I'm feeling extremely low today... It's the final day of passing my affairs... Damn, they want me to pass papers I never took officially and never filled... so when now I will have time to write them? :-(

Also, my friends are inviting me for a visit to Saint-Petersburg, my named brother who I never saw and there is opportunity to see him now thanks to his future wife whom he's coming to see (long distance relationship) and she invited me... But can you imagine, two people loving each other, with all the best intentions, I will be bothering them like the fifth leg in running... especially to her, I don't understand at all why she should ivite me, to please him or what?...

The man I care about is not writing to me... how do you think, am I sad or what?

And my friends don't give a damn about me... may be it's my own fault...

In short, I'm depressed, hardly keeping back tears and in general feeling very lonely, hurt and useless...

Why is that so?..........