Yes, I failed by little to forget that today is Tania's, my best friend, birthday. The matter is I planned to go to work, to be able to change computers and data on them to take me Pentium II and thanks to my mom I rembered that I have to go in th evening yet to Tania's birthday. However Tania called me a bit later and asked if I come. I said "sure" and she prevented me there is no special dishes or table because she mainly brought everything to work... Funny girl - like if I only come to her to eat! :-)

Well, to honestly say, I didn't come to work as early as I was planning. I was reading a book - "Magician of the Sealand" of Ursula LeGuin and wanted to finish it. I enjoid reading and finished the book by 3 I think. So I was at work only by 4 or even 5. I spent a lot of time to install my pocket (I brought the one from home here and installed at home a new one). My suspections about my old pocket being the source of certain groaning of my computer from time to time appeared to be true. But the case of this Pentium II! Some sick mind have invented it! I had trouble opening it, inside it's even rather comfortable for assembling/disassembling but the place for 5 inch devices!....... They have to be installed on special guides first! And I didn't have extra ones!... Finally I took one of the pair that was on the CD-ROM and installed each device on one guide... Well, they're not perfectly unmovable but stick enough to their place.

I decided to not mess into drive formatting and then attaching my WD HDD to copy the installation etc. (because Windows 98 SE does not install over other Windows versions), so I decided to simply delete Windows directory and system files in root of the drive. I did so, although it seems to me Windows directory wasn't completely deleted but I noticed it only later when Win98SE installation told me it will overwrite old files if I chose C:\Windows folder... OK, I didn't care and had no mucyh time, let's go!

While the installation was in place I decided to write a e-mail to my brother's bride with apologies but also telling I wouldn't abuse her welcomness now (well, I can be venimous!) although I know my brother will ask for it, and that I don't look for seeking her welcome or friendship or whatever if she doesn't want it, but the only thing I ask is to forgive my wrong action to put my anger against my brother at her back then. I also e-mailed my bro telling him about this e-mail and that also it's mot than sad for me that it had to be this way, that we couldn't make friends with his bride, but that now I've done all I could.

When Windows and all devices were installed it came out the Network doesn't work. It was already too late and I had no choice but to put it on Monday and go to Tania or I risked to come by sleeping time :-)

There was no much fun there, girls apart, boys apart - the thing I always hate about companies if it happens! We were actually only 3 girls and 2 boys - her, her brother Slavik, me and a couple of their friends (Lena and Igor who rent my mom's aparetment). Tania's boyfriend Serguey already left for work.

The couple gave Tania Taro cards and the girls tried to cast them but Tania didn't know what to ask. I did - about this whole situation with visit to my brother and his bride. Well, Lena told me nothing new - surprise from fake friendship etc... Then we chatted a bit about the whole situation and I told there is ONE thing I can't get.

The Only question that bothered me about this situation was the following: Olga obviously (after her too easy heartless words about our relationships twice in our short acquaintance) wasn't sincerely friendly to me but it was a kind of plan (now that explains her first phrase in our first talk: "I'm furious that this ingenious idea of making friends with you didn't came to MY head but someone {my bro} told me that) - to make good relationship with me to use them for some reason (and she's smart enough to use psychological methods and motives). So, whatever it is she needed it for, now it seems she refused very easily this thing. The question - why she so easily refused to some plan? And consequently it should tell us why at all she needed good relationships with me.

Tania's version:

She only wanted to make friedns with me because I'm his very good (quite important for him friend) but she didn't want me to come indeed for a visit (invitation was only a show of friendliness)

I somehow doubt that version a bit.

Lena's version:

She wants to try him, his low, his faithfullness (since I'm not of blood kinship with him truly and she knows our relationship is very tender)

My question: what then, she changed her mind about it - why she refused this plan so easily? For more that if she's a truly smart psychologist... I could tell at least at once that for him there is no use in tries - he has a noble heart and strong principles. But i don't deny this version can be a part of truth (although imagine that pregnant woman would try the father of her child... yet, she invited me before she knew and now could use my roughness as a pretext of refusing what otherwise would be not looking good)

My version:

She's of the very dangerous type of girls that direct psychologically not only men's minds but the minds of women around them too - they make best friends with them and then even when they take their men, the girl is trusting her so much that she's almost glad to see him go either... In this situation, I think her plan was to make me more her friend than his (now that's supported by a phrase from our first talks too: she said me she said to him that we will plot against him, the two of us, in joke of course...). But she saw she failed and that's impossible - that I always put him on the first place...

Well, here there is a little place for me to be proud of myself - ALWAYS people who use psychology to direct people around them fail against me because I'm interested in nothing but truth and they have no arms against me, no clues to rule over me, as all the others - except what they truly are... :-)

In the evening, Slavik, Tania's brother accompanied me home and we had a little funny discussion about this world coming to the end. He thinks it's pity the humans as such shall disappear... I don't. It's evlotuion, the progress, the only constructive way of development... and I welcome it with all my heart. Yet he said we can't go thtrough to the new world because we're e.g. smoking. All I replied is that there is still time... :-)

Yes, it's sad to see things go, but we have to be able to enjoy new things coming too! :-))