"Besieged by Nightmares"

@Uootem

eyes tainted
with starlit nostalgia...
poignant apparitions of
the passion in a lover's eyes -
viewed on secluded strolls
through unpleasantly cold gardens
in my psyche.

still I amble through
hours of darkness,
placing one foot
in front of the other
and stagger hopelessly
through the muted illumination
of a brighter time long past
to gather placebos
to replace the love I miss.

footsteps stained
with the filth of regret
that fall like manic wealth
from leaf-losing trees
and rustle in the winds
of time and change.

still I meander the night,
one foot then the other
digressing despondently
through the moonlight
of a place condemned
in felonious impassiveness.

arms ache
from the burden
of a vast emptiness
found in the losing
of love's warm embrace
causing the bitter wind
to feel so much compassionless now.

I wander at night
in a promenade of searching
for the emotions I know of
while unnerving groans
stalk me, reminding me that
the moment I cherish so
has passed, with no return forecast.

face illuminated
in the haunting glow of
a full-slivered moon
that sheds just enough
light that reality finds me
and I return alone
to my bed... to the emptiness
to await, in unprecedented yearning
a reawakening of reason.

tomorrow I will repeat
this nightmare
as I have done so many times
... besieged again.