To Fall All Over Again...

@Uootem

I keep pleading with myself
to stop this insanity...
  as I fall helplessly
  into the spiraling depths
    of my dreamings...
    losing all sense of reality.
such a futile effort
to forget the love I once found
  in the luminance of your eyes,
  for I feel nothing
    except your presence,
    your embrace, your hands,
      your heartbeat...
I can no longer remember
anything of importance except
  the love you once shared with me,
  for I believing in nothing
    but the sweetness of words once spoken
    from lips that I can still vividly taste.
I keep reminding myself that
what holds me
  released me from its grip so long ago...
  and that it does not this day exist
    except in my dreamed lies,
    and as a grown man
      there is no excuse
      for my believing
        in such fairytale fabrications.
But still I want for nothing
but for you to once again
  bring love to me,
  love that our youth said
    would last forever...
    but our adulthood knows not of.
How many years must I wait
for its echoes to recede?
  Would I allow myself to finally
  admit that I no longer hear the reverberation?
I keep silently pleading with you
to stop this insanity...
  to snatch me from my dreamings
  with those words "me too you"
    spoken in reality, not inside my head
    for I want to fall again...
      but this time
      hand in hand with you
as we fall in love all over again!