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Friday night was awesome. Dinner tasted so good! lol I havn't been with everyone in so long, it was nice. We went to my friends place after, but I couldn't really stay long since I can't stay out out :( :@ Even though I'm 19! My parents really need to trust me more. Anyways, I'll be writing here once and awhile, but I'll never give any details or names because...well this is too public for me. Sure, mostly friends(probably you) will be visiting the site but who knows who else will stumble upon it! Anyways, I'm going out again tonight with other friends, so that should be good too. I kinda wish I were out now, but I'm babysitting my bro. Too bad I dont get paid to sit him too lol Man do I need a job! I'm still looking! But I think I'll get one soon, it's not THAT hard to find a job, right?

Oct, 22 2006 11:50am

He didn’t steal a single thing from me. He hasn’t taken any part of me. I’m cut but I refuse to bleed. All he did was break my heart…and I couldn’t help running and falling to my knees. That was the extent of his power. He hurt me, but he hasn’t broken me. I’m angry and afraid, but I’ve stopped crying. It’s going to take a long time to heal, but I will never quit or lay down. I won’t stop by a friend’s house for a shoulder; I’ll come by for a laugh and popcorn. I wont make friends with the shadows in the corner or drown my lungs in self-pity. I’ll walk downtown on the sheets of autumn and feel the streets and smile at all the beautiful men who look and see what they need. I’m not bound, just hurt, I’m free. I’ll be better than ok and I won’t be afraid the next time I’ll fall in love, it’s the destination hidden under the horizon. I know I’ll get there but it’s unknown, but I’ll be happy anyways, while I make my way there, and after.

Oct, 19 2006 10:50pm