snooze button          I feel like nothing – no one –  empty – damned to my own solitude – trusting no one – I can’t  let anyone close - they might destroy me - but what does it matter anyway – Loneliness creeps up unexpectedly – like today – caught off guard – my defenses aren’t what they used to be - I don’t think I can go on much longer - with out - shattering in to millions of pieces – one by one falling in to the empty sea of depression – I am no humpty dumpty – there will be no putting me back together again - There seems to be no color ahead of me – nothing to look forward to -mentally functioning in black and white right or wrong – yet my days go by one by one – like every one else’s I guess – Waking up to the same shitty alarm clock 5 snooze buttons later - a quick shower to try and wash away either a wet dream or a pillow-clenching nightmare just to sit in bumper-to-bumper traffic with idiots behind the wheel talking on there cell phones – getting to a job you used to love and enjoy just to sit and watch the second hand on the clock slowly pass by and this is what they call life – a endless battle of penny pushing and pollution – this is what I have to look forward to - Jessica