The Divine Thrill

Three dark red stripes highlight my wrist

Three dark red stripes of sadness

Three dark red stripes of despair

They look real

They feel real

They are real

Just because there wasn't any serious blood

Doesn't mean my condition isn't serious

It's an unexplainable feeling

The depression

The cutting

The pain

Words can't explain it

The feeling and obsession of cutting

The high

The thrill

The down hill spiral

The blood

The tear in my skin

The raised veins

It's all so surreal

The feelings and ideas that run through your brain

The shock that runs up your arm

The blood that rolls from the wound

Unexplainable

Undefined

Inscrutable

Unfathomable

The meaning of suffering