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Time; Fractures
Spoilers; Season 3
Disclaimer; they're not mine
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I never knew I was a coward - but I cannot live this life - this lie.
All those painful arns on Valdon, dredging up the remains of my training - resurrecting Officer Sun; my hard-won equilibrium; undone every time I see his face. That lost little boy. That stubbornness. Undone every time I catch the human scent of him.
And I feel so disloyal, and what is left if not loyalty? It could be so easy to work with this Crichton. That stupid slip about the Budong. He was not there. He does not know. So I will tell him. Try to explain. He deserves that.
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'She needs time,' he said.
He is right - I need time. And space. Seeing them together - he is right, he is not a copy. My John; this John; both real. Both right.
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And now this insane plan. He thinks he stands alone against the Universe. Very well, I will stand by him one last time. We will stop Scorpius - that is what he - my John - wants. Maybe he will get us all killed. Either way it will be finished - and I can go. If I live.
So I will stand beside this man who is his double and I will stand by him. It will be alright. Crichton has a plan. . . .
