"An Apparition"

@Uootem

Everything I see in this visual world of mine,
Reminds me of an apparition of you that to this day still haunts me;
And reminds me of everything you used to do to make my heart melt;
And the profound emotions I experienced immersed in your love.

In my youth I found one thing in this life to be true:
It is the unquestioned knowledge that I couldn't live without:
              your once given so freely love,
              your tender kiss and its sweetness,
              your caring touch and the way it made me feel,
              your reassuring voice when you told me you cared,
              your warm breath against my skin,
              your graceful movements as we danced,
              your eyes and the spell they cast on my soul,
              your body arching into mine and how it always fit.

And in these days, so far away from youth,
I find one thing in this life to be true:
It is the unquestionable knowledge,
That I must have my thoughts, my memories of you.

I must live with the awareness that I need you, oh so much.
Maybe more today than I did then.
When you were near, I was always smiling.
Now that time has taken you away, I'm crying.

I beseech those memories of you to stay close to me,
But it is unnecessary for I know they will never leave.
You are always on my mind, in my thoughts;
All my dreams filled with the love I lost.

I'm greedy.. I know, for I have no right to these thoughts.
But that's how love lost can take hold of reason,
I just love you so much, no matter how time passes.
You're everything I've always wanted, in the past, for the future, and at the present.

I cherish the time of love we shared, a time when I knew you cared.
If I were to stare into your eyes, I could not let go again.
I would simply stand there amazed that everything about you is what I love.
I have seen the love within you and it is wonderful.

So please forgive me for having these thoughts of you.
I have no right to dream of these things,
For I had your love, and lost it, a long time ago.
But today, without hesitation, I can profess that I still love you.