I had survived this world for the past 22 years with God's graceful help and guidance.
The day I was born, could be the day when the daughter that they had waited for years finally arrive.
Unfortunately, she turns out to be different from what the family had wanted to be.
I would never know what my father would want from me, as he had left me in this world alone, when I was just 14. Couldn't blame as that as well is God's will.
My mother just hopes everything turns out well for each of her children, though it's been umpteen times she saw me and my 2nd bro, fell and get up again, run again, against the flow, against her, and yet we never knew the word which meant giving up, she never ask us to give up as well.
She taught us to be humble, when we fall, she encourage us to get up again, not to succumb to the situation. When we fly high, she pull us down to earth, reminding us of all the setbacks we've gone thru, and reminding us as well, not to be proud of achievements, but be thankful.
As that's how I remember my mum used to be, I wish now for her, to go against the flow, don't let them bring u down, don't let those tears drown you with them.
It's hard to show our love for you, but no matter how much I hate you, I believe that's as much as I love you, can't ever deny the fact, that you are the one who brought me to this world, regardless of the pain you had to endure. And now I guess facing me is a pain as much as then.
I hope you would understand me better.
to my brother,
i hate you and i love you
you never showed your care
you never bother about me
your words cuts deep
though you could only heard me
but never yourself
i'm sorry i could never look up to you
as you have never been there since young
you're proud in your own sense
i'm proud in my own way
if you want something
work for it
things will never fall from heaven for you
i'm tired of being your sister
i blame myself for feeling likewise
and i'm sorry for that
to my friend and brother
you've got your own way
you make her cry
you make her laugh
i could never be like you
i could only just be me
you tried to be a friend
and i appreciate that
you encourage me to go further
in my darkest hours
but you would never let me in
to your world
when you're hurt i feel it too
when you smile
i feel content as well
though i can't see a reason why people hate u that much
i hope they would forgive you
and leave you alone
you're the last person i would ever want to lose
to my father
you exist in me
you live in me
you survive in me
your memories would always be there
my regrets would always remind me
of those lonely days with you
your laughters
your tears
it taught me a lot
i wish i had the chance to know you
better than before
May God Bless You
to my mother
persevere
endurance
tough
and patience
you're a brave woman
I respect you for that