Today im contplating one of the most important conciepts and at the same time one of the hardest conciepts to understand or even describe. Sick and cheesey as it might be love affects every person who has ever walked the earth unless by some unfathamoble misfortune they were deprived of love. LOVE LoVe. lOve. With manny different ways of being written and expressed. I dwell on the idea of it. I find no other reason for living. Love cause both the best and the worst feelings that are immaginable to man. But if you stop to think with out anything bad there wouldn't be anything good. With out knowing love you might be happy but will misout on one of the greatest things in the world. If your in love you should expext to feel like shit in not to long of a time espically if it is your first time. To have love and loose it is a crime against society and the humane race it is the only thing i hold against god. But that is now because im not indulging my self with it.. it is an addiction im trying to break my self of. But than again it is why i live it will by why i die out of all the things in life i see no point in living unless i can share every experience i have with someone who understands it utterly and totally. Why would i want an experinece for my self... Would there be any point in that. I will die and it will be pointless....Friends are good by they are allways hiding sertain thoughts and maintaining a certain flow of concsious that prevents them from voicing disaggreements with me. Love has no place for that. As far as i can tell from my experience. If you love someone there is no lying or hiding thoughts if there is a disagreement is should be explained in infinate detail till exausted and never again questioned for the peace of mind of both parties involved.

any way enough of the bla bla bla lets have a drink!!!! Now to the real question. Sorry if this is sickenningly cheesey...but...!!!... Do you really know what causes 2 people to fall in love?? I dont i dont know how to fall in love and i dont know the correct way to keep a love loving me or to love in that matter. All my attempts were long winded and a sad memmory of good time that lingers every now and again. 2 People with everything in common fall in love. 2 Peple with nothing in common fall in love. You hurt the ones you love love most. And when you find some one who is perfect you some how cant find the propensiety to fall in love with them back. Love is illusive. Love is tranquiel. So why?? why?? why?? this is one thing with no answere that drives my mind in circles every day of my live. Its someting i need. I dont need my self i could die and it wouldn't matter because i would stil be just me when i was dead. I know that reason is subconcsiously why everyone loves to love and be loved. So if there is 2 people who hate eachother under normal circumstances and their forced to spend time togather will they come to understand eachother more and more untull their final say in the matter of their differences is that their different but you can understand how they feel or is it that you take on eachother differences and make the common there fore zeroing out the bad points of view. Do all people feed off of eachother that way. Love dose make people irrational. I need some facts and no matter where i look ther is no explanationt as to why. You all must know there is no true love because there are manny people who die alone and with out love every day of your love so dont go saying that there is someone out there for everyone because if there was people wouldn't die alone unless hell was ment to be on earth. Any way i'll finish this pathetic infactuation another day.... and on and on and on... please dont make fun of me....