"I Smile"

@Uootem

I smile fervently at what I see...
My old friend, long ago lover... my lifetime dream
The spirit of this day is full in the memory
Of your love, of your touch, of your acceptance...

I pause nearby, longing to run to you... to remind you, but
In modest muteness, I depart from you once more.
So many things I should have said... but did not find the words.

I walk alone into the profoundness of our memories
As I slowly remove all that keeps me from you....
For in this dream state, you are always there and
I am so full of your love, even now.

As I continue my sacred digression...
No longer can I hear the world outside
Only the redolence of your voice...
and loving words once uttered in the sound.

As my heart steps onto the cool soft fragrant land of this dreamscape.
I feel as though I am melting into you... you were always my warmth.
The brilliant moon casts many shadows of how we used to be
and shows me my rest... these thoughts call to me I lie down
in a field of softened clover... a mixture of green and purple.

My dreaming overpowers all the loneliness felt in my time
This dreaming... my becoming your lover once again
For this is who I am, this is my place...
the place that I ran to while being alone
So long ago when I lost your heart.

I am now once again that that lovesick boy of my youth
Who with a tear stained face... remembers and
Runs only to find you... but running in vain.
This boy has run this course... so many times before 
To seek encouragement... to erase the pain of love lost...
to find comfort for his spirit...

A gentle breeze folds and sways the clover
And its movement like a dance touches me...
Embracing... comforting my skin,
As your breath once did
So soft and warm this zephyr...

Into my wanting of you i am sinking... but i am not afraid
The rustling of the leaves from a nearby tree recalls your name
Look at them... dancing...
Don't they know that autumn will seal their fate?

My lost love, I have known your enchantment all of my life
I lift up my hand from the cool clover...
My fingertips extended in yearning
Reaching higher, seeking to quiet the leaves...
the sound of your name
I am becoming your lover... lost.

In my reaching, I have elevated my soul above the trees...
and can see the leaves...
the clover...
my body below me... younger now
And the girl you were is there with me.

Watching over you and I...
Once again in love's perfect world... unaware of time
And how cruel it will be to me soon...
Upon your leaving... and my loss.
But for this moment... the girl and boy are one again
I hear my heart whispering...
play my children play...
Allow our spirits to be free...
Find a way to keep the love that should ever be...
change my fate... for only you can.