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11 May 2000
20:01:25

The changes of my mood are incredible!

Yesterday, when I went out of the office it was so warm on the street and the mood went up. I have even wrote lyrics for a song "Happiness is always only within the reach of your wish" but couldn't write music because two strings on my guitar got broken by themselves (may be from heat when the outer temperature went up after winter very suddenly).

I wanted to see a special dream today but saw something very old from my life (too old to matter) and second time moving to a new house - the night was of dreams that come true very fast! :-)

At work talked to the program director on the phone and burst into cries - the damned web-site issue, that cannot be changed a single bit (after my yesterday's efforts!) but then I discovered that I couldn't read my own message that I sent to the list with the version of the design. I wonder if anyone was.

Talked to bro today, he says he missed me too. But that all have hurt, how bad I miss him and today wasn't a relief - he has too little time, I'm left on the side of his life now... I guess life continues to tear me away... That hurts but that's very good - thank you. Even funny, although I got angry at her, I had more pleasure from talking to his bride today. Well, I hope my eternal offenses will be reduced soo thanks to my efforts and that bro as always understands me.

I just want ot be as sweet as him but I guess I should work yet hard and long before it, the main is that I'm aimed everyday at it.

Generally I begin to have impression that at work I drop down in bad mood. As soon as I walk out or am at home, everything is back perfect... But I should anyway change attitude to work... As I decided in rage to have a good drink today and to get them out of my head (actually Edward said me acouple of good things - about diplomacy and finding right time and that there will be a retreat), I think the mood went back to normal :-)

Bad news is that Han Lin is not coming soon due to work overload, so I'll have to wait for computer (yes, they buy me a new one if I didn't mention yet!) and the rest :-)

Well, now I think I'll put end to the boring existance of a bottle of the home made wine in my fridge (interesting if the silver piece I put there will make any change at its barmy taste). Thank God for that Slavik agreed to be my company, and he's already here, so I'm off!

And I'm tired of sadness - I want to be only in a good mood, that means I WILL! :-))))

 
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