"Why?"

@Uootem

Realization
      breeds regret
                    through the missing years
              to be met
                    by dismay in a lonely heart,
          at the losing torn apart
                          written but not read...
                useless quotations
                              fodder
                                  for the poet's lamentations
                of the most tragic event...
          the losing
  love gone
without my choosing.

I can only hope
            for some yet-to-come day...
                                    when you will return
                and those words again say
                            yet, the way my present world is now
      I can not fathom a reason
or how

Pity stains my face...
              for tears are there
                                as I see your image
                        everywhere
            my eyes tire
                  of the sorrow flow
    as I come to face
                what I already know
              and dream
                      of only a moment
                                      of warming glance
                      that could come only
          by an encounter's happenstance
yet, I know
            that a once-seen look in your eyes
                                  could turn this darkness
                  to sun-filled skies
I only have one wish...
            for this I must try
      an answer
to the question, of Why?