Thank God, yesterday's feever is gone almost completely. All that's left remebering it is an awful shame because I was kind of showing off too much, especially on kung-fu subject... God I must have looked funny in his eyes! I want the earth floor to open beneath my feet! OK, I must relax as nothing can be changed and try to be meek as a lamb furthemore... But I'm trying to be so all the time and in vain - useless to fight against myself? Or after all we can look at it from a good part - I'm still as "crazy" as I always was and they still have to take habit of me, then I won't probably feel so stranger (like they're trying to keep back from me)... Incredible that it's all still with me like in childhood days - my extraordinarity despite all I try to do to look like others... :-)

Other thing is that I've been to toilet "for big cause" yesterday in the evening producing out lots and that was good as I think it was for a couple of days and otherwise I felt my bowels too full today... but few hours later I went again... and tomorrow in the morning again lots out, although I wasn't eating that much at all yesterday... and then few times later more by little... That's very good because my bowels seem to trhow out all the shit that was there god knows why so much and for how long... But I wonder at the reason why it's happening. Last time I took something in was mostly orange remainders I drank after 3am today as I was going to sleep (was finishing some paperwork on the computer), first having wrang it out to a cup of boiled water and having put what remained in, adding sugar, drinking diluted juice and then eating those reminders... I will have to try it later probably again to make sure? Although the clearing out started before it, yet... I'm very curious what made me clear out my bowels so well... Although, who knows it could be just climate change forth and back home.

I'm still slow because I wasn't sleeping enough. T.B. isn't calling and she wanted to pass something to relatives in Piter. Just now I thought - perhaps she felt I'm lying about my brother (she's a psychologist after all) blood kinship to me and could doubt where I'm going, so she probably wanted to test me this way - if I refuse or not? Well, my brain is either working actively those days or I have paranoic syndroms ;-)

Good I remembered yesterday to write down from e-mail Igor Priazhin's phone and discovered he said he'll give me the real CD of DD rarities he made... And I even had no time to look in his collection to see if I have something he doesn't... I thought I can at least perhaps bring him my DD badges I received from one girl for placing her announcment about DD items sold out on my site - I'm far from using them and from DD fanship except listening to the music anyway those days and probably will never be back on the level that would need badges.

I bought yesterday something I liked very much for my bro - a key-chain in form of hands holding like a sun an orange Cat's Eye - absolutely wonderful! And I took a blue Cat's Eye for his bride on the necklace. I only couldn't reach Ania Potravko by phone to ask if this mineral wouldn't be of harm to pregnant women but since it's protective I hope it won't and I'll ask later, if anything I can always notify bro's bride by ICQ any day.... I admit I feel a bit like in a dream of going to Piter... :-)

I took bath rather late... I hate to hurry :-) Will watch now the Highlander and then pack. My mom will come at 2pm to help me. I think everything's going to be fine. I have hard time to believe I AM leaving for Piter today and will see my brother very soon! :-)

Well, Sasha called - haven't seen him in ages - needed help with computer. Pity! ;-) Now it's time to turm off the comp and start packing at last before mom came and got angry I didn't yet! :-)

Bon Voyage to me!