Alone I woke up. 3:56 am. It's dark out. I am alone. I was alone for longer.... Longer than I have realized I dreamt. I dreamt of you. Not the boy you are. But the man  you were. and then I woke up. I remember. Loving you. I remember... Looking in your  eyes. But I am now alone. And I have been... For a long long time. I don't know Precisely when you left. But I know When I realized you were gone. It was that first time That I ever locked... Myself in the bathroom. I sat down against the door... And I cried. I thought about leaving you. And I didn't know why. I didn't know why... You had already left me. I knew I was alone that night. Because for the first time, You didn't understand. Your eyes were different. You had stopped loving me. Was it because I had changed? That night, I locked myself in. I almost slit my wrists that night. With that razor you always left by the sink And so I realized... I was living for you. And not for me. I knew, suddenly. That if I stayed that way... I would never be myself again. So I woke up. And when I woke up... I was alone.