Life continues

@Uootem

to a special place I often go
                            a calming... contented place
          far away from the ado
                                    of adulthood life
                    and no one knows
                                      to search for me there
                              for if they did
                                          they would not understand
                        why this is the place
                  I chose to be.
this special place
          is really just mine
                          my own little world
                                            of dreaming of you
              where everything is still as right
                                                as it was before you
                              gave up on us and left
                  and if I chose
                                  I can laugh out loud
                                                  laugh until I cry... if I so choose.
so many good times I have had there
          the memory of you love
                                  and the peacefulness it brings to me
                    has taken away the hurt
                                              and I have forgotten
                    how I was so sad when you left.
I wish we could
              see these things of this place
                                      together... like we did so long ago.
          But it most likely wouldn't be the same
                                for you and I see things so differently
                    these days... different life experiences
                                                          no longer sharing
                              the experiences of our youth.
a scary feeling at times
                        this being so all alone
                                              in a place once created for two
                          but you are there
              at least in memory.
If per chance I fall asleep
                        and spend an extended time there
          please don't wake me
                          Just cover me to keep me warm
            and remember what used to be
                                            for we both know
                      it won't be coming home again
I have found a happy place
                      The hurt is gone and
                                          i'm at peace with my fate
            my search for "us" is finally over
                                        (perhaps)... at least for today
                  being hidden deeply in the past
                                          the longings kept me from going on
                        but today i've found
        my new beginning
at last and life continues!