THE BLOG.

I have a headache, and I'm not sleepy. I hope I remember the stuff I'm supposed to bring tomorrow.

I went to confession earlier in the evening. But it was a real quick one cause the preist had to go say mass. heeheehee. I feel lighter, but it didn't feel like much of a confession. But it doesn't help that confessions still scare the shit out of me.

... Frustration: My two bestfriends are taking the course I wanted to take originally. Is this a sign? But is the fact that I didn't pass an even bigger sign?

I'm at Vida's... Wanted to mess with her photoshop, you know, in the hopes that some of the greatness of a CS-IST major would rub off on me, but no, like I keep claiming, I have no artistic qualities what-so-ever. Pfft. Yes, my poor poor frustration.

Yes, to answer your questions, I wake up everyday asking myself whether I should go against my better judgement and listen to the little green monster in me and just transfer to... well you know. I'm a sad confused little girl who doesn't know what she wants... okay, fine, I'm not little and we've already determined that there's just no point in my continuious complaining of being undecided. *sluk sulk sulk*

What is a girl to do?

I guess I will just sit here, drool over the marvelously wonderful and stressful things Vida, Jeff, Micko and Jojo are creating. And live with the imagination that all these things seem like a amazing wonderful things that I could have been capable of. heeheehee.

Yes, I am bitching. But in a perky sort of way. But You people should be used to my whining by now. GAH.

Yes, I hear the lasallites whispering subtley... calling to me. And I can hear the Atenean's yell of protests. Oh yeah, how so UAAP. Ateneans make a fuss, while the lasallites are scheming. pft.

Hey, now that was a funny thought.

Got Sir Aaron's online photo's page from twinnie. Eat your freaking heart out, they're hella good.

*Drools with envy* Yam yam yam. I remembered you.

Oh, I forgot to mention aea, proved otherwise. Some person texted me for a meeting tom for the magazine. heehee. but there's no school tom.

Coup started last night, probably while I was at Vida's.

Pasted from my blurty: It started last night in makati... naturally, the most strategic area in manila. This is how it was last time too, not that I would personally know. Well, for one thing, it is the business center of our country. If you conquer it, a really big chunk of our economy is put in your hands. And field wise, it would be the most strategic place to put the enemy in. Tall buildings + snipers = yeaaaaaah!.

Yes, I am a morbid person.

My sister was actually there last night, Hotel Intercon (yes, exactly the place) for her friend Em's debut. Her friend (If my memory serves me right) Meloy came from the north, she had to go through a check point, where an officer or someone told here that the coup has started. There were soldiers and guns everywhere. My mom got pissed at my sis for not going home as soon as she found out.

Her friend Bea and her barkada slept over there at the hotel, now they're being evacuated.

The acomm sponsord concert of Jimmy Bondoc, Nina and Nyoy Volante was/is tonight. Didn't go.
Had a galian clean up for Glee Club. Didn't go either.
Had a bookmark bonding (did I get this right?) for Litsoc. Didn't show up either.
There was an Search In thing in LSGH. Obviously, I didn't go either.

Instead, I got my legs waxed, a pedicure and a manicure... now my nails are purplish (li should be happy, amidst the rash).

Irresponsible? No, If you didn't notice, all those places were in the north, and obviously I am not there. Besides, who would have been chauffer to my sisters who needed a haircut? I just wished people would ask me first, before appointing me to drive.

... My sisters went out, Mica to a debut in makati, Ria to dinner at a friends... birthdays birthdays birthdays. I'm old, that's all I can say.

Nico calls me up while on my way home from the parlor (which might I add is called, "Booba's Secret"), wanting to go out. I'm not in the mood.

He wanted to drop by here, but I wasn't in the mood to entertain, probably being entertained... or slightly ignored was just what I needed. So we call up Vida, who was apparently doing a project with Micko, Jojo and Jeff. Since the six of us wouldn't fit in her room...

Put it this way, it ended up me going there, and Nico... well, I don't know. I feel really bad about it, but the people here are not feeling to well, and he'd probably be here till like LATE. I'd be too "polite (yeah right) to send him home, so... well, I just didn't want my Mom to be all stressed, and well, stuck in the room.

I still feel real bad about the whole thing, but I got to study there; Knowing how incapable I am of studying while at home. And I got to observe them with their project... something about making a digital telephone. It's like so cool, but like so hard. Micko used flash...

damnit. Am I in the right course? Is this my "calling"? Haha. Probably, I don't think I can do what they were doing... or probably I underestimate myself (right...). I act as if I don't know myself, but then again, pathetically, I don't.

I'm a bad friend.

... Acomm signups for the projects. Woohoo, what have I gotten myself into?! Four orgs, and I'm failing as it is. ah **** that. I doubt I'd be doing anything productive in AEA anyway. It seems like one of those orgs where you sign up, and you wonder what the hell you signed up for, since you are totally uniformed. Hope they prove me wrong.

... I better study!

Yes, I know I keep telling myself this, but I won't ever get anywhere.

Like people keep telling me, I have no discipline. I am irresponsible... and as I came to realize, I have no sense of will or motivation to speak of. I am in short, a bum with no direction... oh more accurately a blind bee flying around in circles, always buzy...but never getting anywhere.

*sigh*

Pathetic.

Anyone would be frustrated.
I hope they don't win! No, I'm not hoping for La Salle to win, it would be really good if they did though, I don't care much who wins... just not Ateneo. Yes, this is a display of extreme opposition to "school spirit", but I can't stand it going to their heads again this year. Cooooooooooome OON! pfft.
Well, we don't see Ateneans denying their stereotype as "arrogant", mainly cause they know they are. Hell, I accept this fact, being a student of the Ateneo. But one can only take so much.
Annoying!

On a lighter note, La Salle won over UST yesterday... not only srs, but the jrs won over UST! Wooohoooo! Yes, finally Zobel is winning something.

On another serious note. I detest these "sex bomb" dancers. Jolog sluts appearing to be wholesome sexy dancers. Okay, I may sound feminist. But what does this display of poor dancing, singing, and exposure of flesh trying to say?

Obviously, I'm trying to find ways out of doing my paper.

I think I have a GA for AEA tomorrow.

I want our cable back!

I'm still kinda depressed.

Anyway, on a lighter note, I had lunch twice today... yeah blew off 188 php of my much needed money. I just had to eat.. do you know that feeling? Can you understand?

Had lunch first with Jan, Li and Jed at Kamerori.
Jan: Damn you for flaunting your blessings, don't you feel sorry for poor deprived me? And people wonder why I stare. Goodness. I had Cold Zarusoba then (yummy), which I screwed up by adding a little too much wasabi.

We picked up some chismis about IT's bestfriend from the next table. haha. But that's another story.

Okay fine, he went up to Jed earlier today, and started talking to him about comics or something. He got weirded out. Anyway, he found out he was a Junior Communications Major, so as I was about to ask what he looked like while he was going on about how weird some of the male comm majors are (hm... paano si?), he goes "his name is _____". And I go... no freaking wonder... he's IT's bestfriend. Hah. See the world makes sense once again.

Went back to school to meet Janelle for our little interview.

After getting lost and shit, we had our interview. What a Jolly bunch.

Janelle, Li, Jan and I decided to have another lunch, since Jan and I were totally craving for more food. Heh. You'd think we were pregnant or something. Woohoo how's that possible? Immaculate Conception? (well in my case anyway). At any rate, we ate in Kamerori again. I had a Katusudon this time. Yes, hunger.

There were these two Ateneo High guys in there, with showed signs of Peter Pan syndrome by sitting on the high chairs. They probably over heard us, cause Janelle overheard them talking about maturity. "uy Immature daw tayo" NO SHIT PARE! Janelle was the one who noticed them, and would it be perfectly ironic (in humorous context) if they were older than her.

I decided to ditch buying my psych book. The stupid reality that I didn't go by the locker while I was still at school to go get my PE handouts for the test tomorrow and my umbrella.

I feel too crappy to do shit.

*looks up* Dude, I know you had fun today... if you were listening in to the shit we were discussing... I'm sure you're laughing your ass off.

Tagui'll be cremated later at 15:00. This'll be the last time I get to see him while on this earth; This'll be my last goodbye... but this'll not be the end. He will still be there for me, like the good friend he always is... and I just wish I could return the favor.
I'll miss you so much Honey. From all our intellectual discussions to the trivial ones, from the parties to the sound trips. *mwah*

I may never see you sketch again, but I'll be looking out for those rainbows you'll be painting.."

Insensitive and emotionless as this may appear... Tagui died 2:30 today due to a heart attack. I guess I really have nothing to say, maybe it hasn't sunk in yet. Just pray for him okay? Thanks.

We had dinner in Saisaki in town.

I was too lazy to update... don't get me wrong, I still am. I'll try to get as far back as I can remember
Tito Chito was Tito Moy's batchmate, and being as he lives in Cebu. He stayed with my Dad's family while he was in school (LSGH). He came here for a vacation with his kids. Ironically, one of his kids is Liana's brother's Classmate. Isn't that a weird sort of 6th degree?

Gaston, Ria and I went on a little commuting adventure trip. From makati to sadel. We looked like idiots running after a jeep to Visayas Ave, in front of QC hall. After which, Tita Carmela took us around Ateneo and UP before having dinner in 'Gayuma'.

There was a herd of Foreign Exchange Students (FES' heeheehee) from San Francisco there, Karen Chan and a couple of other volunteers were taking them around.

I woke up early and went to Katipunan to meet up with Jaymee and Li for a short shopping trip in Galleria. I bought really cheap pants! ;)

Then I met up with Gaston and Ria, and took the MRT again to Makati... and rode an FX back to BF. We took a trike from McDo to Ruins, and bought some DVD's. Pirated of course. hehe.

I hitched a ride with Vida to La Salle, to meet my sister for a shopping trip.

I waited for almost 4 hours... for a short while I was alone, cause Vida had to go to mass. Mica came with Jecah to keep me company for a bit. Eventually Miko came, then Aljo, then Don and then Marc. I miss them soooo much! Oh I saw Lady too. Mcdo taft is the best! Eventually everyone left me... cause they had a lot of shit to do for school (and Marc wanted to play CS I think).

Mica and I got to Glorrieta, and decided to ditch the whole shopping Idea. We watched 'Bruce Almighty' instead (well worth the money!). And I bought myself two headbands from 'Tickles^tm'.

We were picked up by my Mom and my sisters in G4, and then we went off to LSGH for Tito Jun's 1st death anniversary mass.

I saw Sir Bro. Arian, and updated him on a few stuff... as well as being updated by a few as well. I swear, I miss Counterpoint!

Apparently, he takes some theology classes in Ateneo every TTH, in the Jesuit Residence.

After a rude, none goodbye. We went home. :)

Spent the day (afternoon) with Nicolo and Missy. It started off with Nicolo wanting to crash (yey! We've been able to hang out with him a lot more lately), and me being to sick of staying at home suggested we go to town. In which we invited Missy as well.

Bored as hell, we wtched 'Darkness Falls'. As un-me as it is, I shrieked at the beginning... so sue me, nagulat ako e. The movie was fun... special effects were great, as expected. Too lazy to get into that.

While walking around, we bumped into Marc, and decided to hang out at Hagendaz (spell check). We saw Yna (with Kris and Jules), and well... How I miss my circlemates, batchmates, teammates, whatever (yes, I see no coherence whatsoever).

We went to have a snack in Kobachi - and on our way home we bumped into Don and Miko, who went to watch the same movie we did, so Marc went off with them. Missy decided to go home with Noey, who we bumped into earlier. So Nicolo brought me home, hung around the house for a while (as always).

Got some realy good *kilig* news from Vida (or was it wed night?).

Spent another day with Nicolo and Missy. This time we went further... we decided to go to Katipunan, to have some dessert at Gayuma. After much debate (and Tokyo tokyo in Eastwood being closed), we ate lunch in Kublai's. We went through Ateneo, crashed a bit of the Orsem and met Missy's Boy Vince. 'Jason' was offering to lend me his Tin-tin name tag to get in, but I decided against it.

We went to greenhills, Virramall to be precise. We went computer junk shopping... Missy was bored. But she was able to buy herself some 'F4' playing cards; don't worry, we gave her hell for it. Then we headed home.

Went to Tagaytay Highlands for some swimming, the only swimming I had since the year started. Later in the evening Vida and Jeff call me up making me go over to Vida's place, cause they were having a party. So I was picked up by Jeff, Micko, Vida and CJ *ehem ehem*

It was a CS-IST party to be exact. I saw Mela and her "pohky", and Jojo. I met a few other people as well, but never trust my memory. I was known as the 'atenean', yeah... a lot of people kept introducing themselves and asking if I was taking IST... and I'd smile and say I don't study in La Salle. Eventually followed by their knowledge to me being an atenean.

It was hilarious, cause naturally I was really quiet. Some dude (in a green Jersey) announced something that went sorta like: "oi, vida introduce naman your friend, she's so quiet there'... so she introduced me as Tricia the Atenean... obviously it would be followed by mixed reactions. :) Hey, good thing I came from La Salle, otherwise I would have been really lost.

Some dude (who was obviously from Ateneo High), asked me if I knew the Alma Mater of Ateneo na... I shook my head and he gave me this how-could-you-look. It was funny. I stand by the only alma mater for me is La Salle's (sorry ateneo, they had me first and they had me longer).

Yeah... Although I'm no longer a Lasallite, I'll always be a Lasallian (ayan... for the ignorant, or the non-lasallista's: there IS a difference =P).

How did it end? Like a wet t-shirt party. hahaha. I miss La Salle... =P but I'm happy where I am right now.

Went to eat at Mannhann.

Did you know the Auntie Anne's at town (the one by the cinema's) had like little roaches by the lemonade dispenser? la lang.

Freshmen are swarming. Saw lots of familiar Zobel people. Rained a lot.

(Yes, I'm starting to compose like a yearbook write up).

Theo is in Filipino, but teacher is Conyo. Filipino teacher looks scary. heehee.

Met my com teachers, one dresses in nothing but white polo's, black pants and leather shoes (uniform), the other one is a goth [Yeah!]. Psych teacher looks like a preschool teacher. And I thought my PE teacher's name was Ariola (to get what I mean, this is the wrong spelling), apparently it was Iriola.

Dropped by the 'meeting' but was too chicken to stay, so Vins and I waited for Sir Kong outside. Leave details out of this na lang... [I'm to lazy].

My twinnie didn't recognize me! And 'Jason' said my head looked big. pfft.

No Com101, Mass of the Holy Spirit at Gesu. Went insearch of extremely thick Com101 handouts. Projects for psych were announced.. [get into it some other time].

Pe was a free cut. Ugh... and I waited pa.

No school! Hung around here at Sadel all morning, then went to that mall (forgot the name) in Commonwelth and headed off to Katipunan to claim the COM101 handouts. Bumped into Jed in front of starbucks, and a Miriam girl got a flat infront of us... just when my Mom arrived and we had to split. While Mama was at Tita Cara's dropped of something for Tita Sana at Varsity hills, went back to see if the girl was still there (she just left) and went by Alen's to claim my stuff.

Dropped Jed off at Galle, then went to Makati to Anne Klien Sale. It was so traffic and raining so hard, we had dinner at Sugi in Greenbelt. Mama and Tita Aidge bumped into a lot of people they knew.

Got a haircut again.

Went to 'fete de la musique' with Nicolo and Missy. We were late, so I wasn't able to watch MonkeySpank... but was able to cheer for Mayonaisee [woohoo!]. Briefly talked to Francis (he's leaving on July 3, migrating to the states), bumped into Anne, Kaye, Dinggoy, Chirpy, Anton and Owel. It was so fun! I knew a lot of people there this year... unlike the past years. What more if I stayed?

Went to have dinner at podium at around 7 something, there was a bossanova group playing there. 'Aquarela' if I remember correctly. They were good... I was in looooove with the music! [Been listening to the CD's Li lent me.. haaaaaay] Had dinner at Dome.

We went to 'the comfort room'. It was fun, cept Tim Tayag picked on Missy (she looked bored), and LSGH batch '84 had their reunion... they were pretty noisy. Tito Giffy treated two of us for entrance, I was the one who paid. Got home at around one [I follow cerfew].

Paopao (Jan's kid) has arrived!

Realized that the handouts I claimed had a second half to it. Got it bound.

Had lunch with Bernice, Jan, Janelle, Li and Jed.

Quito (however the spelling) was born... 7.8 lbs (or 7.13? whatever). Something wrong with two of his toes though, nothing hard to fix. :) CUTE! I can't wait to see him! Was one of the few who read the assigned handouts which wasn't assigned. [Labo? Long story,a s you guessed it I'm lazy]

Cut PE and hitched a ride with Polo to greenhills. Hung out at his place and was turned into a human Barbie Doll by Krio. No biggie, she's hella cute! And tried to help Polo with his paper.

Went off to Sun Moon restaurant for dinner. Was the only one not of their Generation. Crab was soooooooooooo good.

Went home early (yes, one of those days). Typing this, feeling stupid. Should just be reading handouts.

Oh guess what! My first class (fil14) is beside one of Sir Carlo's classrooms again. Weird.

Last straw of incoherence. I'm going to stop now.

This is a long one.

Gaston, Ria and I went on a little commuting adventure to Quezon City and spent the night in Sadel. We hung out in Makati first, and stupidly spent a shitload in 'TGIF', but their Oreo dessert was good! Tita Carmela treated us out for dinner in 'Gayuma'. I woke up early and met up with Li and Jaymee and went on a little shopping trip. We were too early so we had breakfast at Podium. Then we went to Galleria, and I was able to buy some pants! Woohoo! I only bought a pair of jeans and an airtight canister... but I still spent a shitload... mainly on commuting. pfft. Dumbass us for splurging on TGIF... but the food was good. *sigh*

Well at least I figured out what to put in which blog/journal. Yey! This will be for my pointless and boring catalog of my days. Pfft.

Yesterday's Reg was hell! I'll post my schedule once I get out of my unproductive-lazy mood. At least I got PE101 already.

The object of my current Last Song Syndrome. La Lang Just sharing.

Yesterday was an ex-officer sighting day (I'm not counting the non-press corps ones). First one I saw was Sir Aaron, on EDSA walk, while I was on my way to SocSci for Reg. Next was Sir Jase, while sitting on the Libsteps with Jed (and technically the rest of my block); he wanted to give me back the books... but I had this puny bag, and wasn't sure about how I was getting home (that's a different story). He got a C+ with Calix... lucky boy! Then I saw Sir Abad, in the Online Enlistment and Assesment Area; he didn't see me... nyahahahahha! *sticks her tongue out* :Þ. While hanging with Julian (he gave me a ride home! The sweetie!) I saw Sir Philip, but he didn't notice me... nyahaha... he was talking to Jeric and Grace. Actually I saw him pass by before that, but he came back (Labo!). On the way to the Car, with us all noisy in Colayco cause I accidentally hit Jan (heh... It was her fault! She was too close :Þ) with my hand. I saw Sir Carlo. He was about to go in to that room... I forgot what you call it. nyahaha. Alen and Li saw Sir Leo... so they made a little detour. Hahaha!

I almost had to commute home cause my lovely sister didn't want to wait for me or take the mrt to cubao... "she doesn't know how". Like we haven't done it a couple of times before. Yes, It's easier to take the mrt when watching the UAAP games. Like all you need to ride the MRT is common sense (okay maybe the little ticket thingy can be confusing) There are like signs everywhere. Or at least when she sees Araneta. Goodness. Helpless little... pfft.
Sometimes I think she went to La Salle cause it's familiar surroundings blah blah blah... But then again, I know I'm wrong. Hm... maybe that's why she didn't want to go to UP, it's too much of an adjustment to make.
What a waste. She's like so freaking smart pa naman. Tsk tsk tsk.

Oh yeah, Mica's Birthday Party:
I spent that whole night unimaginably pissed off. Which was a good thing for vodka and gin. weeeeee! Jeff, Marc and Tasha showed up to keep me company. Yey! I love them!

I'll be going to her debut later.

Apparently chatting is an abuse of the internet. Great. Just cause he doesn't see the point in it... why waste totally good internet time, like not using it isn't wasting it. I mean, I see the point, but goodness.

Is everything they don't see the point of going to be wrong?

Ohh.. .look... the whole month of may and only 1, 2, 3... ooh this is like my 4th entry this whole month. Great. I should start posting here more often. If only I had something worth writing about me... No, all I have are random thoughts.. mostly bitching sessions. *sigh*

I might regret this, but right now I don't care.

One thing I promised myself is I would never quit especially if I knew people were depending on me, without good reason, such as health or academics.

If I gave my word willingly, I will try to measure up to what is expected of me.

And before giving my word, I will think of it thoroughly.

If I get into something which I might be called a mistake, I will not run away at the first sign of trouble, I will find a way to work around it... for I GAVE my word.

If I can't even fulfill that, why should anyone trust me.

I would just be living up to what people think of me... IRRESPONSIBLE.

Yes I probably am irresponsible, but I at least try to be otherwise. I choose to have principle, and if I don't have a better excuse to give, then I have no right to go back against my word.

I was stripped of that right the moment I said yes, willingly.

I will take responsiblity for my actions.

I will consider those who I am letting down before I choose to take back my word.

Taking back my word... Yes, that's what you call quiting. With no justifiable reason to quit. You may hate your boss, you may hate your workmates, you may hate your job. But where will that leave you?

Call me a hypocrite, cause I know one of these days I am going to eat my words. But at least before I do, I am going to look back at this and think of things less selfishly.

Being indispensible is a bigger responsiblity than a privilage. It's a curse for people to be dependent on your exsistance. And it doesn't make you the least bit more powerful.

Yes, anyone can do your job... probably even 10 times better than you. But is there anyone else to take it? If all the garbage collectors decided that they hate their jobs, and just quit. Our world will just be a big pile of shit and trash.

Or maybe they have a point. Maybe I should just quit, seems like everyone is getting into it. I'll quit my course! I'll quit my school! I have the privilage to do that anyway.

Obviously I am pissed. Yeah, it's a good thing I have laryngitis and I can't start yelling.
Or maybe I'm pissed off beyond words. That should be a good thing.

It's been 10 days since I last updated. weh.

I'm thinking of making a webpage for the saber... like planned months ago. It'll keep me busy, creative and productive. But pfft, the problem is getting me off my big fat lasy ass and start working. agh.

What to do what to do?

Perhaps I shall make this into a photo blog... since it is way neglected.

Perhaps.

Oooh... I have an idea of some JavaScript now, weeee!

First the belated Happy Birthday's.
May 1 - Candy Bukis (18)
May 2 - Mico Figueroa (18)
May 4 - Tine Dumuk (18), Rochell Bonamy (18) and Skookee (17)

Next, it was or is Skookee's Prom last May 3, considering the time zones... it was this morning here. Ate Inggay just sent us a pic of her and her boyfriend Wes. :) Cute no?