"Still her... you"

@Uootem

The memory of that girl you were won't fade from memory
even though I have often attempted to forget,
attempted to ignore these constant thoughts that come to me,
attempted to stop this incessant dreaming with the sunset.
Useless is the energy spent in attempting.

But I finally moved on... I had to for sanity
I met others... tried to find new love... although quite different.
But it's still her... in my thoughts and dreams.... in my soul... in my heart
Still her taste that my lips hunger for... her softness that makes my body ache with desire
Still her voice that rings in my ears... her, who consumes my every day...
Still that girl you were... after all these years.

A remembered smile I seek in the moon... hers,
A warm embrace I long for in heat of day...in the cool of the night... hers,
A heart I feel beating when I hear music... hers,
Sweetened breath I smell in flowers... hers,
and it's the experience of her love I crave.

I know that it's a waste of time, senseless, insane, futile...
that girl is a woman now... you... with so many grown-up changes
but it's still her I hope to find again... that I remember so clearly
and when I happen to see you... I know that she is there inside the woman
and this poet in me can't find words enough
to convey my joy, my pain, my longing... my love for her... for you
the only words that come to his hand are words that I can't dare utter... so
in my familiar silence I scream... It's still her... It's still you...