20oct04
self hatred.
i kinda hate myself now. lets see. today mum woke me up. then she actually asked me if i wanted to go to school or not. haha. so funny. yeps. blah blah blah. first paper we got back was physics! kinda disappointed with myself. was expecting an A1 for this paper. got 47/65. A2. though i did top the class, i felt i could have done better. sucks. hope my chem will pull my grade up to an A1.
next paper was english. quite suprising la. my compo got 22/30! and situational got 19/30. yeas. compre was 14/25 and summary 19/25. total only 74/110. 67%? yeas. think top 5. hope oral pulls it up to an A2, cuz didnt do that well in midyear.
blah. had recess. then some stupid talk. was late for like 5 mins, then kena scolding and have to stand. retarded bitch. yea. got back math papers. Emath was totally suprising. was expecting A2? yea. sectionA got 16/26. i was like. dieeeeeee. section 2 got 24/26. so was like, wow? calculated needed 35 to get a A1. i got 38! so total is 78/100. rather pleased with myself. think this one topped e class.
then the most fucking paper of all. amath. section A 19/30, section B 15/30. and FUCKING section C 18/40. FUCK! havent done so badly before for math. like midyear got 69. then now get a fucking 52. pulls my midyr grade down. so now total after counting both will be 57%? like FUCK? i can just go die now. L1R5 12/15 pts is so gone. arghs. i totally REGRET not studying hard for this paper. gonna be spending my whole holidays cramming. argh! am so so so so disappointed. haiz.
tmr will be worse. come to my funeral. thanks. love you all.
-sandra+