torment and ecstasy

@Uootem

such an intangible line separates
reality from dreams, reason from insanity
but what instance denotes the line of demarcation
between distasteful torment and sweet ecstasy?

    Is there yet hope for my oppressive affliction
    relief from the Pandemonium that convulses from deep within
    haunting self-deception and vivid chimera... mind contortionism
    challenging the odds with virulent transgression.

          In cloistered introspection I have tasted again
          your love-moist lips and erotic physique
          partook deep with eyes, your unveiled beauty
          more salient to me than priceless art.

With unreserved imaginativeness
I have devised a hundred different schemes
to inveigle you into sweet seduction
though just a apparition of my dreams.

    I yearn to once again tenderly caress your heart
    with the sharing of touch - tactile sensations shared
    our mutual desires pursued with reckless abandon
    until sanity has returned, reality found... love renewed.

          You shall always be my first love... remembered in dreams and insanity
          forbidden emotions cling to me in these days we now endure
          where such an intangible line separates us in reality and reason
          as I balance distasteful torment and sweet ecstasy.