Wow! I was first day at new job today. Got acquainted with almost all the staff which includes the office manager Polina (American with Russian background), Community Connections worker Marina and Domestic Violence (my program) coordinator Tatiana Borisovna, another Domestic violence worker Elya was in mission. (Elya and Marina are new but got at once in missions).

Tatiana Borisovna brought living flowers and a funny man made from ballons and sweets to congratulate us with the past holyday. Polina brought flowers for everyone and even for me! :-) Such a yellow, smelly, rose-alike flower. I liked it alot! :-)

Well, I examined computers present and found out that there are two identical ones, one of which is not working, neither its monitor (when connecting to another part each of them too), there is no fax greeting, one UPS-CPU cable is missing, a wireless phone can't be connected because the plug don't match our sockets.

As to the non working monitor and computer I fixed them both right away! :-) Well, it was simple stupid physical-level mistakes: the monitor's brightness was turned off to zero and the Video-card was plugged not completely in the motherboard. I did make impression on the first day, thanks to those stupid little wrong things because of which noone could work on this computer.

We got to a furniture store with Polina and took an invoice for a table in which we asked to change a shelf for a sliding shelf for the keyboard. It's a big black almost square table which is very good for I don't like to be sitting near to the monitor.

Also all my command for little office working things like desktop set, color pens etc. was taken into consideration and bought the very same day.

We got to TeNet (our provider which is loacted in the same building and to which we're connected through lan) and took a new account for me. Polina said it's a tradition for new workers to write an introduction letter to the mailinglist that includes all the mebers of Project Harmony staff in the world.

I talked to Polina about possibility of upgrading computers and buying a pocket for hard drive but she said me that 1 - the three computers we all work on (except her fourth) do not belong to the staff but to the resource center for Alumni; 2 - that such questions should be decided through higher coordinators.

Also, Vika from Kiev (seems to be bookkeeper) called and asked if I can come very soon in Kiev to meet them there and talk closely about everything concerning my new job. So, she said, the questions of PC-upgrade stuff can be decided with her there - I'll have to write down all the questions and ask... I can wait for using my e-mail profile, but how will I make installations?...

Well, I thought I can download Netscape at least from TeNet ftp and I did. Also CuteFTP. CuteFTP all the time made me illegal operations and Netscape just didn't want to install because the installer was making illegal operations too. I got the impression that this machine perhaps have viruses or something like this. It had AVP but no updates which I have on my HDD but can't connect it... Perhaps I'll just have to take a cable and connect it temporarily tomorrow.

I looked in my mail through web interface and found out that I've actually got the answer of the man I was worrying about and it turned out that he sent a e-mail to me before but to a wrong address and now redirected it to me. I was afraid he will be misunderstanding my wishes to know him more on emotional level and tried to explain better... I got no e-mails from my N-brother as he promised about results talking to his bride. May be he didn't yet?

It's intersting at work and we went all (except Marina) home too late! :-) We had to leave with Polina in darkness because they turned out the electricity. But on occasion she gave me Project Harmony branded key-pendant with a little light and we used it to go downstairs athough we passed on the stairway beside people she was waiting for and didn't notice each other! :-)

Also, my first day I passed in new boots, the cool ones. And although the first day of wearing them was normal, the second one, today was a hell for me! I could hardly make it through to home.

Of course, getting home and getting off those boots I was like dying and for more very hungry. But there was an old Orchid Marriage Agency client there and she came to me with papers which came to her and concerns her interview for fiancee visa in Warsaw. She's so annoying like hell, and her story is also long and difficult like her own personnality. Her mind is too nervous and unstable - she's kind of all the time in hysteria. She exchanged lots of agencies and was always telling bad things about them, they all were awfully unjust to her and greedy. Well now, for all my tries of help and writing in credit, then stopping with her consent (to get money from her bridegroom she wanted), and then refusing to send him an offensive letter, it came out now she was taking other steps behind my back and I told her evrything I think about it (then she came for advice and conealed those steps, how could I advise her?). My mom helped me too, thank god, reminding I shouldn't help those who don't want my help indeed (for that client asked for help but discussed roughly my advice and i tried to explain her but mom stopped me thank God again!). Well, as a resume, there is one good thing in it, I guess - telling from her eyes when she was living, I think, although she'll be telling terrible stories to others about me now too like before about other agencies, I won't see her again, what is actually great news, for she was impossible to get rid of in civilized manner and I didn't want to offend her because after all she's just a sick woman... And thank God it's not my problem any more now! :-)

So... I have very optimistic views as to the future :-) Life seems to improve finally. :-)))))

Almost forgot to say that I saw my N-bro in a dream tonight. I dreamed he came to visit me and we argued all the way over some really small things. I also dreamed that then we and some other friends of mine were wandering in some dark building-wall between ours and darkness world... I must say that this dream had a great affect on me and I felt a big relief after it: the matter is that I was under too deep influence of my brother but after that dream (and yesterdays phonetalk) I think I realized and accepted finally that we're different and although our friendship is still pricless, I'm free furthemore as a person apart with my own opinions and don't need his approval to my judjments, even if that's about him, to enjoy myself and to love him. True love is unconditional and everybody has right on his/her own mistakes - I finally felt it whole-heartedly. That feels like a really big step of maturity in relationships and of my personal development either :-) I love you bro, but I'm free now and we can only enjoy our friendship more from it.