Getting a Grip
by MR
Hi. I talked to you before didn't I? Kinda hard to
remember. Things weren't real clear when I got here.
Last night? Oh, what I did with my bed. Yeah I know
it made'em mad, but I was just making sure the monster
couldn't get me. The Fraser monster.
Well, yeah, they told me he's dead. One of'em said I
killed him. Did I? Cause I don't remember if I did.
You'd think you'd remember something like that.
Why do I need the barricade if the monster's dead?
It's just I got to thinking…maybe that wasn't really
the Fraser monster that got killed. Maybe it was the
'real' Fraser, and the Fraser monster killed him and
made it look like I did it. So no one'd find out he
was still alive. They'd see Fraser dead and figure
that was it and then the Fraser monster could do what
he wanted.
Come after me. Well he can't let me live can he? I
know what he is. So he'll have to make sure the job's
finished.
Look, I know who I am, okay? Stanley Raymond
Kowalski. I was supposed to be Ray Vecchio, but
Vecchio came back.
What do I remember? I told you already. The Fraser
monster hurt…he raped me! That make you feel better?
He. Raped. Me. That clear enough for you?
Aftewards? See, that's what I don't remember. I
remember him hurting me, cause there was a lot a
yelling and a lot a blood, and then I was in the
hospital for a couple days wasn't I? I sorta remember
parts of that. Lt. Welsh was there. Then I came
here.
'Here's' the loony bin, I guess. Most places don't
have windows made outta shatterproof glass with wire
mesh in'em. I'm not blind. Kinda tired, but not
blind.
No, didn't get much sleep last night. I would've if
they'd left the barricade alone. But they kept taking
it down and I had to put it up again. I told'em why I
was making it, but they said he was dead and I didn't
need it. I guess that's why they finally gave me the
shot. To make me stop.
Do I think I killed Fraser? I don't know. How do
they know it's really Fraser? Cause the Fraser
monster could look and act just like Fraser. He
fooled me and we've been best friends for three years.
Wouldn't be any work at all to fool someone else. I
thought I knew'im better than I know myself.
Yeah I loved'im. I think I already told you that. He
said he loved me too. Said he needed some time to
figure it all out and then we'd see where it went. So
I was waiting. Didn't wanna put any pressure on'im.
We kinda joked about it, but we never did anything. I
was willing to wait till he was comfortable.
So they think I killed'im? Maybe I did. Like I said,
I don't remember much. I might've killed'im. God
knows I wanted to when he was raping me.
But it might've been the Fraser monster. They looked
exactly alike. Acted the same too. That's why I kept
making the barricade last night. I know the door was
locked, but that wouldn't make any difference to a
monster. Hell, he could probably rip it off its
hinges.
You understand why I gotta make the barricade, right?
How would I know? How would anybody ever really know?
FIN
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