"Still searching"

@Uootem

I feel all alone.... and empty.
      Love passed me by when I was not looking.
          I know we were young then,
but could not our love still had been real?

Why can I not be the person I want to be?
      Why can you not remember what I still see?
            Am I afraid to let go... afraid to lose what memory I have left?
Yes, maybe that's it... maybe that's why there is so much to write.

I use to be happy. Where did that happiness go?
      It got lost somewhere and cannot find my way back.
            Too many paths to take... and roads not taken for years.
      breadcrumbs dried up and were blown away by the wind.
Too many people trying to turn me into what they want.

I no longer know who I am... for you are not here to define me.
    I need to escape this dreaming for a while to give me room find myself again,
          but I don't have the courage to go it alone.
    I know there is something better for I once experienced your love
but how do I back get there?

I'm still searching.