Nobody cares, nobody understands
I feel so cold and empty inside
God please hold my hand
Fill the void in my heart
That no man or boy can ever see nor fill
I'm back to square one now
I'm back to feeling like nothing
My sleeves are drenched with tears and snot
I don't want to feel this way
I'd rather feel like someone that I'm not
I want to hurt myself
I want to end the pain
I've felt like that since yesterday
God, you told me at work
That I was to officially let go
You gave me an anxiety attack
And shaded my blue clouds with grey
My days will now be long and cold
Without Mike by my side
God, give me something to work with
I don't want to build up my fortress and hide
Letting go won't be easy
He was my first everything
Mike meant everything to me
I know we have to give up the things we love
But giving up Mike is far too much
Letting go of Emily was hard
But it's done
Letting go of James wasn't too hard
But it still hurt
And now it comes to Mike
And after him I know there will be several more
More friends and guys that I will fall for
It hurts the most when it's a man
Because I need that love
It's love that I've only received or been shown
a couple of times
As I listen to the wind outside
It sounds like someone screaming
It sounds like me
Like me screaming on the inside
I still contemplate hurting myself
Slicing my wrists wide open in front of my
parents
I just want people to know that I'm hurting
Apparently wearing all black, chains, spikes,
and dramatic make-up
Doesn't say enough
I wanted to marry Mike
Men don't usually give me jewelry
But Mike did
He gave me a gorgeous ring
One that I want to wear forever
Or at least until I find someone new
My life will be long and rough for a while
Rough times seem to seek me out
Hunt me and shoot me down out of the sky
But I some how manage to soar back up again