I think weird sometimes...
I feel sorry for the people in taft, this rain is really bad!
Why do my sisters get so much pleasure in being really bitchy?! Sorry for the word, but it's true!
Paco's play, well its today. We were supposed to go to watch, I kinda wanted to... [there's another long story connected to this] but then we couldn't use Tita Rosanne's car due to the Color Coding thingy, and well...
Golly! I have so much stuff to do! [supposedly] but am I doing anyting right now? ... why'd you think I blog?! ... oooooooh darn... taft people suck! I'm stuck with no one to bug!
I have no topic in mind to discuss/bitch/argue about. So lucky you...
I was looking at my old planner for birthday's to look out for, and I forgot to greet JC on his birthday... so if by a simple twist of faith, he might see this, I'm really really sorry! Belated!
Date's to Rem:
- Registration
- Pat's Debut
I can't believe in 3 weeks I'll be going to school as well... hehe I better make the most of what's left of my summer.
I'm thinking of putting up a calendar here... oh well, till I figure out how I'm going to arrange it... ;)
I'm in the mood to write, only problem is I don't have a topic/medium [?]. OH the ironies of life... :)
I went to the club with Vida yesterday, we played badminton... which explains the aching of my arm and knee. As much as it hurts, it feels kinda good to be doing something productive for a change.
I sucked so bad, I'm so out of shape! Which makes me want to play even more ;) I know I never was good at the sport, but then again it in a lot of ways are fun. My foot work is funny, my grip is still bad, I'm slow and my resistance is well... but that's the fun of it! ;) That's what I call a fun workout ;)
I want to go out!
Oh I watched "Death to Smoochy" last night... isn't worth your money my friends! I found it kind of cute, but its one of those movies you watch when you have nothing better to do ;Þ hehe The girl was that girl in "Being John Malkovich" she has this thing for weird movies...
Nothing is really happening with my boring life... usual ritual: bitch, bitch, bitch, watch tv, bitch again, use the pc, bitch in the chatroom, bitch in my weblog, bitch on the phone, bitch through text, eat... I'm so sick and tired of complaining, but I'm demented... I'm even complaining about my complaining... I'm a hopeless case.
I'm starting to miss highschool... I can't believe it but I am. These last few weeks I've been trying to hang out with people, knowing I wont see them much anymore. I'm not sorry for picking Ateneo, I'm not sorry for being so far... I just feel sorry that I'm so pathetic! hahaha
There is something seriously wrong with this computer, it just crashes out of nowhere... what a drag.
I know I had something to type in now I can't seem to remember what it was.
Oh now I remember, I got a letter from Ateneo regarding my Orsem [Orientation Seminar] and Registration. It was a little umm... late, there were some outdated details. It got to my thinking, school is starting soon... I'm going to be alone a lot, can I stand that? My problem in high school was I wanted to be alone, but not really. I couldn't stand being alone, which is what bothered me... I was so dependent to have other people with me, I am so dependent to have other people with me, and well I hated it. I wanted to be alone to learn how to be alone, and well that's what I am looking forward and dreading when I reach College, cause well quite frankly I don't have any choice.
I spent the yesterday in Alabang, with the sole purpose of hanging out with the people who are going to taft, cause their school starts next week. But, due to my desire for spontaneouity most of the people going to taft were out.
I spent the rest of the morning visiting Miko, then I had to go cause she was leaving. So I went to pick up Boyong, but I ended up haning there for the rest of the afternoon visiting his sisters. He couldn't leave cause he had to guard the guy fixing their toilet, which took up the whole afternoon, but I had fun... I learn some stuff about college from Chumsey... *thank you!* and good food ideas from Chumsey and Rocky. Boyong spent that whole time watching the guy fix the thing so he wasn't around. Then we went to town I stayed there for around an hour, bumping into Lady and Puffer. [I had the controllers of the playstation fixed] I brought Boyong and Tasha to Boyong's House and went home.
When I got home, I stayed up till around 1 [?] talking to first Aljo, then Vida and Aljo, then Vida, then Vida and Marco, then Marco... in that order. Maybe I woke up really late today to make up for all the sleep I've missed the whole summer... as a matter of fact I'm still sleepy right now, but then I don't want to be up the whole night...
I made a bet with Sabaw last night [or early this morning to be politically correct], that by the end of the first trimester of La Salle, I will have a boy in Ateneo. Who ever wins will be taken out for lunch by the loser. It makes me wonder how people percieve me when it comes to that department... 20% think I am all boy crazy, maybe that's exaggerating it a bit... okay a normal teenage girl? 10% thinks I may have same sex oriented tendencies [uhh... no!]. 20% thinks I am a man hater. 30% thinks I am one girl that is too hard to please. 10% thinks I have issues with commitment. The last 10% believes me to be just picky. Isn't that just great? haha. I'm betting Sabaw will lose our bet, knowing how I act whenever the situation has even a glimmer of showing up... and how i will act when the occasion calls for it. Hey... it will take more than two months! If the guy really likes me, he'll wait at least 5 and that's pushing! I really must like him if that is the case... well I'm trying to keep it at that anyway. Maybe I'll die an old maid... but come one what is with the generation now a days? I speak for experience when I say we giv up at the sight of trials, we run at the sight of danger. Our generation is very pampered... we are very spoiled. Being protected and sheltered from the harsh reality of society, we become not innocent but ignorant to life. We become so independent on hanging on to the generation that once supported us... what do you think will happen to us once that generation has long gone? Are we to learn hwo to deal with the every day trials of well... life?
I need to take better care of my flow of thinking and know when to make a 2 paragraphs instead of just one. [due to slow change in topic] Which if I might add, have no patience to undo at the moment.
Isn't it unfair? Sexism, why should there be a set behavior for a man and a woman. Sure the two have their own characteristics, but why take it against them to act otherwise? Why is it so bad for a girl to do something defined in the term unladylike and who is to say what is and what isn't unladylike? All my life I have been told this and that, and most of it just seems idiotic. Why care what other people think, as long as you aren't doing anything wrong? Why would people think of something if you do this and that? Sometimes I think it is them that think that way... It's pathetic and Idiotic, who would give a shit what chismosos and chismosas say? Its pretty obvious that they don't do anyone right...
Some people think I am suffering from low self-esteem. That's funny! I have not comments on that, but except for that I find it funny... I don't even know why I am saying this...
Why is people are acting fishy lately? I'll fill in the details about the person who is with holding important kwento. ;Þ
I can't understand where all this hostility in me is coming from. I've been so, ermm... annoyed at some of my so-called friends, and I don't have a clue why. Like when I see them in town, I just get the urge to ingore or snob them... actually the sight of them gets me annoyed. I am so mean, but I can't help it.
The patriot was on earlier, I love that movie, for some odd reason. The best part is when the Dad is going away again, then his youngest daughter wouldn't go near him, in fact he hasn't heard her speak [supposedly she only started when they were separated]. She was so angry at him... well, when he got on his horse to leave, she starts screaming..."Papa" and she goes, "I'll say anything, just don't go.." aw... that was so sad! I get all teary whenever I watch that part.
Okay so I was getting all senti mushy and shit... so sue me!
I finally finished my Mom's mother's day gift, you can say it's a belated mother's gift. I kinda like my gift to her. I'm beginning to think of burning myself a copy, or not give it at all. Although I cant do that since she already knows about it, and she's been waiting for it.
I just remembered how big a hassle it is to upload blogs manually, and since I hate using front page, I can't just use that to upload all the stuff I need to, thus I can't seem to move out of geocities... banners, errors and all. If you will notice the errors, it's because of the banners.
If you will notice, most of my entries begin with the letter "I"; most of my sentences as well... and "I" am starting to hate it! It makes me feel so self-centered, I I I, ME ME ME, MYSELF MYSELF MYSELF... of course that's a big DUH cause this is my weblog, so most if not all entries are about me... but I just don't feel right with it.
I can't believe I just noticed that...
After the movie I interviewed Migz about the Pep Squad for my article, "How to be a Pepper"; okay the title sucks... its a work in progress!
I'm kinda psyched for school to start at the same time I am hesitant... am I ready to take on such a work load? I'm actually scared of school. Call me a chicken, well at least I am honest and intouch with my feelings enough to admit and know it. It's hella scary and hella exciting... I can't wait!
I'm trippin right now... its soooo freaking hot and there's nothing to do. Actually its more of humid, if you look out the window it seems as if it's going to rain. For some reason I find it to be such a pretty sight. Some leaves are falling, and a slow breeze is blowing on the branches of the eucalyptus tree outside while listening to the soothing sounds of the guitar plucking of suddenly, or even better "the wave" by Antonio Carlos Jobim.
I've been so into Bossanova music Lately. For those of you who don't know, bossanova is latin jazz... its lyrics are mostly portugese a lot of which have been translated to english, which are ermm... unique; and its instruments are a mix of guitar, piano, flute and a steady percussion. It's usually beach music, something soothing to listen to while listening to the waves crash on the shore. Sometimes I wish I continued with my piano lessons... but then again I think not.
Awwwryt. Enough of sounding like a brochure or a music review. I prefer the sound of realism. Lets take Kamiseta's theme "its fun being a girl", if you want realism to that... it should be "its sucks being a girl". "Never mess with a girl who has her period!" -may very well be the embodiment of the so called Independent Woman, it is our bondage.
Humidity in Manila has been unusually high lately. Okay it would be some what normal, it being summer and all... well it's a little bit too hot! AaRGH! It's so hot! I feel like I'm slowly melting away inside this house. Its soooooo HOT!
Here I am again, whining... can someone please slap me everytime I bitch about something? As to maybe lessen all my complaining.
PMS? hahaha I hate being a girl sometimes, and not only for this reason... a lot more which I am not willing to share here I guess.
Yesterday. It was an extraordinary day... I learned how to commute; I got to hang with Rose even for a bit; I learned new stuff about Ateneo; I had an adventure; Yam made me a new layout for my page; bonding sessions; Yesterday was in a way tiring, but none the less fun! I had so much fun!
It was too bad, Boyong was willing to come with us, if only I called him. We would have had even more fun and I would by now know a lot of the kwento Boyong hasn't been able to tell me. Aww... to bad! Maybe we should plan another commuting trip, I want to get used to commuting.
Wishful thinking... there are so much things I want to try or do in my life... haha I'm still living with childhood fantasies, and I am legally an adult... the ironies of life.
Our youthbuild trip was rescheduled once more, mainly due to lack of time, disorganization and Michelle Branch. haha... I wish I had money so I could go with Yam! She's going to watch the her gig in makati, and her brother ditched her for his girlfriend... hmmph! Isn't blood thicker than water?
Yam: You should give him a hard wack on the head! Kids today... [feeling matanda nako e]
Its soooo hot! If only one could take a bath the whole day... when I go to ateneo, there'll be no aircon. AARGH! damnit! Sigh... I want some halo-halo.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW... the whole trip took practically 7 hours... or maybe even more! I'll go into detail some other time, nakakatamad right now e... if you can see the time i posted this... shit i really should get some sleep if I'm going to the youth build tom.
You know I seriously think my blogging is the most pointless thing in the world... I can't think of anything decent to write, and I don't make much sense in it either. It makes me wonder, who the hell reads all this crap?! I don't!
I need to work on a new layout and stuff... someone bitch slap me to sanity. Then maybe I can get over this mental block/to-lazy-to-even-attempt-to-do-anything-decent stage. I want it done before classes start... haha so I have more than a month, and less distractions because of the wonderful trimestral calendar of some certain schools in the taft area, which most people will be heading off too... [hahahaha! while you're having tests already, i'd only be enrolling! bwahahha!] I'm going to miss those people!
I was at work kanina.....technically we reached our quota, but literally since ate just added 2 pesos for lack of change and some people didn't claim their .05 change...w/c added up to .15... anyway, setting the technicalities aside [i think i screwed up the spelling again], we did good.....well okay so it was the day before mothers day......so that makes today technically mother's day, although blogger isn't counmting it as mother's day cause the time zone i think they are using is different. OH WELL.
You know I had a lot to write...i just forgot.
I should hurry up with my mother's day gift!
I suck!
Prissie sent me this really cute email... what I'm doing [pasting a whole email] should be a crime] italicized it me
1. Never try to change your loved one to suit your own taste. It defeats the purpose of falling in love with him/her for what he/she really is. 2. More often than not, it is THE EX that couples often fight about. Try not to. In the first place, both of you know very well that you're glad to have found each other and are not with your previous bf/gf anymore. 3. Guys will forever be thinking of different girls the whole day. But it is who's in their hearts that they will be always thinking of every night before they sleep at night (hoping that they dream of her that night as they sleep too). 4. After a fight and you stay up sad, can't sleep and thinking of your loved one, I guarantee that he/she is doing the same thing too. 5. After being with each other for so long, never forget the little things that made you fall in love with him/her more. 6. Loving someone isn't about seeing him/her as often as you can. It's about trusting each other that both of you love and yearn for one's company. The moment you start counting the number of times you call/see/spend time/talk with each other then chances 7. Too much jealousy can kill, but a little of it is healthy. Besides, it's nice to know that your loved one fears losing you. 8. It's pointless to be in a relationship if you can't see yourself spending the rest of your life with your bf/gf. True love is not a pastime. 9. For guys: So what if your abs aren't as defined or gush-worthy? Or you don't look any bit like Brad Pitt? 10. Never underestimate the value of holding hands. It was the first time you knew you love and are loved in return by the person you're with now. And it was the prelude to the kiss. "Let lips do what hands do: they kiss." (Romeo&Juliet) 11. Look forward to spending time with your bf/gf.Time spent together should never be an obligation or part of a routine because this leads to taking the fun out of being with each other. 12. Don't undervalue laughter. Just like the previous statement, fun is also a considerable aspect of a long-lasting relationship. 13. Support each other. Motivate one another. Don't be insecure at the success of your loved one. Besides, you may not know it, but you play a vital role in inspiring him/her. 14. Small random acts of sweetness have guaranteed tremendous effects. 15. When you fight, what's the use of prolonging your agony? Don't let pride waste time that should be spent happy together. 16. When having a serious fight and you ask yourself whether or not your relationship is worth rescuing and your answer is a "yes"; with conviction, then you must be right. But if deep inside, your answer is "I'm not really sure", you may not be aware of it, but it leans 17. Say "I love you" because you mean it, and not because you have to. Don't hold back on saying it out of the blue too. Besides, you'll never get a negative reaction from doing so. And it will feel good for the both of you. 18. Never take for granted the word "friend" in boyfriend and girlfriend. Do all the sweet, mushy stuff that couples do, but don't ever forget that your bf/gf is a friend too. 19.They should not fall in love with the idea of falling in love. They should fall in love if they really feel that its love...
REMINDERS F0R TH0SE IN L0VE AND F0R TH0SE WH0 WILL BE IN L0VE S0MEDAY:
but I mean there are instances... like if that which you are trying to change is for his or her own good rather than your own. One thing's for sure, never force it... if you do, then it appears as though u never did love him/her, just the thought of you two as a couple.
the ex. why does that sound so scary? hehe
thinking of girls in what sense? hahaha... horny bastards
what if the person is a playa? hehe you think? but thats a good thought... everytime you think he/she doesn't love you, its a good thought to keep you going.
yeah, it tends to be like part of your own nature that you tend to forget the little things, some things are so little you dont even know how important it is, till its gone.....hehe hey its like love! heheh
are the one who is keeping tabs has the problem. Love is more than that.
who counts? haha psychotic... parang obsessed! nako if you guys break up, baka maging stalker un
no comment.
then its not true love... but then again, you have a gf/bf's cause you are in search for that person who you will see yourself spending the rest of your life with. so in perspective it isnt pointless
For girls: So what if you don't have big boobs that are drool-worthy? Or you don't look any bit like Heather Graham? Whatever you feel you lack physically,your bf/gf still sees you as the hottest, most attractive person on earth.
heeeeey if you feel hot then you must be! just dont attempt to flaunt it by looking other than what you really are. You want to be loved for who you are, not entirely for what you look like
erm... okay i don't think I'll hold hands with anyone else again!?!? hahah kidding... its like showing affection without being ermm... too ... ermm..what's the word? oh well... too PDA.
Gosh if spending time with the one you love is an obligation, then i wish all responsiblities are this fun! [as if, feel mo nanaman tricia hehe]
laughter is the best medicine
awwwwww...
doi! its the small things that matter; good things come in small packages... except of course... hey a house is big! what would you rather have? a big ass house or a teenie weenie diamond stud?
heeey its the fights that make a relationship interestiong hehe
on the "no" answer.
wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow.
but what if the person only THINKS he/she is in love
hell yeah
what if they only think they're in love, but they really are in love with the fact that they have a significant other?... but this is my life's motto.....haha i sound so jologs
I am soooooo sabog!
College talk... aaaaaargh! Its taking forever till june, and the anticipation is killing me
I did a couple of errands for my Mom today, so I was in town the whole morning.
Note to myself:
Don't bring Mica unless she's meeting her friends there... the worst KJ in the world. ... and she calls me makapal, she's the one whole tagging along and she acts as if she has every right to ruin my day.
Well, it didn't turn out bad, as much as I ruined my plans of hanging out in the alabang area, I got to sleep... but I woke up with this really bad feeling, like you're sick or something... its still hasn't gone away [even if I was capable of eating quite a large amount of dinner], that's mainly why I'm cutting down my blog for today.
I just remembered I am sick! I really should control myself from eating all the stuff I'm not supposed to.
Before everything...
Vida: My drivers name is Elmer not Bobby; and I knew where the sports complex was ;Þ I just didn't know that you had to get the PE uniform there ;Þ
...now that that is done...
For you I give a lifetime of stablility,
anything you want of me,
nothing is impossible
For you there are no words or ways to show my love
or all the thoughts I'm thinking of
'Cause this life is no good alone
since we've become one I've made a change
Everything I do now makes sense,
all roads end, all I do is for you
For you I share the cup of love that overflows
and anyone who knows us knows
that I would change all faults I have
For you there is no low or high or in between
of my heart that you haven't seen
'Cause I share all I have and am,
nothing I've said is hard to understand
And all I feel I feel deeper still
and always will all this love is for you
Every note that I play, every word I might say,
every melody I feel
Are only for you and your appeal
Every page that I write, everyday of my life
would not be filled without the things
That my love for you now brings
For you I'd make a promise of fidelity,
now and for eternity
No one could replace this vow
For you I'd take your hand and heart and everything
and add to them a wedding ring
'Cause this life is no good alone,
since we've become one you're all I know
And if this feeling should leave I'd die
and here's why, all I am is for you
Everything I do now makes sense,
all roads end and all I do... is for you
Only for you
cute song. as much as it is romantic, usually romance kills the reality of life... maybe that's why its romantic, people would like to forget the flaws of reality. The sad thing is, they crave this dream. Me, I don't see the point.
With this attitude, I'm doomed to a life of solitude.
Spiderman. Obviously I've just watched spiderman... no duh! All I can say about it is... typical. Usually those movies which are so hyped up by advertisments don't have much to say about itself. The special effects were really good, but I wish I could say the same about the story line, and at some point the script itself. haha who am I to judge anyway, but I must hand it to the scriptwriters, it really sounded like the comic book... the only set back there was its lack of realism. Well, that's the whole point right?
I'm at my cousins Gaston's house right now, he just got a PS2. Lucky bastard! Anyway, he's trying to get me to read some of his books... i just borrowed "the moor" i forgot who wrote it... I can't seem to finish it, I got so bored. Okay, I like reading a lot, but I'm very very picky. I'm thinking of borrowing "Disclosure".
Youth Build. i'm thinking of joining the youth build. At least I'd be doing something very productive, I'm doing a good deed for society and lastly heeeey one can lose a LOT of weight with lifiting all that stuff ;). Not that I'm obsessed with losing weight, I just really need to... you will never catch me on a diet, or working out to lose weight... I love sports... and extra curricular activities. I guess I don't really go out of my way to look real good... all the so-called "kikayness" is only brought about by fascination.
Work. As usual extremely boring and draining, especially for the fact that I am not getting my time or money's worth still remains. Joel just pisses me off sometimes... no offense to him though. Its one of those itty bitty characteristics that isn't really their fault. Its just that... well... I end up spending rather than earning from that damn job. I use up my free messages and calls on calling/texting him or anyone else regarding work... and for the fact that he prefers to text you about the important stuff for work rather than just call you up... so instead I end up calling him, needing the answers right away.
Joel if you are reading this... please!!!
I went bonding trip with Miggy, reminds me how much I miss the guy... I never had the time to hang out with him [meaning talk] to him the whole senior year... as is everyone. I just realized how anti-social I was during my last year.
Spiderman. Damn Pao and Vida. They ditched me! hahaha I hope you guys end up and learn a lesson! HEH! ;Þ I hate this whole spiderman thing...
Irresponsible. You guessed it, my phone bill is an issue again. I swear I wish I wasn't such an irresponsible person... I do this to everything. "grow up!"
Growing up is so hard to do now a days... with all the crime and corruption in society today, parents have become stricter in a sense and more over protective, therefore sheltering today's youth with the reality that is life. We end up squadering money here and there not realizing the difficulty of earning it... we are given everything practically on a silver platter... majority of us do not know how to commute, or go out of the house alone... or even live... its such a sad pathetic case, society has sheltered its children too much to the extent of children not being able to live without that what is provided by society. We become spoiled brats, demanding that of which we expect to be given to as, as it always was before hand... what kind of citzens would that produce?
I'm rambling here...
I was reading in Yam's site that Jessica Simpson and the 98 degrees dude [Nick Latchey] got back together, and now they are engaged... aww... now isn't that just sweet? [and totally besides the point?] Anyway, she was asking about if love is sweeter the second time around. Well, I seriously don't think there can ever be a second time, cause there can only one time in every relationship. Getting back together would mean a whole new relationship, just the same people. For that time that the two were apart, they change, maybe just a little bit, maybe undetectable, but they did. [just in the same pattern that people change when they are in a relationship.] The new relationship is built on that change, and on the original relationship they had shared.
Therefore I conclude that love isnt sweeter the second time around for a second time isn't possible [i cant find the right word for it], so its just that love is sweet whatever the case, whatever the occasion, whatever the time...
Am I making sense? no I'm not! haha I just wanted to make a point on something... and I'm so sick of using this as an announcement board.
How can I come up with a metaphor for an insomniac, dont ask...
Finally I got in here after how many hours of waiting and waiting...
Aljo is back from Korea! Yey! He was telling me about how nice korea was, and how he didn't want to come back to manila yet... well too bad! hahaha just kidding. I envy the bastard! Well, at last someone will accompany me to commute going to Ateneo [i have to learn sometime...]! Thank God Aljo is back! hehe
Movie Marathon. We're planning to hold it in Tasha's house... its a long story which I'm not allowed to say just yet.
This entry is pointless... lately I can't seem to think of anything decent to put.