Five Months of Imprisonment

For five months I imprisoned myself

I locked myself away over you

For five months I was looking

Searching for answers

God was giving me the answers

I denied them

I denied the answer he gave me

For five months I dragged myself

Dragging myself through college

Forcing my writing

Forcing my arithmetic

For five months I failed

I failed at being happy

I failed at being a friend

Three out of those five months

I was in therapy

See what you did to me?

See what I did to myself?

I made it more dramatic

Than it really was

I imprisoned myself for five months

And the sixth month was bliss

I locked up my mind for five months

Looking for ways to get over you

Going to therapy and reading books

My answer was sitting next to me the whole time

God was there the whole time

Tapping on my shoulder