Should I apply for this editing job?
A reading using the Process-Direction Spread
Ideal: 4 of Hearts
Choice of Action: 8 of Hearts, 8 of Clubs
Underlying Issues: 7 of Spades, 5 of Diamonds, 8 of Spades
No: 6 of Clubs
Yes: 10 of Diamonds
Outcome: 2 of Spades
Numerical theme
Four - security issues, maintaining status quo, building foundations
Comments: This is a reading I did for myself regarding my application for an editing job. I was thinking that I could use the money to supplement my consultant income. However, I didn't know whether pursuing this job would sidetrack me from other things I should be pursuing that had greater potential. The application process had already consumed several hours of my time.
The reading:
My ideal is security and emotional fulfillment (4 of Hearts). I tend to want things and then when I have them, I get bored and I'm ready to move on. I have a desire to feel full, to be content with what I have and not to get so bored and restless. My choices both relate to movement and progress. One choice shows movement due to lack of emotional satisfaction and outgrowing a situation (8 of Hearts) while the other shows movement due to a desire for activity and to fulfill a goal or ambition.
There is a good deal of blockage related to underlying issues. There may be several fears or desires that I am not facing that impact this decision. The key underlying issue relates to financial security and my concern about not having enough money to survive. The 5 of Diamonds also concerns a state of flux brought on by growth and leaving what is familiar behind. Perhaps the real question is, "Am I ready to move away from a financially secure setting to one that is less secure?" In my consulting work I set my own hours and I'm paid by the hour. This editing position is one where you are paid for an amount of work, not by the hour. If you don't work fast, it won't be profitable.
There may be the possibility that I am evading something or deceiving myself (7 of Spades) in regard to my question. I do hope on some level that getting this job will mean that I will not have to do some of the uncomfortable consulting assignments that I am considering doing because they pay more. The 8 of Spades shows restrictions and limitations that seem external but are actually self-imposed. This again relates to some of my fears and issues of avoidance. I am also wary of depending on my current consultancy for all of my financial support because I am aware of upcoming changes in the firm that might influence its stability.
I should say "no" to victory and success (6 of Clubs). This may be a warning that I may not get the job anyway. The 10 of Diamonds gives me the impression of a secure group or setting, which suggests my current consultancy. Tens also relate to building upon previous success rather than staring over in a new area.
The final card, the 2 of Spades, suggests continued indecision and doubt. It also re-emphasizes that there may be something about this situation that I refuse to see or which is not being presented accurately. The card also advises me to use my emotions to make a decision rather than using pure intellect.