to open yourself up to new relationships and activities.