finding comfort in closure... again

@Uootem

another blank page stares at me
haunting eyes of a spiral notebook
there to take the attack of one more bout of emotion
ink stained bleeding of words that should not be
its purity filled with hope that beckons the poet
to fill it with something to take this yearning away.

                                                                              i wish it were so easy!

this is the last poem i will write...
I have said this phrase a thousand times
but perhaps this one to finally share for your reading
for it is the last moment i can't forget to
wish you were here with me again so i could
share the air you breathe as you speak the words found here.

                                                                            i wish it were so easy!

if it were the last to write... and I was sure that it was
i could pour forth upon this page, all my love for you
in written words that describe dreams in vivid color
and the faded glory that once was so ordinary
when i'd feel your eyes watching me as i gazed at the broken promise
that once held my shortened focus on whatever it was that we were

                                                                            i wish it were so easy!

this would be the moment where we could share my tears
then smile as we looked forward to another day together
when I could smile again for hopes would not be so futile...
but I realize that this moment will not be forthcoming
and again another blank page will stare at me with haunting eyes
yet the yearning will not cease... no reading aloud will be shared.

                                                                            but wishing is so futile
                                                                            none of this is so easy!